June 29th, 2008

*gen - tiffany

The blahs of summer.

I've hit the part of summer where I'm unbearably bored. Not that I'd give up my vacation, of course! It's one of the best perks of being a schoolteacher, and I'm quite grateful for it! I know how lucky I am, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I'm just having a hard time keeping myself entertained, and the profound inactivity leaves me feeling depressed despite nothing bad happening in my life. This weekend I have:
-- Watched the new Doctor Who and rewatched season one of Burn Notice, which I enjoyed more than I did last summer.
-- Asked the Blockbuster clerk if they're getting Mad Men on Tues, so I can delete it from my mail-in queue.
-- Am watching Unbeatable Banzuke right now. Jenga fun!
-- Explored every possible position for lying on my sofa.
-- Cooked a casserole and some muffins, since I'm trying to curb my takeout addiction.
-- Cleaned the bathroom and straightened up the rest of my place.
-- Went to my knitting group this afternoon, then knitted some more at home.
-- Went to Starbucks and tried to write. Failed. Then sat in bed with my laptop and tried to write. Failed.

And so on. I'm also frustrated because I can't seem to write anything these days, aside from little one-off drabbles. I've tried and tried, but nothing works -- and this has been going on for months. It's really making me sad because I've been writing fic for nearly eleven years, and I've never had such trouble. I keep hoping it'll pass, but that's looking less and less likely. *sigh*

I really want to do something creative, besides knitting or fic. Maybe I'll update those Kara and Pilots moodthemes I made last year, or look for something neat to sew. It's gotta be better than this self-indulgent whining. ;) I've also been trying to do better with replies, though the weird shyness still kicks in too often. Maybe that should be my summer project....

ETA: And now I'm cheering myself up by listening to old Neil Diamond songs. I love his music without shame or irony. ;)
  • Current Music
    Neil Diamond - "Forever In Blue Jeans"
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