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Posted on March 31, 2008 @ 11:23 am
[ mood | calm ]

Apparently the theme for this week is annoyances.

I have two huge pet peeves. One of which is open doors and windows. I'm okay if there's a screen between me and the outside world but just open air kind of bothers me. I don't know why.

My other pet peeve is when girls pee on the public toilet seats and then don't clean up after themselves. You are disgusting and lazy if you do this. There is no reason that you cannot use the toilet seat covers they provide in most public restrooms, or if those are unavailable there is no reason you cannot use toilet paper to cover the seat. If you choose to hover, and piss on the seat, clean it up. Unless you have some kind of weird fetish where it gets you off to know that other people have to clean up your piss. In which case, again, you are disgusting.

Craig says everything is my pet peeve. I disagree. There are a lot of things that make me happy and I thoroughly enjoy. For example, this morning he made plans with me to have dinner at Mellow Mushroom on Friday and then go to listen to this band at Preservation Pub. I love plans. A lot. I also love the pizza at Mellow Mushroom. I also happen to be a big fan of live music. I also really love Craig. See...Four things that don't annoy me. Most of the time.


what's he building in there? [
Posted on March 28, 2008 @ 11:08 am
[ mood | cranky ]

I criticize everything that walks across my path, and as much as I hate to be criticized, I love to be criticized.

Be hard on me. Tell me all the bad things you see. Tell me I'm fat. Tell me I'm ugly. Tell me I'm loud. Tell me I'm shy. Tell me I'm aggravating. Tell me I'm immature. But tell me out of love, otherwise I'll kick your ass.

Tell me all the bad things you see so I can make me better. I'm really not looking to be flattered when I ask, "Do I look bad??". I'm looking for the truth.

I guess that's why I'm so quick to tear people apart. I think, someone in their life isn't doing a good job because they look like a fool. I guess there's the whole personal style issue....whatever. Kudos to you random rich girl I saw downtown yesterday wearing cowboy boots with a flowing designer chiffon dress. Congratulations, you're a walking oxymoron.

...I'm being a bit harsh.

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you're right. i get it. [
Posted on March 27, 2008 @ 9:55 am
[ mood | okay ]

Of course the one day I get my ass out of bed to come to Calculus class and not ask a classmate to check me off on the attendance sheet for me, is the one day we had a scheduled class cancellation and I forgot.

Mr. Woodcock is by far the worst movie I've seen in a while.

Nothing fun has happened lately. Craig's job has him constantly away from me. I hate them.

I'm really hungry, but I'm trying to get in shape. And I've already had cherrios and eggbeaters for breakfast.

How many more lame things can I write about?

If anyone, although I have no idea who anyone is, feels like being intellectual and reading Craig's blog, it's http://commoncynsical.blogspot.com



sweet you rock and sweet you roll [
Posted on March 24, 2008 @ 10:51 am
[ mood | hungry ]

WOW. It has been way too fucking long.

I used to not write very much because my life was pretty boring, but since I've met Craig I've had plenty of interesting moments. So hopefully I will be writing more.

We met in November via match.com shut up. We've been together since sometime in January, but I'm not sure when. He's the only person that I can't talk out my ass to sound smarter to because he's already so damn smart so he'll know I'm making it up. It's kind of annoying, but I love him truly madly deeply anyway. He's the only person I have been able to completely open up to. He knows me.

And it's funny, when you finally meet the person you've been looking for your whole life. The person you make up in your head as being the perfect one for you. When they show up in the flesh, it's kind of freaky. It's scary, but awesome. A for real too good to be true feeling. Like if a unicorn showed up in your backyard. Kinda scary because unicorns should only exist in your mind, but awesome because whoomp(!) there it is.

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imagine me and you [
Posted on December 27, 2007 @ 12:29 am
Distance makes the heart grow fonder vs. Out of sight, out of mind.

He's definitely been on my mind. I'm aware of people thinking it's too good to be true. I'm aware of people saying, "You deserve someone like him". I'm aware that he makes me happier than I've been in a long, long time.

See you Saturday.
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it's called rambling. [
Posted on December 17, 2007 @ 9:53 pm
[ mood | cheerful ]

I'm going to be 21 in less than a month. Wow.

I'm starting to wonder what kind of a Christian I am. I was raised in a strict Baptist environment, but I obviously don't live that way. I don't doubt for a second that God exists and that Jesus is my savior, but maybe I believe showing the love of God to everyone is more important than telling them they're wrong. I think I'm going to have to visit some different churches and figure this out.

I was in love a month ago. It was the only time I've ever really been in love. I would have died for this man, knowing that he would not do the same. I knew this because he said this to me. And I loved him anyway. I loved him so much I thought that I would never be happy without him and therefore tried to put it out of my mind when he told me to shut up or said I was stupid or called me a bitch in front of his friends. However, I was no saint either, and I'll be the first to admit that. I never called him out in public or spoke down to him, but I was not perfect.

Anyway. I am happy now, and I'm no longer in love, and I am afraid to be that vulnerable again. Love means putting that person above you in every way. And it's so much more than that, too.

Someone has come into my life recently that respects me and sees my true value. This makes me happy, and I ask nothing more of him.

Also, I have the best roommate in the world. Of all the crazy people in the world, we ended up meeting and becoming roommates. We were going through very similar situations in life, and for the most part have both recovered fully. After only knowing each other for about a month I feel like I've known her my whole life. It must have been God.

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oneeighty. [
Posted on December 12, 2007 @ 10:56 am
My life is finally heading in the direction that I thought it should be going a year ago. I've finally found happiness in who I am and the things around me. For the first time in a very very long time I'm putting myself first.

Thank you for leaving me when I couldn't leave you. You saved my life.

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