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Its been a long time since I wrote in here- again. But with the days drawing in and deadlines for University within the month, I’m back with a long overdue update.

Today (22nd October) is me and Dave’s first anniversary of when we kissed, which we are kinda classing as our anniversary as we were inseparable from then. I am literally bursting with happiness at this thought, I love Dave so much and it just feels absolutely right. Its almost odd, in all previous relationships I guess I would have made a fuss over being together a year- it’s a milestone and all, but with Dave its just happened, its no big achievement as I can’t see any reason why we wouldn’t be together. We enjoy each others company, I love the way we are so comfortable with each other and can talk to each other so freely. I think I’d find it difficult to count the amount of arguments we’ve had on more than one hand, we just get on so well and like the same kind of things. Its just really blissful and nice, no drama just lot’s of love, lust and affection for each other. Squee.

I’ve made Dave a photo album of lots of soppy pictures of us together. I feel almost embarrassed giving it him as it’s a little sickening; I think he’ll appreciate it though.

So what things have been happening to me recently?.... hmmmm

Well I passed my placement, and consequently my first year doing Social Work. I’m over the moon about this, as it makes me one step closer to my goal of becoming a Social Worker and it feels really good doing something at University that I am good at and enjoy. My second year has started now and already deadlines are sneaking up. What has been excellent is that I started the term really positive and made a big effort to make small talk with other people on my course. I can sometimes be a bit insular or ramble on about geeky stuff that alienates people, so I made a big effort to with the whole small talk thing. Talking about X factor and shoes seemed to bridge that gap between me and a few people, so now I’ve made some friends on my course, which is nice as last year I struggled to find common ground with my coursemates which left me a bit isolated- especially as I started after freshers week.

 The week before starting Uni, I also started my new part time job in Palliative Care. I have been looking after a lady in her forties dying from a brain tumour. It has been really difficult, both emotionally and physically, and last week after two really hard 10 hour night shifts, I left her and a few hours later she was taken to hospital. It was quite devastating and I am unsure whether she’ll be coming out. I think it may have made me a stronger person, certainly more paitient and  it really makes you think about your own mortality, and living for the day.

 This week I have no scheduled hours and so I am using it as an opportunity to get stuck into coursework, and finally have my induction at the gym as I am desperate to start getting fitter, currently my only exercise is raving.

 As I have already briefly written about, at  the beginning of September I was declared bankrupt. It had to be done, I was being harassed by creditors that refused offers of reduced payments to them even though I proved that I had no additional income. My situation wasn’t going to improve in the next 2 years and after budgeting it was worked out that even with a part time job I only just about break even. The full impact hasn’t yet started to affect me, but I am well aware I am now classed as subprime lender and when I have left uni and started working I still will not be able to obtain credit, which will affect getting a mortgage. The benefits of declaring bankruptcy now are that a lot of people are doing it, and so in the future I will be able to write it off as being a product of the recession. By the time the economy recovers hopefully my credit rating will be better as well and it’ll give me time to start saving for a deposit- which I think will be a reality for everyone- goodbye to 110% mortgages.

 My summer was filled full of my unemployment which did make things more difficult financially but afforded me the opportunity to go to The Big Chill festival, which was possibly one of the best weekends of my life, it was amazing and spending it with Dave made it even more special than last year. I also went to Glade Festival for free as Dave and I worked for ‘Tea and Empathy’ the Welfare tent where we patched up people who had had too many drugs. It was eye opening if anything, it made me consider doing Social Work in the area of drugs rehabilitation. Glade was insanely messy, everyone there seemed to be on drugs and most disturbingly was people who had no idea of their limits mixing chemicals they had no idea of. People should learn to respect the chemicals, you can kinda see why the government try and nanny/safeguard the public.

 More recently- last weekend infact, Dave, Ryan, Jodie Lottie, Mark and I went to Eclectricity at The Custard Factory,  it was pretty amazing especially the Scratch Perverts that did some excellent DnB/indie/Dubstep/metal mashups- you’d gotta be there to appreciate it I think, and Nosia who put on an ridiculously techy set that was absolutely brutal.

It was also that Eclectricity that Dave and I first kissed last year so we were a bit nostalgic. We didn’t get in till 7am, and then didn’t sleep till nearing 9am and so unsurprisingly we stayed in bed till almost 5 in the afternoon.

 Next week is Therapy Sessions in Birmingham, and the week after I am putting on a 50th/16th Birthday party for my mum and brother Adam. I agreed to do catering and so I am unsure how that’s gonna turn out for 50+ guests.


I feel: calm calm

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I will Update my journal soon- I promise!
I went bankrupt on Monday 8th September, and so I am not allowed a bank account and any assets I have are seized by the Official Reciever.

So I'm selling stuff

Bustiers, Pin up Dresses, Cyber goth tops, pinstripe work trouser, Girly Misfits, Biffy Clyro and Smashing Pumpkins tops, Octopus bag, Betty Boop and stuff.

I think P+P on most things will be about £3
Prices are a guide
Paypal fees not included

This way ..............Collapse )
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Time for a wardrobe purge

Size 4, 5 and 6 Goth boots. I'm open to reasonable offers :)

I feel: busy busy

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Roni Size

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I feel: chipper chipper

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Thou shalt not steal if there is direct victim.
Thou shalt not worship pop idols or follow lost prophets.
Thou shalt not take the names of Johnny Cash, Joe Strummer, Johnny Hartman, Desmond Decker, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix or Syd Barret in vain.
Thou shalt not think that any male over the age of 30 that plays with a child that is not their own is a paedophile… Some people are just nice.
Thou shalt not read NME.
Thall shalt not stop liking a band just because they’ve become popular.
Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.
Thou shalt not judge a book by it’s cover.
Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover.
Thall shalt not buy Coca-Cola products.
Thou shalt not buy Nestle products.
Thou shalt not go into the woods with your boyfriend’s best friend, take drugs and cheat on him.
Thou shalt not fall in love so easily.
Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls’ pants. Use it to get into their heads.
Thou shalt not watch Hollyoakes.
Thou shalt not attend an open mic and leave as soon as you're done just because you’ve finished your shitty little poem or song you self-righteous prick.
Thou shalt not return to the same club or bar week in, week out just ’cause you once saw a girl there that you fancied but you’re never gonna fucking talk to.

Thou shalt not put musicians and recording artists on ridiculous pedestals no matter how great they are or were.

The Beatles - Were just a band.
Led Zeppelin - Just a band.
The Beach Boys - Just a band.
The Sex Pistols - Just a band.
The Clash - Just a band.
Crass - Just a band.
Minor Threat - Just a band.
The Cure - Just a band.
The Smiths - Just a band.
Nirvana - Just a band.
The Pixies - Just a band.
Oasis - Just a band.
Radiohead - Just a band.
Bloc Party - Just a band.
The Arctic Monkeys - Just a band.
The next big thing - JUST A BAND.

Thou shalt give equal worth to tragedies that occur in non-English speaking countries as to those that occur in English speaking countries.
Thou shalt remember that guns, bitches and bling were never part of the four elements and never will be.

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not make repetitive generic music

Thou shalt not pimp my ride.
Thou shalt not scream if you wanna go faster.
Thou shalt not move to the sound of the wickedness.
Thou shalt not make some noise for Detroit.
When I say “Hey” thou shalt not say “Ho”.
When I say “Hip” thou shalt not say “Hop”.
When I say "he say, she say, we say, make some noise" - kill me.
Thou shalt not quote me happy.
Thou shalt not shake it like a polaroid picture.
Thou shalt not wish your girlfriend was a freak like me.
Thou shalt spell the word “Pheonix” P-H-E-O-N-I-X not P-H-O-E-N-I-X, regardless of what the Oxford English Dictionary tells you.
Thou shalt not express your shock at the fact that Sharon got off with Bradley at the club last night by saying “Is it”.
Thou shalt think for yourselves.

And thou shalt always kill.
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The drug classification system in the UK is not "fit for purpose" and should be scrapped, scientists have said.

They have drawn up an alternative system which they argue more accurately reflects the harm that drugs do.

The new ranking system places alcohol and tobacco in the upper half of the league table, ahead of cannabis and several Class A drugs such as ecstasy.

The study, published in The Lancet, has been welcomed by a team reviewing drug research for the government.

The Academy of Medical Sciences group plans to put its recommendations to ministers in the autumn.

A new commission is also due to undertake a three-year review of general government drug policy.

The new system has been developed by a team led by Professor David Nutt, from the University of Bristol, and Professor Colin Blakemore, chief executive of the Medical Research Council.

t assesses drugs on the harm they do to the individual, to society and whether or not they induce dependence.

A panel of experts were asked to rate 20 different drugs on nine individual categories, which were combined to produce an overall estimate of harm.

n order to provide familiar benchmarks, five legal drugs, including tobacco and alcohol were included in the assessment. Alcohol was rated the fifth most dangerous substance, and tobacco ninth.

Heroin was rated as the most dangerous drug, followed by cocaine and barbiturates. Ecstasy, however, rated only 18th, while cannabis was 11th.

The researchers said the current ABC system was too arbitrary, and failed to give specific information about the relative risks of each drug.

It also gave too much importance to unusual reactions, which would only affect a tiny number of users.

Professor Nutt said people were not deterred by scare messages, which simply served to undermine trust in warnings about the danger of drugs.

He said: "The current system is not fit for purpose. Let's treat people as adults. We should have a much more considered debate how we deal with dangerous drugs."

He highlighted the fact that one person a week in the UK dies from alcohol poisoning, while less than 10 deaths a year are linked to ecstasy use.

Professor Blakemore said it was clear that current drugs' policies were not working.

"We face a huge problem. Illegal substances have never been more easily available, or more widely abused."

He said the beauty of the new system, unlike the current version, was that it could easily be updated to reflect new research.

Professor Leslie Iversen, a member of the Academy of Medical Sciences group considering drug policy, said the new system was a "landmark paper".

He said: "It is a real step towards evidence-based classification of drugs."

Professor Iversen said the fact that 500,000 young people routinely took ecstasy every weekend proved that current drug policy was in need of reform.

Home Office Minister Vernon Coaker said: "We have no intention of reviewing the drug classification system.

"Our priority is harm reduction and to achieve this we focus on enforcement, education and treatment."

He said there had been "unparalleled investment" of £7.5 billion since 1998, which had contributed to a 21% reduction in overall drug misuse in the last nine years and a fall of 20% in drug related crime since 2004.

But he added: "The government is not complacent and will continue to work with all of our partners to build on this progress."

I feel: accomplished accomplished

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Everyone in and around Coventry should try and get along as its going to be a night of excellent music.
Starting at 8pm at Warwick University Students Union £4 without NUS.

Really, these are some of the finest unsigned bands in the country!
Warwick University is really lucky to have so many talented musicians forming bands and playing fucking awesome music.

Literally everyone of these bands is good enough to win, and its going to be an excellent night.

Check out some of the bands on Myspace:

My personal Faves are Pink widow (they sound a bit like System of a down, and Sikth) http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=58773061&MyToken=87040048-91b1-426a-9ab3-3aa874ae8b6e

Cakeflap (prog wizardry)

EDD (Metal... tbh too metal for me! They are very good though)

Blind Pilots (Funk/rock type stuff- a bit like Incubus)

Young and the damned (Sound like early 90's indie- like when Indie was good!)

The Geoff Penksik Project
I haven't seen them and they don't have a myspace, but I've heard they are heavy and very good.

I feel: chipper chipper

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I feel: cheerful cheerful

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I feel: bored bored

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