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i can't stop hurting :( [29 May 2007|08:57pm]
I don’t wanna know that something I didn’t say could have saved us.
I don’t want there to be things left undone.
Because maybe if I had kissed you a little bit harder, or held you a little tighter,
I wouldn’t have driven you away.
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taken from bradley - Boy meets world pic in there for u too brad [16 Mar 2007|08:02pm]
Only two rules-- and you MUST follow

1.You can only say yes or no.

2.YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING!!!!.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- -- - - - - - - -- - - -- - -- - - - -- -

1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? no
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes
4. Driven a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? no
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? yes
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex (non sexual)? yes
20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes!
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel?yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? no
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention?yes
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? no
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
45. Listened to the same song on repeat for over an hour? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? yes
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? yes
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. had internet sex? no
67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
72. gone skinny dipping? no
73. Passed out from drinking? yes
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours total? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes
81. tripped too hard? yes
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Felt like running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
88. Done something illegal? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Had sex more than 10 times in one day? no
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Had/Have a dog? yes
94. attacked a performer at a concert? no
95. Own an instrument? no
96. Been in a band? no
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
98. Broken a CD? yes
99. Shot a gun? no
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? yes

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Goodbye [19 May 2004|05:06pm]
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[19 May 2004|04:32pm]
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[16 May 2004|01:26pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

when i look at you.. i know everything's going to be alright




You are amazing


...Today is going better. have sooo much homework to do though. Was supposed to have driving class today but it got cancelled due to his death :(

will continue next weekend tho i guess.

today is me and Jason's five months.
yes yes .... FIVE!! lol
not a big number, but i think it's defiently something being happy over. im verrrry happy about it.

i love you
5 months is bulllllllll.. cuz we're forever baby <3


anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA!!!! HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO MR JUSTIN BEHIE. AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE ELSE THAT READS THIS... IF ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY THO. OF COURSE :)

oops all caps. but too lazy to change it. Meh :)

The End.
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[15 May 2004|06:29pm]
[ mood | sick and shocked ]

lovely horrible day at driving class today....


fuckin horrible.. soo i go in for class and the first couple hours are fine, then go for lunch and on my way back from my lunch break to go upstairs.. my instructor has a heart attack..
.....unbelievable.. ive been in shock all day
so we got dismissed early and then i get a call from the driving school saying that tomorrow's class is cancelled and that he passed on..

i feel so horrible. I mean.. i just saw the poor guy.

R.I.P. Murray Pothier

you were a funny guy <3
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[11 May 2004|05:06pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I wish someone that i hate had livejournal.. cuz right now.. i would try to describe my hate for them and let them know how i really feel...




Asshole
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aww its cute :) [10 May 2004|06:09pm]
[ mood | awake ]

absence makes the heart grow fonder.. but it sure makes the rest of you lonely.- Charlie Brown
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stolen lol <3 [09 May 2004|12:16pm]
[ mood | content ]

name = Alyssa

nickname = aly, leese, elizaa lol

piercings = ear lobes, tregus

tattoos = yes, one

height = 5'2

shoe size = 7ish

hair color = brown

siblings = stepsister and brother

...Last:

movie you rented = stuck on you

movie you bought = uhh not sure

song you listened to = everytime- britney spears

cd you bought = i havent bought any lately..i burn cds but i bought something corporate awhile ago

cd you listened to = burnt one

person you've called = umm not sure, probly jason

tv show you've watched = umm i duno

person you were thinking of = Jason

DO...

you have a bf or gf = yes

you have a crush on someone = just them?

you wish you could live somewhere else = kinna

you believe in online dating = nope

you believe others find you attractive = umm i guess so

you want more piercings = sometimes

you drink = yes

you do drugs = no

you smoke = no

you like cleaning = no

you like roller coasters = no, defiently not

you write in cursive or print = print

you carry a donor card = nope

FAVORITE...

food = i loveee italian food, so any pastas and stuff are my favorites

song = dont have a favorite

thing 2 do = be with jason, go out and hang out with friends

thing to talk about = not sure

sports = soccer

drinks = juice

clothes = jeans, comfy shirts/sweaters

movies = Here on Earth, Lion King, finding nemo, save the last dance, etc.

band/singer = Michelle branch, Britney, Lifehouse, Brand new, Something Corporate, etc.

day = Friday, Saturday

cars = anything antique, vw bugs, civic, i like mostly anything nissan too

ever cried over a boy/girl = yepp

ever lied to someone = yes

ever been in a fist fight = sorta

WHAT...

shampoo do you use = pantene

shoes do you wear = adidas,sandals,dressier shoes

you are scared of = a buncha things like heights, motorcycles, being hurt. and a few more lol

NUMBER...

of times I have been in love? = im in love now.

of times I have had my heart broken? = once really bad, the other couple times were realy minor

of hearts I have broken? = a couple i thikn

of boys I've slept with? = i sleep in jasons bed all the time hahhaa

of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? three id say, with my life
i have a few good friends tho that i can trust with alot tho

of people I consider my enemies? = not very many

of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = a couple times

of scars on my body? = a few

my past that I regret? = i regret alot of my past.. it was a bad last couple years, this year has been so good to me tho.. in most parts anyways

FAVORITE...

kiddy movie = the lion king or nemo or little mermaid.. damn.. i dont have a favorite. disney movies are so good

scent = my grandmother's house.. alot of calgon stuff, good smelling cologne on guys

girls name = i have too many favorites, its gonna be hard to pick someday

eye color = green or a pretty brown lol

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[08 May 2004|11:20pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

i never knew that finding out some things could change your whole life around


I don't know what i could ever do without you...


this is so hard.. i cant be without you. ever.

i love you so so much. you are my everything.

next year we have some thinking to do but this summer will be amazing.

you are amazing.


Andddd i love my friends <3

speaking of friends... the friends finale was soo good. i was like pretty much in tears. Rachel Green and Ross Gellar... awwww :) haha im suchhh a nerd. oo well


Anyways im going out to sit by the fire pit lol <3
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[04 May 2004|04:41pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

You got my heart by just being who you are
And what we got is between me and you...
we were meant to be.
..your kiss.. it's a part of me..




It's going to get better.. i promise. *






This love.. is unlike any other and without you in my life.. id be so lost.

you're incredible. nothing will ever change the way i feel about you. * <3 <3


Dance tomorrow. Sarah's coming with me i think. i signed her in. should be an alright time .. everyone better be going and we don't need any skank grade 9's there but i guess there'll be a few none skanky ones lol


i hate how my dad hasnt called in almost two weeks... i hate how he doesn't care.
It's not like he ever did anyway... I've been pretty pissed bout that this week too.. but some things i just dont wanna seem like a bother to complain about..

Everything is starting to look up... but the weather made me sad today. i hate rain. its so depressing when its raining and so dark out. everything is so muddy and yucky.

It's supposed to be nice Friday. that makes me a happy girl. i just wish that i had nice summer clothes.. or happy with my body...
i hate that about summer.. skinny girls in cute tight clothes... i can't do that.


Anywaysss ... I loveeeeeee youuuuuuu
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[03 May 2004|02:04pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

Alright.. so i said i wouldn't write in this anymore but i figured i'd write a thankyou to someone... well two people.....

Thankyou Meaghann, you really made my day with that hug.. sometimes school makes me insanely cranky but you always have a way of making me feel better.. i cant thankyou enough for being there for me. you're an amazing person. i loveeee you <3



And Jason (of course).. i don't know where i would be without you and in the past couple of weeks you've been there for me all the way.. i thankyou so much <3


I love my friends..the real ones who have been there through good and bad. thanks to everyone <3 I'm feeling a bit better this week. im so glad that i do.


And after all.. you're my wonderwall
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[02 May 2004|04:08pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Livejournal is becoming stupid. i miss having cute comments and reading people's journals.. i'm not seeing much of any of that anymore.. so i probly won't be posting again until i actually have something more to say




Sleepover went well with Meaghann and Mo mo last night. and yepp.. thats all thats new
<3 <3

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *


i love you baby.


everytime i try to fly.. i fall without my wings..i feel so small.. i guess i need you baby

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[01 May 2004|02:42pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of losing you.




you're the only reason i'm trying
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[30 Apr 2004|11:58pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

i'm bored ritgh now and its so hot in ehre... did enybody go down to secnd tinight?

anyways i think in ging to gp to bed.. i drenk a bit and nowww i jave heartbirn...i feel sickkkkkl

i'n exvited foir me and mooo mooo slee'psover tomororw

:_ yayyyyyyyyyyyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


anywaysss beddyuuutome!
!!!!!!

goooonight!!

i lovee youu jason danfo

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[30 Apr 2004|04:19pm]
[ mood | bored ]

So gimmie the rhythm and it'll be off with the clothes...


<3 <3


Confess something.. whether it be a secret you hate keeping.. a secret passion, etc. and post it anonymously..(i cant spell anonymous..?)
then do the same in your journal to see wat others have to say


You can even anonymously say something bout me? just kidding. :)

Anyways go nuts.

<3 Tonight drinking, then tomororw sleepover with mo mo!! yayyy yaayyy :)
then sunday= my essay for english. dammmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnn it.
i hate essays..

Livejournal is getting boring. I wish someone had exciting news. heyy u can even reply with exciting news if u have any? any at all? lol
welll im trying.

<3 anyways everyone have a good night.
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[25 Apr 2004|05:20pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Welllll last night.. was total bullshit. Like it went alright and then all went downhill, got in a huge fight with the person who means the most to me in this whole world and it wasnt just an argument it was a biggg fight. so last night was the worst thing ever. Then when i had forgotten bout how childish ands tupid people can be and how much i hate people, i went to sleep and stuff and woke up feeling much much better. Then i get the worst news ever.

My cousin died this morning...

I hafta go to a funeral this week, not quite sure wat day it will be yet. soo yea.

And now i wanna be alone. I am having a horrible day. Soo please leave me some good comments. i really need some good comments to get my mind off stuff.

Jason- thanks for being there for me period. it means alot.

 

ohh and to any BITCHES, guaranteed u know im talking about you, fuck off and stay out of my life. and our life. his friend's lives too...  they dont like you.

 

i hate being mean.. soo heres to me being the happy me again.

me and my dad went out and looked at some pretty houses today. and we went into this open house thing just because, it was hugeeeee. and i fell in love with it. but its wayy too much money, even tho im sure my dad woulda loved to buy it if we had u know like 400,000 to spend on a house.

 

anyways, i dont really have anything else to say

EXCEPT..... MATTHEW, DANIELLE where are you? u better be reading this!!!

 

HAVE FUN IN DOMINICAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u guys both deserve it so so much :) LUV YOU BOTH .

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quizzzzz [19 Apr 2004|03:35pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

quizzzyyy survey thingCollapse )

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[19 Apr 2004|08:43am]
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

2. Am I lovable?

3. How long have you known me?

4. When and how did we first meet?

5. What was your first impression?

6. Do you still think that way about me now?

7. What do you think my weakness is?

8. Do you think I'll get married?

9. What makes me happy?

10. What makes me sad?

11. What reminds you of me?

12. If you could give me anything what would it be?

13. How well do you know me?

14. When's the last time you saw me?

15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

16. Do you think I could kill someone?

17. Describe me in one word.

18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying
the same?

19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would
listen?

20. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?



dooo it :)
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BOLD [18 Apr 2004|06:00pm]
[ mood | awake ]

 

ONLY bold everything that you remember!! :)Collapse )

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