Tags: sheldon hawkes

stella dubious

belated CSI:NY episode comments

scarletts_awry and I just watched "Yahrzeit" this afternoon.

(We are just now catching up on the last six or seven episodes of CSI:NY since we didn't watch them when they originally aired, and we started on NY once we finished our Sunday afternoon re-watch of Leverage S1.)

And: wow. Wow. Very emotionally difficult and a lot to take in. Quite possibly one of their best episodes ever. Mac's arc was very interesting and there's a lot of food for thought there, and Ed Asner knocked it out of the park with his guest appearance, but I'm also very interested in what was going on with Hawkes in this episode. Hill Harper similarly just went for broke in his big scenes, and while that's not the material that (I suspect) garnered as much attention as the Asner part of the storyline, I think there were some equally difficult, complicated things going on there.

I'm terribly out of practice with writing reviews, but this is an episode I might like to try to go into greater detail about in a future post. I've missed reviewing.
hawkes thoughtful

Sheldon Hawkes, how are you so awesome?

Thesis statement: Sheldon Hawkes would make the best kindergarten teacher ever.

Supporting evidence: Hawkes' interaction with the little girl and her teddy bear in "Grand Murder at Central Station"; Hawkes' general aura of calm and kindness; Hawkes' ongoing sense of wonder at the world

Conclusion: Barring a sudden change in career, which seems unlikely at this stage, Hawkes should, at least, be put into a situation in which he will be able to interact with small children on a regular basis. For example, he could become assistant couch for Flack's sports team, or he could teach in another after-school program, such as Big Brothers/Big Sisters.

Discuss.
stella & hawkes

birthday!

Today is my honey's birthday!

Dear scarletts_awry,

Today is your birthday. You got the present I mailed to you a week ago, and I know you liked the book and the Starbucks gift card, but I wanted to do something more, something less tangible. So here we are on LJ, where we met.

My only question now is: what should I do for your birthday?

I would write you poetry if I could, because you wrote some for me, but I don't know how. (You say you can't write poetry, but I really can't.)

I thought about writing you the Mac/Hawkes story that we had been talking about and that I know you want to see at some point, or some other story, but I'm still struggling with writing and with trying to find my voice again. That's all right; I think I'm going to find it again.

But then I thought, well, if I can't quite write a story in the usual fashion, I could do the next best thing. I could tell you what happens between two characters, just like I do when we're on the phone or e-mailing each other and we start riffing on an idea.

So, with that idea in mind, here's a few paragraphs about what Mac and Hawkes would do to celebrate Mac's birthday.

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They would start off with dinner. Dinner would be sushi, of course. Hawkes would tell Mac that he tried to get them reservations for Nobu, but that he couldn't. Mac would tell him not to worry, because he would have been shocked if he had managed to pull it off. Hawkes says, oh, don't worry, some day I will. And that makes Mac smile. A lot of things that Hawkes does or says make Mac smile, mostly because just being around Hawkes makes him feel good, and sometimes even feel like he can let down his guard.

Since they couldn't get into Nobu, they go to one of the sushi restaurants they usually frequent, and they get beer and a lot of different rolls and many pieces of sashimi, and they sit and relax and eat pieces of fresh, raw tuna and the sweet, near-melting yellowtail, and they let the sweetness of the fish mix with the bite of the wasabi and crisp pieces of fresh ginger.

They would talk over dinner. Mac would want to talk about work at first, as usual, but eventually Hawkes would be able to steer him away from that, and they'd get into a conversation about whichever one of Hawkes' many interests are capturing his attention at the time. This, of course, could be almost anything (which is one of the things that Mac likes best about Hawkes). On this particular evening, since they're having sushi, that might be the book that Hawkes is reading about feudal Japan, or it might be about something completely unrelated, like the upcoming Melvin van Peebles tribute at MoMA or the Beyond Babylon exhibition at the Met. Hawkes would insist on picking up the check over Mac's protests, since it is, as he would remind him patiently, Mac's birthday.

After dinner, they would go to a jazz club. Not the place Mac occasionally plays at, but some other quiet little place that they both enjoy going to. They would sit and have some more drinks and listen to the music, and even though they wouldn't talk much except for some brief conversation in between sets, it would be enough for both of them to just be there and be together with good music and good drinks and a good dinner behind them. Mac would pretty much have a constant smile on his face by this time.

After the club, Hawkes would suggest that they go back to his place for the night. They would walk down the street, still not talking much, but both feeling content. Once they got back to the apartment, Hawkes would give Mac his birthday gift. Mac would get all flustered and say that he didn't expect Hawkes to do that and that he shouldn't have. Hawkes says he knows that, but he did anyway.

Mac would then open the package and discover that, to his delight, Hawkes had gotten him a kit to build a mini-trebuchet. Hawkes would immediately start describing his plans for how Mac could set it up on his desk at work and how they could test it out. Mac would make a token protest and try to say that it's really not appropriate for work and that it would be better if he kept it on his desk at home instead, but his grin would give him away, and he'd already be laughing.

Hawkes would kiss Mac then, and Mac would kiss him back. Mac would thank Hawkes for the good birthday celebration, and Hawkes would say that he hopes he gets to do it again, lots more times. Mac would that he hopes so, too, and that would make Hawkes smile.

They would kiss some more and then would go to bed, although they'd both be briefly tempted to stay up and start building the trebuchet.

And that's how Mac and Hawkes would celebrate Mac's birthday.

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Like I said back at the beginning of this, we met on LJ, and I remember you telling me that some of my Mac/Hawkes stories were the first fic of mine you ever read. I never dreamed back then, when you first commented on one of my entries, that three years later we'd be in a relationship, and that I'd be writing this birthday letter to you.

Happy birthday, sweetie. I wish I could be there to celebrate with you, but I hope that you have a fabulous day.

Love (and I mean it),
Stellaluna
stella & hawkes

Fic: City of Birds [CSI:NY, Stella/Hawkes]

Title: City of Birds
Author: stellaluna_
Fandom: CSI:NY
Rating: R for semi-explicit sex
Summary: This is what happens at the end. Set sometime after "The Thing About Heroes." Stella/Hawkes
Disclaimer: None of these are mine. Characters are the property of Anthony Zuiker, Jerry Bruckheimer Television, CBS, and Alliance Atlantis.
Notes: Implicit spoilers for S4 and for "Raising Shane."

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Feedback is always appreciated.
stella happy

Fic: Advent Calendar (December 25): Christmas Night

Title: Advent Calendar (December 25): Christmas Night
Author: stellaluna_
Fandom: CSI:NY
Rating: PG for language
Summary: This is a day for family.
Disclaimer: None of these are mine. Characters are the property of Anthony Zuiker, Jerry Bruckheimer Television, CBS, and Alliance Atlantis.
Notes: This is my attempt at a fic version of an Advent calendar. There will be 25 of these.

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hawkes thoughtful

Fic: Advent Calendar (December 20): At the Movies

Title: Advent Calendar (December 20): At the Movies
Author: stellaluna_
Fandom: CSI:NY
Rating: PG for language
Summary: Everyone has a favorite.
Disclaimer: None of these are mine. Characters are the property of Anthony Zuiker, Jerry Bruckheimer Television, CBS, and Alliance Atlantis.
Notes: This is my attempt at a fic version of an Advent calendar. There will be 25 of these.

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because you're mine

Fic: Advent Calendar (December 17): Five People Mac Might Have Kissed Under the Mistletoe

Title: Advent Calendar (December 17): Five People Mac Might Have Kissed Under the Mistletoe
Author: stellaluna_
Fandom: CSI:NY
Rating: PG for language
Summary: These kisses happened, even if they didn't. Hawkes/Mac, Stella/Mac, Danny/Mac, Mac/Peyton, Mac/Abernathy.
Disclaimer: With the exception of Abernathy, none of these are mine. Characters are the property of Anthony Zuiker, Jerry Bruckheimer Television, CBS, and Alliance Atlantis.
Notes: This is my attempt at a fic version of an Advent calendar. There will be 25 of these.

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Feedback is always appreciated.
stella & hawkes

Fic: Advent Calendar (December 10): Telling Santa Claus Stories

Title: Advent Calendar (December 10): Telling Santa Claus Stories
Author: stellaluna_
Fandom: CSI:NY
Rating: PG for language
Summary: In all the wide world, there's this. Stella/Hawkes
Disclaimer: None of these are mine. Characters are the property of Anthony Zuiker, Jerry Bruckheimer Television, CBS, and Alliance Atlantis.
Notes: This is my attempt at a fic version of an Advent calendar. There will be 25 of these.

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Feedback is always appreciated.