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Monday, January 7th, 2008
9:46 pm - things are what you make of them.
i too, apparently, feel the need to do this thing every time i see it. thanks, kate.

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, iPod etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

dog got a bone (the beta band)

ain't no sunshine (bill withers)

is chicago, is not chicago (soul coughing)

shiver me timbers (tom waits)

i remember (damien rice)

and they're off (a new brain)

meadows (colin mcgrath)

a man walks into a bar (jens lekman)

devil's elbow (tarkio)

10..WHAT IS 2 + 2?
the sun doesnt want to shine (slgtm)

holland, 1945 (neutral milk hotel)

the heart of saturday night (tom waits)

underwear (magnetic fields)

kookaburra (john vanderslice)

it sounds like they're in love with you (slgtm)

ghosts are good company (bishop allen)

we are destroying the song (of montreal)

an invitation to sleep in my arms (a new brain)

slow down (tarkio)

girl anachronism (the dresden dolls)

Now press Next one more time and use it as your title.

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Sunday, June 17th, 2007
3:13 pm - the saddest day.
knowing you makes all the difference, dont it darling?
knowing all your if's and why's, your when's and how's.
december comes in as a short procession:
a little punctured, a little heartbroken
but not forever, not for long.

in new york the vagabonds have fled to your dusty wings.
the playbill tramps are starving for a little warmth.
it seems ive held my arms like this for ages.
but i am done waiting, i am lowering them down
like a white flag, like a sail.

its clementine season, my peach.

you are gone, but now i like all my parts.
its funny how when were whole, we feel hollow
its funny, i like me best with a broken heart.
so when winter started to thaw
you may be tempted to come around.
but its likely to be too late.

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
10:52 pm
i want out. now.

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Wednesday, April 4th, 2007
10:24 pm
happy birthday to me in an hour and 26 minutes.

current mood: sad

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Monday, January 15th, 2007
9:16 pm - because this journal is for me and not you, and because i need inspiration sometimes.

"I wish the stage were as narrow as the wire of a tightrope dacer, so that no incompetent would dare step upon it"- Johann von Goethe

"Theatre is the safe place to do the unsafe things that need to be done." -John Patrick Shanley

"if you are really doing what you say youre doing, you dont have time to think about it, you only have time to do it." -Meisner

Vulnerable: liable or subject to injury or attack; insufficiently defended

defensive: an involuntary mechanism that saves us from shame, anxiety or loss of self esteem.

an ounce of behavior is worth a pound of words.


acting is the ability to live truthfully under imaginary circumstances

always be specific

every little moment has a meaning all of its own.

stay in the moment

live fully- moment to moment- that is reality

dont do anything untl something happens to make you do it.

LISTEN, observe, LISTEN, really look, LISTEN, concentrate, LISTEN

act before you thing. your instincts are more honest than your thoughts.

there is no such thing as genial charm

thhere is no such thing as nothing.

silence can say a lot. it can also cover up a magnitude of sins.

dont take anything for granted.


"Whatever you decide is your motivation in the scene, the opposite of that is also true and should be in the scene." - Michael Shurtleff

"You have to get beyond your own precious inner experiences. The actor cannot afford to look only to his own life for all his material nor pull strictly from his own experience to find his acting choices and feelings. The ideas of the great playwrights are almost always larger than the experiences of even the best actors." - Stella Adler

"Work for the actor lies essentially in two areas: the ability to consistently create reality and the ability to express that reality." - Lee Strasberg

"Consistency is the death of good acting." - Michael Shurtleff

"Acting is happy agony." - Jean-Paul Sartre

!!the foundation of acting is the reality of doing!!

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Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
11:58 pm - help.
what is the best date you have ever been on?

what is something your boyfriend or girlfriend does for you that makes you know that they love you?

why do you love your significant other?

please answer. im stumped.

current mood: contemplative

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Saturday, May 20th, 2006
4:15 pm - i got a new computer!!
so, the computer finally kicked it in. after two weeks sans computer, i sacked it up and bought a new one. it finally came last night, and my nice nice landlord picked it up for me! ive got it set up, but the version of aim available for download is one that i hate a lot, and i need to figure out the last one i was using that i liked. also, i cannot figure out how to get my music off my ipod and onto my computer, so i can sync it up with this computer and start putting new music on it. at least i can finally charge it again. i was also without music on the el for the last two weeks cause i had no way to charge it.

things are going okay, i cannot wait until amy moves down here in a little less than two weeks! its going to be awesome. granted, she is living real far away from me, in hyde park, but it will be great to have one of my bffs in the city! she also got a job at the starbucks close to my work, so i will be able to see her all the time, and hopefully hook up a mad caffiene buzz for free!!

ive been pretty sick lately, with some kind of icky cough. i took the day off today to try and get better, but mandy just texted to go out tonight. she is already drunk. i think i might skip. there is nothing less fun than being the sober friend with a drunk one, especially when i really have no desire to try and catch up.

on another note, im so excited for september when amy moves in with me! we were at urban outfitters, and looking at all the cute things that we can get, plates, and bowls, cups and tapestries and art... we are going to have the cutest place to live!!

im actively searching for another job. i am totally miserable in my job, i cant go through a day off without my boss calling me at least once, telling me how i screwed up, or leaving me another equally pointless message that couldve been left on my work voicemail. she didnt need to disturb me on my vacation from work. gah. oh well. i clearly have some angst toward this woman, and i need to go back to yoga and start working some of this out.

i think that will be the think that i miss the most about ebc when i finally get a new job... being able to take yoga and work out for free. thats it. so sad, isnt it? well, that and carrie and dan, josh and rachel and caity. that is it. i need out real bad.

there is nothing on tv on saturdays!! ive been thinking of all the things that i should be doing today on my day off, going to the library and looking for new monologues and new songs. i shouldve gone to the grocery store, i literally have no food in my cupboard, but im too lazy. whole foods is so damn close, and i am just too lazy to go there. i think ill go to dominics on either wednesday or thursday. i shouldve gone shopping, ive gained some weight and i need some new things for summer... i know that i need to lose it, but i have to have something to wear in the mean time. oh well. its coming off, just not very fast. its always so much easier to put it on than to take it off!!

current mood: coughy

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Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
10:33 am - its my birthday!!!
*dances* and im in detroit! if any one cares, ill be here til saturday morning, when rob and i will leave for chicago, stopping over in k-zoo for gigis housewarming party! lalala, call me and well hang out.

current mood: bouncy

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Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
7:05 pm - ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
How old were you?: 18
What school year were you in?: Freshman in college
Where did you go to school?: oakland university
Where did you work?: The NPNMP during the summer, library during the school year
Where did you live?: gp
Where did you hang out?: the green room
How was your hair style?: boring
Did you wear braces?: nope
Did you wear glasses: nope
Who was your best friend?: oh, probably monique at that time. whatever was i thinking
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: no tuve
Who was your celebrity crush?: dont remember
Who was your regular-person crush?: blair, hardcore
How many piercings did you have? two in each ear
How many tattoos did you have?: none
What was your favorite band?: guster
What was your worst fear?: not making friends
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: yep
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: yes/sort of
Had you driven yet?: yes
Had you been to a real party yet? yes
Had your heart been broken? yes

How old are you?: 22
What school year are you in?: graduated last year
Where do you go to school?: no where... rub it in why dont you
Where do you live?: chicago
Where do you hang out? my bedroom, the pool, wills, yoga class
How is your hair style?: boring
Do you wear glasses?: no
Who is your best friend?: gigi, molls, amykins, erin, scott
Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?: robert robert bo bobert
Who is your celebrity crush?: dunno
Who is your regular-person crush?: i guess rob
How many tattoos do you have?: None
How many piercings do you have?: One in each ear
What is your favorite band?: the decemberists
What is your biggest fear?: the future
Have you driven yet?: Yes
Do you work?: yes... the east bank hell hole
Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: too many
Have you gotten drunk or high yet? Yes and no
Have you been to a real party? of course
Has your heart been broken? yeah

Repost This And Pass It On And See How Much You've Changed

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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
3:51 pm - it was the postal service!
it makes me real mad that people think iron & wine wrote "such great heights" because they covered it and it is on the m&ms commercial. dont get me wrong, i love iron & wine, but give credit where credit is due.

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Friday, December 30th, 2005
9:43 pm

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Invade a small county.

Get your resolution here

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Saturday, December 24th, 2005
11:03 am - who hoo.
Im in Grosse Pointe until Wednesday night. If you want to hang out, be sure to give me a call! 313-207-6279

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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
10:06 pm - auditions coming up:
Sunday, December 17- The Secret Garden at Porchlight
Monday, January 9- Urinetown at Porchlight
Sunday, January 14- Miss Julie at Livewire

I know it doesnt sound like a lot, but ask me about them... hold me a little accountable. :)

current mood: hopeful

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Sunday, November 20th, 2005
2:49 pm - coming home!
hey, guys. i just wanted to let you know that i am going to be in detroit from 11.25-11.28 if you want to hang out. i will also be in detroit for christas 12.22-12.28. i hope to see some, if not all of you. let me know.

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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
9:30 pm - thereve been changes made since you stayed here.
Man 2:
I had a house while you were gone
The week after you left me
I found a couple acres
Near Severna Park
I had a house while you were gone
A house with silver shutters
And a driveway laid in marble
And thousands of rooms to fill
And miles of space to fly
And I tried to believe it,
It was better without you
I was safer alone
No, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all to hold you again
To feel I'm completed
To know there and then
That all that I needed
Was you to fight the fear
And now you're here...

I took a trip while I was gone
I cashed in all my savings
And bought an El Dorado
Drove to Tennessee
I took a trip while I was gone
I drove across the country
And I stopped at lots of diners
And stared at a million stars
And thought I could touch the sky
And I tried to believe it,
It was better without you
I was finally free
No, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it ‘cause the mountains I climb
Get higher and higher
I'm running from time
And walking through fire
And dreams just don't come true
But now there's you...

MAN 2:
God knows it's easy to hide,
Easy to hide from the things that you feel
And harder to blindly trust
What you can't understand

God knows it's easy to run,
Easy to run from the people you love
And harder to stand and fight
For the things you believe

MAN 2 & WOMAN 1:
Nothing about us was perfect or clear
But when paradise calls me
I'd rather be here
There's something between us
That nobody else needs to see

There were oceans to cross

MAN 2:
There were mountains to conquer

And I stood on the shore

MAN 2:
And I stood on the cliff

MAN 2 & WOMAN 1:
And the second before I jumped
I knew where I needed to be
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it ‘cause it's harder to touch
The things that are dearer
I love you too much
To trust something clearer
I know I fell too far
But here you are...

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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
5:29 pm
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? -- Marianne Williamson

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Monday, August 29th, 2005
11:26 am

HAIR: The American Tribal Love Rock Musical.


Lexington Music and Theatre

www.smackwaterave.com for tickets, get them soon if you plan to love me, cause they are going FAST. Especially on Labour Day Weekend.

Thursday 9/1   8pm

Friday 9/2   8pm

Saturday 9/3   8pm

Sunday 9/4   8pm

94 East to the M-25/Pine Grove/ Downtown Pt. Huron exit. Left onto M-25 North. Stay on M-25 for about 20 miles. Turn Right at the stop light on the corner of Huron. The theatre is one block down on the right. Its amazing, and this is the opening performance for the theatre!

Dont miss it, it is The Dawning of the Age of Aquarius! And, I think some of you love me. Hope to see you there!

I have much to say about the weekend, including the rowdy nights, bonfires on the beach, afterglow on Thursday, staying up til 6am, sleeping at the Bates Motel, yoga, "the turkey" etc, but I wont bore you today. Today, Ill go to work.

current mood: tired

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Monday, August 22nd, 2005
11:02 am - Weekend Update
My mom and I went to Chicago this weekend under the guise of finding me an apartment. We left here around 6am, and drove into the city, arriving around 11.30am. We went to lunch at the Cheesecake Factory, walked around the city, looked at an apartment in Wicker Park (with two boys. Yuck). We pretty much decided that I was not going to live with two boys, because as lonely as I am goign to be when I move, I will be ten times lonlier living with two boys who have fulltime jobs. Lame. Then we went back to the hotel, which was like four blocks from Michigan Ave., and took naps and showers. We went to this great little bistro called 321 Chicago, and had some drinks and an apetizer, which was delicious! Then we went and saw Wicked (yes, I said we saw Wicked (Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiicccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeedddddddd!) with Ana Gasteyer. She was... interesting. No joke. She has a reasonably good voice, but she made Catie hands and I was distracted by them. And, lets face it, she was no Idina Menzel (Ahhhhhhhhhhoooooowwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!)Okay- I just took a break. Found out my car needs new breaks along with new tires. Wonderful. $650 I cannot afford. Ex. Then We went back to the Cheesecake Factory for some cheesecake, walked back to the hotel and passed out.

Saturday we got up around 10, had some Starbucks and went to buy me new sunglasses, as mine broke that morning. Found some great ones at Forever21 on sale! Then we caught the el to Wrigleyville, and met my future roommates, Katie and Jessica. The apartment is seriously great. It is in a house, bottom floor. The house is painted all gingerbready- yellow, blue, green and pink, and the inside is awesome. Livingroom, red dining room, my bedroom is a great mint green, the bathroom is blue and white, a HUGE kitchen that is painted green, Jessicas room is purple, and Katies is just white. Wooden deck and grill, cable, internet, AND female roommates for $500! Three blocks from the el! Im so excited. Next up, find a job. My mom and I wandered around Lakeview/ Wrigleyville for awhile looking at the cool resturants and coffee shops. We walked in on a callback for Three Sisters! We spent the rest of the day going "When I move to Chicago..." "I live here!!" etc. We got back on the el and went shopping on Michigan Ave. Didnt buy anything, but oogled the pretty things! Then had the best pizza ever at Girardanos on Rush, and made our way back to the hotel to take a short nap. Woke up and showered, and went to see the most amazing show at the Steppenwolf. It was in the garage theatre, and it was part of the new works rep. It was called A Blameless Life, and about a couple whose son commits suicide, and the father has a nervous breakdown because of it. I dont think Ive ever been so blown away. I found myself in tears becasue of the amazing acting. Breathtaking. After the show, we went to Blue Chicago, a blues club right by our hotel. It was awesome, the band, the singer, the atmosphere. I had to drag my mom out of there at midnight because we had to be up at 5.30 on Sunday.

Sunday, we got up early to go pick my sister and her friend up at camp. We got there at 11.35 for her 11.30 concert, and missed all but one song. Then we bummed around camp wasting time and (not really) learning lines until her other concert at 2.30. It was pretty good, long, but good. Hopped back in the car and returned home around 7.30.

I got to spend some time with Rob last night, which was nice, as this next few weeks is going to be insane. We start rehearsal in Lexington tomorrow, and Im not looking forward to it. Im not sure how Im going to get there, what wiht my car not being in my posession at the moment. Oh well. Time for work, now. Bah.

current mood: accomplished

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Monday, July 18th, 2005
10:30 pm
YOU stormed out on me last night.
YOU made me chase you in my fucking underwear.
YOU couldnt bother to call me today.
YOU couldnt bother to answer when I called you seventeen hundred times tonight because I really needed to talk to you.
Clearly nothing has changed.

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Saturday, July 9th, 2005
1:18 pm - Thanks, Trisha

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Free Love Kisser

Of all the kissing types, you've racked up the most experience
Kissing is no big deal to you - you'll kiss anyone you find hot!
It's easy for you to take the plunge and make the first move.
And you don't really consider kissing to be cheating!

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