lloyd, i'm ready to be heartbroken (sapphirestar_) wrote,
lloyd, i'm ready to be heartbroken
sapphirestar_

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supernatural 6.20; the man who would be king

in which everything is awesome and everything hurts. seriously. the creys, they will never end. dear ben edlund, will you marry me please? love, me.


CAS MY BB WHY YOU BREAK MY HEART SO GOOD.

OH MY GOD THAT BEGINNING LEGIT TEARS IN MY EYES OKAY. OH MY POOR BB CASTIEL, I JUST WANT TO HUGGLE HIM FOREVER AND EVER.

AND THEN THAT SCENE! IN THE CAR! WITH CAS AND DEAN! "YOU'LL CALL, RIGHT? IF YOU GET INTO REAL TROUBLE?" OH BB DEAN, I LOVE IT WHEN YOU GO CONCERNED FOR CAS. AND OKAY, SOME OF IT MIGHT COME FROM WHAT SAM AND BOBBY SAID ABOUT CAS IN THE PREVIOUS EP, BUT FUCK IT, I KNOW HE'S WORRIED ABOUT CAS FOR REAL. THEY ARE FRIENDS, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS.

CROWLEY! \o/

... AND JFC DID HE REALLY SAY THAT. LIKE. "BUT IS THAT ALL YOU'RE HOLDING? SEE, THE STENCH OF THAT IMPALA'S ALL OVER YOUR OVERCOAT, ANGEL." AS IN, HE'S BEEN HOLDING DEAN. TIGHTLY. CROWLEY BE SPEAKING THE TRUTH! :D

AND CAS PROTECTING THE WINCHESTERS! :D :D

AND I JUST REALLY, REALLY FUCKING LOVE THAT CROWLEY'S NOT UNDERESTIMATING THE WINCHESTERS LIKE SO MANY OTHERS DID BEFORE. HE SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY BIG BAD SMART ENOUGH TO NOT BE TOO CONFIDENT, TO BE TOO ARROGANT AND UNDERESTIMATE THE BOYS JUST BECAUSE THEY'RE LOWLY HUMANS. ILYSFM, CROWLEY! :D :D

"JUST FIND PURGATORY. IF YOU DON'T, WE WILL BOTH DIE AGAIN AND AGAIN, UNTIL THE END OF TIME." NO, DON'T KILL MY BB CAS! D: BUT I DO WONDER WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? LIKE. JESUS. I MEAN, IS IT RAPHAEL? WHAT? DO WANT TO KNOW.

BUT CAS HAVING BEEN THE ONE TO RAISE SAM OUT OF HELL, OH MAN. (AND PRETTY MUCH JUST BECAUSE HE CARES FOR SAM, AND DEAN, AND BOBBY, AND OASLKJFLAJFLD.) I LOVE IT. I LOVE THAT HE DID IT WITH ALL THE GOOD INTENTIONS IN THE WORLD, THAT HE DIDN'T KNOW SAM'S SOUL WASN'T INCLUDED. OH GOD, CASTIEL BB. YOU BREAK MY HEART SO GOOD. ♥

AW, DEAN BEING SO SURE THAT CASTIEL WOULD NEVER WORK WITH CROWLEY, AND FEELING SO BAD ABOUT LYING TO HIM SO MUCH. D: ... BUT LOLOL, I GOTTA SAY, CAS LURKING AROUND IN THE BACKGROUND OF THEIR CONVERSATIONS REALLY CRACKED ME UP. NEVER CHANGE, CAS. :D :D :D BUT ALSO TOTALLY BROKE MY HEART ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE JFC SO FREAKING SAD.

"AND THE WORST PART WAS DEAN. TRYING SO HARD TO BE LOYAL, EVERY INSTINCT TELLING HIM OTHERWISE." I JUST. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT ANYMORE, YOU GUYS. D: D: D: D: D:

AND I GUESS I COULD BE LOLING AT ELLSWORTH AND HOW HE'S JUST LIKE BOBBY, ONLY A DEMON, BUT I CAN'T, OKAY. I JUST. CASTIEL'S SADFACES STEAL THE ENTIRE SHOW, AND MY HEART HURTS FROM THIS, OKAY. IT JUST HURTS TO SEE CAS SO HEARTBROKEN. D:

ALL OF CASTIEL'S MEMORIES, THE FISH AND THE TOWER OF BABEL AND CAIN AND ABEL AND RAPHAEL AND THE SORT OF DEAL HE MADE WITH CROWLEY AND JUST, OH MY GOD. AND THAT HE ALMOST WENT TO DEAN FOR HELP, OH GOD. I JUST KEEP THINKING, YOU KNOW, WHAT IF HE HAD? WHAT IF HE'D GOTTEN TO DEAN FIRST BEFORE CROWLEY GOT TO CAS? HOW WOULD THINGS BE DIFFERENT? HOW WOULD THINGS BE BETTER? CASTIEL'S STORY JUST FUCKING BREAKS ME. D:

AND THEN THE BOYS GET CAS IN THE HOLY OIL AND IT'S BYE BYE HEART FOR ME. D: D: D:

I JUST. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT ANYMORE. OH GOD.

"WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED TO HEAR IT?" PREACH IT, CAS. BECAUSE THE THING IS, NO MATTER WHAT HE SAYS, DEAN WASN'T THERE. AND THAT JUST BREAKS MY HEART EVEN MORE.

AND THAT SCENE IN THE END, WHEN CAS GOES TO SEE DEAN, I CAN'T EVEN. AND DEAN TELLING CAS THAT HE'S PRETTY MUCH LIKE FAMILY TO DEAN, AND CASTIEL'S FACE, OH GOD. AND THEN CAS IS PRAYING TO GOD AND THERE'S NO ANSWER AND HE JUST, HE LOOKS SO SAD AND SO BROKEN AND SO, SO DESPERATE, AND I JUST. HOLD ME, SOMEONE. D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

PRAYER CIRCLE, I NEEDS IT!



AND THE NEXT EPISODES OH GOD. BUT I'VE GOT HOPE, GUYS. I REALLY, REALLY DO. 'CAUSE IN THE PROMO WE HAD CROWLEY TELLING CAS THAT EVEN HE HASN'T EVER BROKEN A CONTRACT LIKE (PRESUMABLY) CAS DID, SO DOES THAT MEAN THAT CAS ABANDONS CROWLEY TO SIDE WITH THE WINCHESTERS? WHICH MAYBE SUCKS FOR CAS, BUT THAT WOULD MEAN HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM MIGHT GET REPAIRED, AND THAT'S SERIOUSLY ALL I CARE ABOUT RIGHT NOW. LIKE, I GET WHY PEOPLE ARE PISSED AT THE BOYS, I DO, BECAUSE THEY JUST DON'T GET IT. WHAT OTHER CHOICE DID CAS HAVE? WHAT COULD THEY POSSIBLY HAVE DONE TO HELP CAS DEFEAT RAPHAEL? BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE I JUST WANT CAS TO BE ALRIGHT AGAIN. PLEASE TO BE TELLING ME THAT IT'LL ALL TURN OUT FINE IN THE END, BECAUSE I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT OTHERWISE. D:
Tags: castiel brings all the deans in the barn, miiiiiiisha!, tv: supernatural
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