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17 May 2008 @ 08:00 pm
All that devastation in China is absolutely heart breaking. I'm donating money there and to Myanmar again tomorrow. I've been asking some people if they are going to send money and I'm shocked at how few people I know that aren't sending anything.... which I really don't get. God forbid having to miss out on a few Frappachinos or Extra value Meals. Cuz that would be tragic.
I'm getting ready to leave soon to go to a going away party my friend Dave is having at his house tonight. He's moving to Maryland in a few weeks. Should be a good time, but I don't think I'm staying very long. 

Bleh. It's raining.

13 May 2008 @ 12:16 pm
 My God. 
30, 000 buried, and 12,000 confirmed dead. 


what the hell is happening????
11 May 2008 @ 02:48 pm

This is so depressing. The cyclone left 62,000 people (and counting) dead or missing, and the U.N. estimates that 1.5 million have been severely affected and displaced. Many of the bodies are still in the water, and will remain there. Some due to remote location of villages, and also due to the countries refusal to accept aid. 

I think it's disgusting that the militarily run country will not accept help. Why? Why would they force suffering onto people like that unnecessarily? The U.S. may not be the epitome of perfection, and Katrina may have been handled badly... but we are soooo blessed to be here.  Anyone who thinks otherwise needs to go plant roots in Myanmar for the next two years.

Whenever something like this happens I try not to internalize all the death and disturbing details, but I can't help it. I can almost see in my head, the look on their faces right now.

09 May 2008 @ 12:02 am
I have a spam blocker but these little shits keep getting in. I delete them... but they just come back. And back. And back.

 Look at this...

Subject title # 1 - "king sized fire hose Little female griddle"

Subject title # 2 - "sea titanic tube steak Inn Her" <--- Are you kidding me?

Subject title # 3 - "dream ggirrl wakita rough smell"

Subject title # 4 - "perky teenie Kally opens her dilly"

How much of a loser would one have to be to look at any of that ^, and actually want to check the porn attachment? Right about now, I wish I was one of those little MIT wannabe Matrix hackers, so I would know how to send a really nasty virus their way. 
23 April 2008 @ 08:33 pm
 These last few days have been a  nice break from reality... but it has just occured to me that I'm getting bored. Bad things happen when I get bored... so it's time to go back to my life now.

In other news, I think my father might be sick. Really sick. 

I got this call from my mother 5 or so days ago telling me I'm needed home. They're paying for me to go home to see them and I need to "go ahead and make the arrangements to be there". 

Apparently my father needs to discuss something with my sister and I. Together in one room. And no matter how much I tried to get my mom to tell me what was going on she wouldn't. She said I just needed to come home. It's not immediate, as in yesterday, (from what I'm being told)... but it needs to be soon. I havn't spoken to anyone from there since the phone call... so surely if he was dying or some such thing I would have heard something???? I guess it's weighing on my mind today. But what am I supposed to do? They won't tell me what's up from here?

I just can't figure out what's going on. I'll say this though... I really hope this is not some ploy to lure me back into their dysfunction. What a weird thing that would be to do.
I've made it very clear some time ago that I'm not going there anymore. And now I'm not even being asked to come home... this is a summons. Only issue is, I've pushed most of them out of my life for the last year, including my dad. So.... how awkward is this going to be?  

I'm kind of dreading the whole thing.

 It's bothering me.


22 April 2008 @ 08:42 pm
  Lalala... I have a headache. It's a bad one too. I'm trying not to think about it... hoping maybe it will go away on it's own. 

Since I'm here, here be some paintings by the enigmatic Frida. Two of my favorites.

"What the water gave me" - Frida Kahlo 1938

"The Broken Column" - Frida Kahlo 1944

20 April 2008 @ 01:14 pm
Well. it's now very overcast and it's already sprinkled.....so I guess going to the beach is out of the question, for now atleast.  That's ok though, I've actually stayed home all weekend and I've loved it. Sometimes there is nothing nicer than just doing absolutely nothing. Everyone needs downtime.. god knows I needed some. 

Wheee! Here's my new car.  I want to get different rims and the front windows tinted. And possibly bigger tires, but I'm not sure about that last part yet.

I couldn't get the entire car in the photos cuz I didn't want my license plate showing.

Not that you can see it well, but here is my Magellan. This thing is like a godsend. I am so bad with directions. No... I mean BAD! But thanks to Maggie... i never get lost anymore.
20 April 2008 @ 09:48 am
I'm heading to the beach later today, I think. Here's hoping it doesn't rain. :-)
17 April 2008 @ 12:44 am
 Hmmm... what to talk about? Soooo much shit has happened to me. Good though, mostly all very good. :-)

I got my new car recently. It's a Kia Sportage / forest green. -Pics to come.

I havn't been bothering with this journal. I know I should. What's the point of even having it if it just sits here? Except that most of the time I'm busy, and I just don't have anything to say. 

Oooohhh...I also found this new forum that I really really dug... and I tried to remove any photos I had placed on these other forums I used to go to for a very long time, in addition to here, since the new forums premise was illegal, ... I really didn't want anyone tracing me between the two. So, I deleted the few links there were to this journal, and made certain posts private. 
Paranoid? Yes. Being too careful? Never.

It didn't  matter anyways because in addition to the forum suddenly one day dissapearing, I realized before that... just how slightly anarchist and crazy these motherfuckers were.  Like, I mean, for real. No arm chair commadoes there....these people actually were hard core. And not that I am in any remote capacity... I just liked being in the vicinity. I thought they were cool. 

After a bit it kinda scared me, though. I mean, certainly the forum was being monitered by someone.... somewhere??  I can't imagine how it couldn't have been. So i quit going for a little bit.. then poof.. i tried to visit one day and it wasn't there anymore. Weird. Anyways, the point to all that is that as I get around to it privated posts are being un-privated.

Oh, I also have to go to the dentist tomorrow. My mouth is still sore from what he did to me two days ago. I had to get two cavities replaced, and tomorrow I'm getting something called a crown. You don't even want to know how much it's costing. Oh, and to top it off... the dentist is sooo cute. He does not look like a regular dentist. He's my age. Having to talk to the cute dentist after he's just spent two hours staring down my throat while my lips and face are frozen with Novacaine is going to be such a joy. Yeah. I can't wait for that.

I'm gonna try to remember to update more.

* Edit - So, it's late and as per usual I can't sleep, so I decided to play around with my journal and changed the background paper from pink skwiggles(sp?). But I don't like it. I had wanted something weird and abstract, and instead it  looks like the X-ray of a giant slinky. It's too late now to mess with it any further though. ---> Must go to bed.... Must go to bed.... 

04 October 2007 @ 12:10 am

 I'm going to the Keys for Thanksgiving. :-)  

* Edit *  Oct. 9
Saw no need to make a new post about this, so instead I'm just editing this one. We're going on an actual vacation for Turkey Day, and I can't wait. I've never done that... my holidays have always been spent with la familia ( or in the past, someone elses family) doing the typical Holiday experience. 

Also, I've had the song "Head like a hole" stuck in my head on replay all day. I hate that. Atleast this time its a song I like and not "Ummmm- Bop, Bop, Ba, Doo - Waaap"  by Hansen.  <---- *shudder* 

* Edit * (again) Oct.10

The reason I don't want to go to N.C. is that things aren't exactly peachy right now between me and two members my immediate family. (If your version of "not peachy" is me telling someone to sit and spin in May of this year, then we're on the right page) 

I'm not going into details, so I'll just say that my p.o.v. on the matter is justified. I have been told numerous times through other family members that they both disagree with that, but I don't really care. What I feel bad about is that I won't be seeing my grandmother. She's so tiny and frail now, it eats me up. I love her very much, and I do miss her.  

25 September 2007 @ 11:11 pm
 Another long day. I didn't walk in my front door tonight until twenty to nine. 
Nothing really interesting happened, other than I cut my first mohawk on someone. That was kind of cool. 
I might be buying a new car in the next few months (well, maybe not brand new) probably like a year old. I'm not sure yet. I just don't want to get screwed over. You always hear horror stories about how shady the salesmen are and how they rip women off cuz we don't know that much about cars? Atleast, I know I don't. 

Last night it started down pouring on me during my walk-and-jog with Sage. I was probably 3/4 of a mile away from home, and I felt sprinkles. I thought "Oh nooooo", so i started heading home, and sure enough within seconds it started to downpour. I mean... torrential. I've never hauled ass so fast in my life! I had my glasses on... and it was pouring so bad there was water inside the lenses. I was completely soaked. It was pretty funny. :-) Thats Florida for you, though. One minute perfect skies and the next thunderstorms pop up out of nowhere.... then as quick as they showed up they're gone again. 

I need to bring something to work to read during downtime, and I think right now I'm in the mood to read Stephen King. I don't know what though, as I've already read everything and his new shit always sucks anyways. Could read The Stand.. but I've read that to many times and frankly Harold reminds me of this weird guy I went to high school with. Maybe I'll read "It". I bought some new clothes. A few shirts, a pair of jeans, and socks to sleep in that have little frogs on them. Thats about all for now. 

* Edit - Finally changed the time code on here.
19 September 2007 @ 10:14 pm
 I had a long day today. Practically worked a double. I got a whopping 30 minutes of down time when I came home for lunch. My feet hurt.

I did this girls hair today who's training for a tri-athelon (sp?). (She wasn't butch either, like they usually are, she was really pretty.)  
 I wish I could do something like that! I thought my measley mile and a half walk-and-jog I take Sage on every day was good. She runs, bikes, and swims competitively. <--Awesome. I hope I made a loyal client out of her though, cuz she was cool and a big tipper. :-) 

Also, on the topic of work, most every one I work with is either ridiculous and lives in a shallow bubble, or just plain crazy. A few are both.
Current Music: Prodigy - Breathe
12 September 2007 @ 04:03 pm
 I wonder how many people got to see that video of Britney Spears' performance online before MTV pulled it from replay because it was so bad? I don't like musicians like her, and usually don't care, but I've been paying more attention to her head lines this last year. I guess it's like a car accident. You just can't look away.
Anyways, that video of her live performance on the VMA's was so painful it was just uncomfortable.
She almost tripped a few times, looked high, barely danced, forgot the words (even though she was just lip syncing) and by the end had just stopped lip syncing all together. All that money and she can't even bother, this one time, to get decent hair extensions? Then later that night, she went out to party, wore no panties... and let some paparazzi snap a picture of her Va Jay Jay.  Again. 

Why does she keep doing stuff that makes herself look like a Fruit Loop? And how has she not figured out that people are capitolizing on her embarrassment? Very sad.

On to more relevent news, 9/11 was yesterday. I hope the anniversary wasn't to painful for the families. I saved some documentarys from T.V., though I've already seen most of them out there. I hope our country is safer, but I'm not so sure.
10 September 2007 @ 11:45 pm

I was so bored in this picture. 

Edit -  Anniversary of 9/11 is here again. 
Edit - I've edited my words on this stupid post (and every thing else I write for that matter- even to-do lists or reminder notes) about 100 times. I'm so freaking OCD.
10 September 2007 @ 07:58 pm
 My mini vacation is almost over. I go back to work soon. I'm so burned out on life right now. I think that's why I've stayed home so much these last days off. 

5th post in three days. I'm so proud of myself. :-) 

* Edit - I'm really surprised at how much I've been enjoying blogging again. 
I always do that. Totally forget for months at a time about something I used to be into.... then rediscover it, use the shit out of it, forget about it again... on and on and around and around.
 OK. That band was horrible. Just horrible. Imagine, The Thrill Kill Kult and...... jazz (?) mixed together somehow. 

Also, setting two people up on a blind date then being dragged along to chaperone is about as enjoyable as sticking safety pins in your eyes. I have to be one of the only people in the world who let's themselves get talked into going with people on a blind date. I felt terrible for setting them up. Never again. 
S _ _ _ _ was awful! My friend was so mean to this guy D _ _ _ ,  I actually had to pull her aside and tell her to be nicer to him. It was pissing me off. 

She was talking to other guys in front of him, making fun of him for everything, then would be all... "God , lighten up!". She was just being a such a bitch. Though, in her defense, I have never seen her act rude like that before. I don't get it. I know she wasn't on her period... so, I don't know what was wrong with her. And poor Dave. I was sure (after things began to go sour) that at some point he would give up and just write her off, but he didn't. All that, and he still liked her. He hung onto her every word and followed her around. It was painful to watch. I'd like those last few hours of my life back now. 

Whee! This is my third post in two days!
07 September 2007 @ 10:00 am
 Since I'm still awake, I'd might as well make another post while I'm at it.  It's 10:00 am and I'm defying the laws of physics by somehow still not being able to sleep. Well, I did take a late nap and slept until 9:00 pm last night, so maybe thats why?

Anyone who knows me well, knows that I have an huge interest in Ancient Rome. Primarily the Late Republic / Early Empire time period. (The Julii "family" fascinates me - Augustus and Livia even more so than Caesar) There are writings from some of the historians from that time that are still around today, and are available online. They've been interpreted into English and other languages, from Latin and other dialects. Plutarc and Seutonius are widely available. Cicero is an interesting read as well. Here's a link to a few of the web pages which has a collection of writings.



Plutarc can be found here, as well as writings by many others. 


Edit -  OK, I have absolutely no clue why those links are almost invisible. Weird.
07 September 2007 @ 04:15 am
 Sorry to anyone who has tried to contact me via email or otherwise, and I havn't responded.  I've been busy. Once in a while I reflect over the past, and I really think I could have constructed a pyramid or unmapped the human genome, with all the amount of free time I used to have.

Anyways, I 've been doing very well. I work a lot. I'm blonde again.
I went to Orlando last weekend. Saw a show called Arabian Nights  - it's a "dinner show" with performing horses. Think Siegfried and Roy...with horses. My prime rib left a little to be desired...but the show itself was amazing.  We got VIP tickets, so we got to sit in the front row and also meet the horses before the show. I forgot my Digi cam, so I had to buy a regular camera, but I still got lots of good pictures. I will post them when I get a chance to get them developed and use someones scanner. 

Let's see, what else?  Oh, I've been getting into some aspects of spirituality, as well as meditation. I'm still pro evolution, but I totally belive that you can adopt a level of spirituality...without dropping a bunch of theological dogma in the mix. It's really been having a big effect on me. I don't even like to drink anymore. Not even an occasional  wine cooler.  

I've been meaning to change the picture of myself  that I have as a permanent fixture on this journal  (see above) to a different one or to something else entirely, but I can't get myself to care enough to bother.  I just don't have interest in spending time online anymore like I used to. Though, I still like to read about  things I'm interested in.. but that's been about it lately. And, I'm posting so much in my own private journal instead of here anyways, that I might just do away with this one all together at some point. If I keep not giving a shit and forgetting about posting, it will be sooner rather than later.  On the topic of my journal, I wrote some things that hurt someones feelings (which I felt bad about), so I ended up deleting one of my posts a while back.

I'm going to see a band play this weekend with some friends, (one of them is forever bringing her Digi cam with her) so maybe I'll post some pics of that too. 
Current Music: Natural Blues - Moby
27 March 2007 @ 02:48 pm
I start my new job tomorrow. I'm kinda nervous. I don't know why.

I got up really early and went to the beach this morning. You wouldn't believe how many people flock to the ocean so early here!  It's crazy.  I went this morning, hoping to find it semi deserted. No dice. 

I love the water. There is almost nothing going on in my life, that being around the ocean can't make better. Not that there's anything bad going on, it just calms me. I'm gonna miss it when I finally move.

* Edit *  -
I dropped my MP3 in water yesterday. I had thought that once it dried out or something it would play again, but it's not at all!!  It won't even turn on. 

 I listen to it constantly. It's like an appendage on my ear. You know those commercials, where the person is dancing around with their Ipod on? ...Yeah, that's me. I had like... over 200 songs on there. What am I gonna do?  Be relegated to listening to tunes on the puter? I hate that. 

I have to buy a new one. Soon. Today. Now.
Grrrr ...
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
23 March 2007 @ 12:06 am

......To answer your question (you know who you are)......

What have I been doing, and Where the hell have I been??
 Hmmm, well.....

My husband still works all the time, and is obsessed with being master of the universe,  and I'm still ...uh ....me.  My family is doing well, and I've been keeping  myself away from "The Crazy" (( *see previous entry* )) as much as possible. We're going to be moving from Florida in a probably a year. Atlanta is a strong possibility, as well as Dallas. 

Sage is having some health problems, which is very upsetting for me. (even though logically, I know someday it's coming)
For the last month and a half he's been on so many meds it's getting hard to keep track. Let's see, there's the antibiotics ( 2 of them, twice a day), there's the arthritis medication (one, once a day), the VCaps (but I can put that on his food), the ear drops ( two different ones, both twice a day), in addition to the ear cleaning. 
It may not sound like a lot, but these pills are big, and I have to shove them down his throught. He fights me on it and sometimes spits them out, so we have to do it all over again. He hates it and so do I. 
I also have to bathe him every 3 to 4 days now because of this skin infection that won't go away. Try bathing an 80 pound dog that much and see how tiring it gets.
There are less than a handful of people on the planet that I care for as much as that dog. I've had him for 10 years (I found him when he was just this itty bitty little puppy and living in the most deplorable conditions). 
In the beginning I didn't think I would be able to keep him permanently, (he was the first "foster" dog I brought home to live with me) cuz my life wasn't really conducive for an animal at that time. 
But, somehow we managed...fast forward...and here we are. He's been with me through sooooo much shit. Always by my side. My buddy.  Ug. I can't even think about it w/o getting depressed. 

I'm switching locations. Going back to my old salon as of next week. They approached me, though. 
I left around Christmas and recently they contacted me, asking if I would think about coming back. I told them if I were to consider working there again, it would only be if such and such stipulations were met , and they agreed to all of them. I admit, I was kinda flattered. I had never really had that happen before. 
I am wondering what will happen to the clients I had there that didn't follow me the place I'm now leaving. When I left, some of them filtered to C_ _ _ _ _ _ _ , so now that I'm returning, will they come back to me, or stay with her? Guess I'll find out out soon enough...

Oh, and I changed my hair!!!! Yeah........... I just woke up one morning and it was this whole different color.....

Heh. Just kidding. 
What started as just  a mild tint back, snowballed into meyham, and before I knew it, we had decided to go....red. Auburn. Whatever. 
Apparently, that's what can happen when you have two bored hair dressers at work and free reign over the color closet.  It's not a big deal though, it's a semi / demi.  In other words, I can go back blond w/o going through a lot of hassel, i.e. -color removal-----> That's where you strip the hair of most of the pigment, and start completely over, so you can deposit the pigment you want.  
It's a pain in the ass, and fortunately, not something I've ever had to do on myself, because if you tried it on hair my length it could easily fall out and/or break mid shaft, because of uneven porousity and others factors. Eeek.

 I digress, where was I? Oh yeah, red hair......

The only good thing about the red hair is that I don't look washed out if I don't have a tan. With blond hair, if I don't have darker skin, I look whiter than a slice of Wonder bread. 
It hasn't even been 2 months, and I already miss the blonde. I'm thinkin about  switching it back as soon as I get settled in next week. 

Enough rambling... here are some pics of me being all touristy in St. Augustine, which is a few hours from where I live here in Florida. * Note the new locks* :-)

Here I am, being a dork.  
It was really cloudy and windy, so the pic could be better, but what are you gonna do? Atleast the palm trees are pretty.

 Here I be.... holding a musket.  

Daffy and I, sharing a moment.

I snapped this of him sometime last year. I need to update my pictures of him. 

I did the stupidest thing earlier this evening. 
It involved running, my ankle, a skinned knee, and me.... busting my ass on the sidewalk. My foot still hurts from that. Ouch.

28 February 2007 @ 05:31 pm
I have soooo not been  into the internet lately. Not really sure why... 
When I first moved to Florida (few years back) I was a newb to the whole internet thing, but I didn't know anyone here so I started hanging out a few forums. Then, even after I settled in and made friends here... I still hung out on my forums because I liked the fact that you could get to know people... but you didn't have to know them. 

I just havn't been feeling it lately.

Oh, and what is up with that Britney Spears?!? I've always said she annoyed more than all the others, (paris hilton and the like) and now it's finally occured to me why. That bitch is crrrrazy.

Don't get me wrong,  I've always admired women who didn't need their long hair like a security blanket of sorts (<------- me), and could just shave it off or keep it super short. 
But....when you've spent the last 10 years making yourself into an industry by selling sex and pop tart - bubble gum songs, and one night you just ...shave your head bald. in public. for no apparent reason. With photographers watching your every move, and all the while having two very young children waiting for you at home? 
That's kinda nuts. 

Notice she's wearing a pearl necklace w/ a hoodie?
07 February 2007 @ 08:45 pm
Well, I'm currently searching the internet for pictures of what a Bond Girl looks  like. 

My husband's friend (who lives in Port St. Lucie) is having a  Birthday party this weekend, and it's a  "007 / James Bond " themed party. Could this gathering get cheesier, you ask? Yes it could. 

Not only is it themed James Bond, but everyone is supposed to show up dressed like a character from the James Bond movies. Problem is...I've never seen a James Bond movie (nor do I want to) and fuck if I know who to dress like!?!  And, as per usual I've waited till the last minute. Why can't it be themed something else? I would almost rather dress up like a farm animal or a Fraggle than do this.

19 January 2007 @ 01:24 am
I posted this previously, but just got done playing around with it a little bit and made a couple of changes.  It's an interp of my fav Magritte painting, and I like this version better so I'm putting it here instead of in my hand written journal.  


Strangers dance in the valley. 

Clouds of cirrus and murk,
cradle their symbiotic suppression.

Misguided preoccupations,
lead to neglected
Veils conceal the affinities,
that have faded.
behind substance, marred
in shadow.

Strangers dance in the valley,
to avert what they already know. 

That foundations of familairity always come undone.


Speaking of, it's getting about time to replace that little journal of mine. 
Theres barely any room left now, and  the cover is totally worn. I save all my journals. It's amazing the type of clarity you get from reading words you wrote when you were at a completely different place in life than you currently are. 

One of these days i just may get the courage to post some of my other stuff that isn't quite so short. 
I have many stories and poetry that I've been working on for a long time, but I've always been  so weird about letting people look at it. Don't really know why. Gotta work on that somehow.

14 January 2007 @ 04:01 pm
In addition to fondue, I saw Children of Men last night.  It kind of sucked. 
I did see a poster for a movie adaptation for Bridge to Tarabithia while there, which is neat. That was one of my favorite books when I was in 2nd grade. ( I really thought I was hot shit back then, because I was reading at 4th grade level when I was 7. That lasted until I realized I was that goober whose  math skills  plateaued at addition and subtraction)  I digress, where the fuck was I?
Oh yeah, and poor Sage. He 's so itchy! It's annoying. I've tried every thing,  (flea meds, medicated shampoo, leave in conditioners, oatmeal baths, steroid shots, oral medications)....  the list goes on and on. I've heard of other Labradors having sensitive skin...but give me a break already!!

And really.....could this little baby panda be more cute? 


Her name is MeiLan. :-)
The bottom two are supposed to be of her trying to walk for the first time. <-----Awwww. 

13 January 2007 @ 04:26 pm
Goin out for Fondue tonight. <------Scr - ummy :-) !!!!
03 January 2007 @ 02:40 am
"Rally around the family, with a pocketful of shells"......<------I love this song. 
It hypes me up. Great for jogging. Bulls on Parade kicks too.

Anyways, Christmas  has come and gone again. 
I just havn't been feeling Christmas these past few years, but I figured out why. Kinda hard to feel the Holly Jolly spirit when it's 80  freaking degrees outside. I kept thinking....mayhaps I'll feel more "Christmassy" when I get to N.C. And what do you know, I  did!
It's been so long since I blogged I'm not really sure what to write about...hmmmm....
I guess I'll just talk about whatever pops into my head. Isn't there some writing exercise where you do that...just write continuosly without thinking about what you're going to say beforehand? This should come out interesting. My own little verbage cluster fuck.

So many things in my life have changed recently ...yet, it's all still the same. Kind of a surreal feeling. Hard to articulate. 

Christmas was good. Busy though. It's hard to get any actual quality time with any one person because theres so much hustle and bustle. So many people, so many things to do.
I did my cousins  astrological chart one evening and she got  sorta.... upset (?- that's the best way i can describe it) by what she heard. 
Although she admitted it was mostly accurate, she apparently didn't like hearing those  things about herself. Or maybe she wants to see herself in a  different light? Whatever the reason, it isn't my fault she's uncomfortable with who she is. How could somebody take something that's suppossed to be interesting and fun so seriously?

Anyways, it could be worse ...she could have my fucked up chart.
With the exclusion of my sun sign, the rest of my chart is comprised of more Scorpio than any one person should get stuck with.  

I wish I had more time to spend more time with my father. 
My dad is still one tough S.O.B.even though he's in his sixies. (<-----Marine) 
I really don't think it's going to matter how old I get...he's always going to treat me like a young girl, (which used to irritate the crap out of me btw)  I guess it's a father thing? i suppose all dads do that with their daughters to some degree.

My grandma isn't doing well. That's all I have to say about that.


More Randomness.....

I get clausterphobic on road trips.

Speaking of driving, my lead foot hasn't dissipitated. I still drive to fast.

 Why is Reality T.V. getting more ridiculous every year?
My mom still pesters me because she thinks it's bad for me that I'm always dieting.
I continue to ignore most of what she says, because she doesn't know what she's talking about.  I'm cooking salmon tonight...how is that unhealthy?

There is a bronzer from  the Victoria's Secret  makeup line that I'm picking up tomorrow. (My last one got stolen.) It's expensive, but soooo worth it.
It shimmers. :-)

'Kay. Stick a fork in me, I'm done. And all tapped out of random statments, i might add. 
Off to bed.
Current Music: Rage against the Machine
20 December 2006 @ 02:20 pm

Renee Magritte - "The Lovers"  (1928)

My interpretation..

Strangers dance in the valley, 
Little black clouds, 
cradle their symbiotic suppression.

Misguided preoccupations,
lead to neglected remnants.
Veils conceal  the affinities, 
that have faded.
Leaving behind neither substance, 
nor shadow.

The strangers dance in the valley, 
to avoid what they already know,

That foundations of familairity always come undone.

Current Music: Pink Floyd
12 October 2006 @ 03:58 am
Normally, I consider my vivid imagination to be a blessing.

Unless, of course, it's the around the three month anniversary of the death of someone I loved. Someone who died entirely to young, and wasted away to some thing unrecognizable.

I could really do without the amplified detail of imagery right now.
02 October 2006 @ 05:51 pm
X Men 3 comes out on DVD tomorrow!
Current Music: still Sasha and Digweed
02 October 2006 @ 04:00 pm
Though I didn't post this on the actual date, I needed to just say how sorry I still am for all the victims from 9-11.
Five years later, and I've begun to notice (mostly online, but in person too, one being a family member) that certain Americans are already forgetting, or at least minimizing. How on earth these  people can do that is beyond me, but it bothers me a lot. It truly does.


This is a picture of the faces of everybody who died that day, minus 24 missing but presumed dead.

I'm not an idiot, and  obviously I realize that this is not the worst tragedy that has ever happened...
But these deaths were not caused by starvation, plague,  natural disaster,  and (at the time) we were not in the middle of war. 

They  were  airline pilots, secretaries, financial traders, janitors, bankers, cops, firefighters, waiters, C.E.O's,(the list goes on and on...) who just showed up for work or a flight that day. They were someones mother, someones father, someones child. They all had somebody who loved them.

For my  fellow Americans  who wish to make lite of 9/11, yeah...you go right ahead and do that.  Are you so arrogant,  that you know for certain  YOU will never be a victim of a terrorist attack?

Maybe it's easier for some to allow the minutiae of life to distract them from the fact that with every breath we take, we are all one breath closer to death? 

And it could come when you least expect it. Just like it did for those 2,973 people.

Current Music: Sasha and Digweed