Home home home home home. I am an unapologetic homebody when it comes to personal space requirements. For me, nothing will every be quite as relaxing as some comfortable spot in my house, e.g., couch, chair, princess-cave bed, with a book or beading and a nice little drink. Alone is usually a requirement as well. Although there are many people I feel very safe around, to really relax all the way, physical-mental-emotional, I need to have alone time.
If the interior discussion in your head were indexed by category, what would the five most recurring subjects be?
1. What I need to do today. I'm always listing in my head the steps I have to accomplish on any given day. The internal monologue is somewhat more direct than usual, going something like "Alright Diamond, you need to do your sex homework, laundry, dishes, and Costco today. You also want fun sexy time, Assassin's Creed, and to go on a walk with syd___ . Homework first, then seen where Ryan is for Costco, then call syd___ and see how ready she is."
2. Money. I know it's not that interesting, but money is a pretty consistent worry, so it's something I think about ("I have $32. Could we get steak tonight? Well I don't get paid until...."), but I also regularly daydream about winning the lottery/stealing from a bank while invisible and buying land.
3. Work. I've become very good at not obsessing about my job when I'm not there, but I do while actually on the floor. Also, if anyone gets me talking, I really do adore my job and love sharing the reasons for + the ideas why it's difficult. Often, the "work think" is also about the kids themselves, trying to better empathize with them, to come to my work from a place of understanding, to experiment with new ideas.... yeah.
4. Ryan. Cliche, yes! I still spend a lot of time thinking about what a wonderful, awesome, cool boy he is. Or, you know, if he's being a jerk, I worry over what I can do and can't do and work myself into a tizzy. Either way, he occupies a good portion of my thoughts, as well as my waking life.
5. Whatever I'm excited about/whatever I'm frustrated with. This changes... a lot. But there's always at least one thing in each category occupying my brain time, worrying it, "talking" about it, etc. Right now, I'm excited about Tuesday (sniper_fight !) and frustrated about ... well, I don't want to talk about that.