living in a moth hotel

on my bike it feels like the wheels will fall off at any minute. i enjoy the danger. but if they ever did fall off i would probably cry. or die. i ride down a lot of steep hills. i rides these hills to houses. friends houses, my houses, franklin houses...i ride wherever my legs feel like taking me.

a real job is something im not ready for. it means less time for my bike. and less time spent at houses. but it also means a nicer bike. and maybe the time spent at houses will be about quality not quantity now.

i wrote all this while taking a shit. what a neat phone.
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    running water

when i wasn't yellow

i never seem to clean anything properly. its an ability i do not have. i started cleaning the office today. it needs it badly. i put up the futon, dust busted some dirt, and moved some clothes. but then i saw my cat and played with her, found a box of pictures and became nostalgic, and added songs to my zoom. i never bothered to put pants on. eating chicken on a chair i found outside while only wearing underwear is a privilege i enjoy mon - thurs between 1230 and 430pm. this is my time. i wonder if my roommates have times of their own. i really should clean.
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    death of the season

helo birthday tango!

"It is not intertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed. It is shyness before any sort of new unforseeable experience for which one does not think ones self able to cope. But only someone who is ready for everything, who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical, will live the relation to another as something live." - Rainer Maria Rilke

this was me last year:


and the year before


and the year before that :


22. i guess a lot has changed. but all changes im comfortable with. it doesnt even really feel like change.

im a goddamn old man.

im getting closer and closer to 28. which is closer to THEN END OF THE WORLD.

this feels more like a new years post than a birthday post. i guess my birthday is more a new year than the new year could ever hope to be.

im excited about tall bikes. and bikes in general. TALLANDEM.

im not excited about people who read over my shoulder. but i should be. at least someone is reading.

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