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I know, I don't post much. [12 Jan 2006|11:35pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I think my last public post was sometime in July. Oopsies. Well, a little thing called Life happened to me, and I'm continually coping with it! Between bouts of manic depression and overly happy rejuvenation, I really never feel the mood to write any more. I've done more reading than writing. LOVE all the QaF comms! And made some icons here and there, which I will eventually post, and maybe sometime in the near future. Like, maybe, within the next week. That's only because I need to find a font. Also, I'd like to make more to add to the small bunch so it seem scrawny. Whee!

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Just a post to post; I'm still alive and kicking [25 Jun 2005|11:51pm]
46 days until school starts. I've already wasted a half of my summer away in June, and in July, I'm actually going to do stuff. Communicate with the outside world, since I've been losing all human contact this whole time, which I don't mind. I am going to call people up and go out! And who knows, maybe even do things I was supposed to do months ago!

I'll be celebrating a little special someone's birthday in less than a week, along with someone else special's birthday earlier this month that I missed. For their cupcakes, I'm going to do something special. I looked on Martha Stewart's website and found a gazillion recipes for some really cupcakes! I'm psyched about that. This year, I'm making a change: I am going to make my cupcakes fully from scratch. Before I used to just buy the box of confetti mix and MIXED the ingredients together; now I am going to do EVERYTHING, FROM SCRATCH! And really be homemade. There are only very few that I bake for, so it takes a lot from one for me to bake. I don't just bake for anybody, now.

Yawn, this Tylenol PM kicked in about an hour ago. Can barely keep eyes open.

Summer movies appealed to me this year. Last Saturday, I saw a movie that changed my life--Mr. and Mrs. Smith. It was such a good movie. And that's an understatement. Next on my list are Bewitched and The Fantastic Four, starring Christian from Nip/Tuck. OMG, can't wait until season 3 premiere, whenever THAT'll be! That show is so scandalous and juicy. I can never think of Famke the same ever again...
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I need a program! [14 Jun 2005|11:35pm]
Anyone want to send me their photoshop or psp? I'll take anything!!!

I would be eternally grateful.
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Got my license renewed today. [26 May 2005|11:42pm]
And let me tell you, it's not a pretty sight. In my photo, I look like I got injected with botox while I was smiling. I look like LUNATIC. My cheeks are big and round enough as it is, but in the photo... I just look like a crazie, okay? I look like a crazie!

No more new episodes of ANYTHING from now on. sigh!
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Random school stuff [02 May 2005|10:08pm]
1. Know what woke me up this morning? I JUST remembered that I had English homework over the weekend!!!!! Yeah, THAT's what woke me up. I so could have used that extra five minutes of sleep, but I got out of bed anyway. And I have English first period. Luckily, though, I got to school five minutes earlier than I normally do and went to homeroom and did the homework and finished it during homeroom.

2. The icon I am currently using is made by whenitsquiet. It's my favorite episode, the episode that started it all... I mean, WHAT a season finale! The other icon I used a while back was by raelala. Wasn't it funny!?!?! Well, if you know which one I'm talking about, that is.

3. School's been so hectic these past few weeks. I'd say out of ALL the other 9 weeks, this is by far the toughest. I've never been under so much stress. I mean, aside from kissing my dreams good-bye of getting exempt from my A&P exam, all my grades have suddenly dropped to 90s and 91s! I don't remember slacking that much. I really don't. I should probably, as they say, "get my act together" for the next two weeks of school--since they'll be my final weeks of school! Sigh. Then summer.

4. Well, just thought I'd update. To let anyone who reads this journal know that no, I haven't been kidnapped, I'm still alive. Just supah busy!!
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Me flipping out over book talk books and thinking Mrs. Lawrence must think I'm such a skank [12 Apr 2005|05:34pm]
Today after school, I finally asked Mrs. Lawrence if I could do Sloppy Firsts for my book fair thing. She looked skeptical, which is what I somewhat expected. But she said okay as long as I don't get too risque about it, since the title of the book is quite risque. Risque... that's the exact same word I used when I thought this over! Honestly, the book itself isn't dirty and/or as dirty as it sounds, from the title! It's really a funny book. But, as she was making these faces, I didn't tell her any of this. That I've read it before. Although I did lie and say that I've read SOME of it and it's not bad at all. See, we're not supposed to do a book that we've already read. I read this book a year ago. My dilemma: I don't want her to think I'm some sort of psycho, dirty, skank because of the book I picked and I can let her know this by telling her that I have already read the book, the entire book! BUT if I tell her that I've already read it, I probably won't be able to do Sloppy Firsts! meaning I'll have to read another entire book thus holding off PD6! What should I do!?! I don't want her to think I'm some sort of skank! Don't some people judge other people by the kind of books they read!? Like judging books by their covers? Oh man, I bet my teacher thinks I'm some kind of skizank now. I don't want her to think I'm a skank! Am I repeating myself!? Well, I'm panicking right now so I guess that's okay.

Advice, anyone?!

Ahhh what should I do!!!

Book fair is in 3 weeks, I don't think I can keep from telling her I'm no skank and that I've already read the book therefore ensuring her that it's not a dirty book. And I so desperately want to read PD6!!!!
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One down, one to go [10 Apr 2005|10:17pm]
At last, I have finished Fahrenheit 451. It's been a bumpy ride (okay, we've only been doing F451 for three weeks, and of course I always procrastinated the reading assignments on weekends up to about 60 pages), but it's finally over. YAY!! [confetti throw]

Since we're/I'm on the topic of English reading assignments, I've come up with an answer to all my problems: I'm reading Gossip Girl for my book fair project. Yes, the same Gossip Girl series that I talked about a long time ago that is being turned into a movie or mini series starring that skanky Megan Fox! I got the book like, two years ago and started on it but I don't think I ever finished it. I thought it was boring then. So I just have to finish the last 80 pages or so and pretty soon...I'll be on my way.

...On my way to PD6!!!!! Honestly, I can't believe I've lasted this long without reading the latest Princess Diaries book. It's really amazing!!! Two weeks and about to be three. Oh, what am I saying?! I live for those trips to Wal-Mart when I take a peek and read a few paragraphs in the book! Those are what have been keeping me alive nowadays!

In other news, I need to get some new Reefs.
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Book fair is in 3 weeks. ouch! [05 Apr 2005|10:16pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

Don't get me wrong, I don't mind doing something for it, but I'm really having a hard time finding a book. I have several books I do want to read and probably do for my project, but... I still have the new PD to read!! And THAT's been out for over a week now. And I still haven't ordered it (or activated my credit card!). I know what you're thinking. Why not just read PD6 for the book fair thing?! Well, I'd rather not. I actually WANT to read that. And plus, our little cardboard poster thingies will be put out for everyone to see.

So, our teacher said it could be about 100 pages; something short and liked. I never find anything at our school library anyway, so I went to the public library. Nothing there, either! I would like to find something short, simple, fun and easy to read and also a quick read, AND interesting. I don't know what to get! And I can't wait to get my hands on PD6 and start reading! Oh, by the way, I've vowed to not get it/read it until AFTER I get all my other reading things done and out of the way. Which is Fahrenheit 451, and book fair. Sigh! Anyway, does anyone recommend any book like that? Something around 100-143 pages, easy to read, AND interesting and fun? I REALLY want to read PD6 soon, so I can get this book fair thing outta the way. Sigh!

I'm so anxious to even obtain a copy of PD6! I've kept putting it off. Ordering it and such. I SO didn't have time to get it last week and even if I had pre-ordered it and it came to my house, I still wouldn't have had time to read it. Well, okay, I would have, as I do now, but I had to focus on schoolwork, just like I do now. With all my other reading. For English. Sigh, why me!?

PS. Any book suggestions would be great! Well, ones that are like what I've suggested to be like!

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First day back at school. [04 Apr 2005|05:32pm]
Little excitement happened today my first day back. Sigh! Stalkers!

I haven't updated in a long time, so I guess I'll type a little ditty right now. Last week, I was a page at the State Capitol. So I didn't go to school for a whole week (even though we only had school for three days last week), and I didn't have access to a computer. Well, I did have access to a computer and the internet, my sister's laptop, but we didn't go to any coffee shops too much after work. I only used it to get homework from schoolnotes.

I almost forgot I had an eljay. When I got on my flist, I had A LOT of pages to read. About 340 entries back. In seven days! I still haven't gone back and read everything. I don't know if I will, either! It's just so much.

Anywhoo, paging was great! I had a really fun time while I was there! Being in Jackson was great.

Ah, anyway, I told the co-mods at g_g_stillness I was going to be away, but I never announced it on my own livejournal.

I've been working on some great soundtracks since I've been back, or home. Whee!
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A few random things, I suppose. [17 Mar 2005|05:58pm]
1. It's day 8 of Spring Break for me. I can't believe it's been a week since we got out! I remember it like it was just yesterday...eating baccus bars from the bake sale at break...being stalked...Thomas and Hend in a "fight"...me wearing the semi-same thing two days in a row. Hmmmm. Good times.

2. New icon! It's made by madeline__.

3. What's new with me? Lately I've been compiling soundtracks. I'm distressing over the cover art for some of them, though, because they're book fandoms. Should I just use some stock photos? I tried looking for some that could work, but it's hard to find just what I need. But anyway, I love fanmix. It's such a fun place!
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Me complaining about Megan Fox and contemplating finishing the Gossip Girls series [05 Mar 2005|11:47pm]
Somehow, I wound up at websites for Gossip Girl, the book series. I remember last year I read that Lindsay Lohan was going to be portraying Blair! Also, that Tina Fey was writing the script, and I think it was going to be a mini series on the WB, last fall. Or was it next fall? I can't remember. Anyway, it turns out that LL ISN'T going to be playing Blair; another actress named Megan Fox is!!!!! I don't like her. She's so skanky! But I guess that is sort of how I imagined Blair to look like--not how Megan is skanky, but the general appearance. They have the same colored hair, for one thing. Anyway, I don't like this Megan Fox! I'd prefer Lindsay Lohan, but whatever. Oh, MF was also in Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen with Lindsay, and she's the new Sydney in Hope and Faith on ABC, and she was Mary Kate and Ashley's arch rival in their movie Holiday in the Sun. She also dated Simon from 7th Heaven, in real life! I always thought, isn't she too skanky for him? Or out of his league? Because at the time they were dating, he had that goatee of his.

Okay, what was the point of that last bit about Megan Fox?

ANYWAY, I'm thinking about finishing the series now. The Gossip Girl series, I mean.
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Me jabbering about Summerland [01 Mar 2005|08:26pm]
Well, Everwood didn't air last night, and I don't think it will be airing for a while, BUT that summer hit, from last summer, SUMMERLAND is airing in its place! Everwood's timeslot, I mean. I didn't really want to watch it, but, like always, I'll watch almost anything!

I can't believe Nicky would talk about that kind of stuff with her friends! She kept on going on and on about how she wants to break up Aunt Eva(?) and Doctor O'Keefe(?) and how Aunt Eva(?) and Johnny are meant for each other. And how Aunt Eva and Doctor O'Keefe are so wrong for each other, and how is going to break them up! I wouldn't talk about stuff like that with my friends. I thought, and still do think, she's a lunatic. Who talks about that kind of stuff with their friends at school!?! I'd keep that stuff to myself.

Next week's GG looks good! ...A Tarantino-themed party. That sounds like SO MUCH FUN. I wish people around here threw parties like that!
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Me feeling like a big disgrace because of my recent academic flops [01 Mar 2005|06:02pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Sigh. Why me?!Collapse )

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* Me being stressed and having to HAVE TO babysit argh [26 Feb 2005|11:14pm]
1. I have to babysit.
2. art sketch
3. read book talk book

I'm so stressed right now. I just want to go take a shower and then go to sleep because that's all that I really can do right now--just sleep.

sigh. Why me, God!?!
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Me reading back on a few older entries and quoting some things I said that I think are funny now [24 Feb 2005|09:45pm]
Oh, memories!Collapse )
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Well, I just checked my grades online. [16 Feb 2005|05:15pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

They finally updated the site. Those fools. It was updated Monday, but not yesterday. Between then and now, I know there weren't that many grades taken, but hey, every little bit counts. Here are mine, so far:

English - 93.88
Anatomy and Physiology - 88.68
Economics - 93.58
French II - 92.63
Art II - 52.00
Geometry - 93.13


English - A
A&P - B
Economics - A
French - B
Art - F
Geometry - A

And that's not rounding up, either! I have three definite As, even they're quite low, one A that does round up, one B that rounds up, and one definite F. The F in art...I'm not worried about much, since I've already devised a system of grades I must make in order to keep my grade...fairly decent. A B is the most I can make, seeing as how we hardly ever take any grades in that blasted class! But A&P...we do take very many grades, and I don't know how many more, so I'm not able to make up and plan for the rest of the 9 weeks for the class. BUT I do have to find some way to raise my grade up five points! sigh.
I came to the realization that this 9 weeks ends in 2 weeks!!!! ahhh!!!!! So that means I only have a little over two weeks to salvage my GPA. sigh! Blast it, I really wish I would have studied for those tests those so many times now...

*sigh*. Why me!?

ETA: Madeline, you fruitcake! The nine weeks doesn't end the first week of March, it ends the second week of March! So I really have three weeks? sigh!

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New icon yay! [15 Feb 2005|04:41pm]
You can say goodbye to IanhasadatewithMadeline icon, I'm using another one! It's made by adiaicons. She makes very pretty icons! I also saved some other Alias ones for later use! I've been using the Ian one for so long, I think it was since last October or November, whoa! Just thought I'd try a little something new.
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sigh. why me?: Another school post [14 Feb 2005|05:18pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

FINALLY they updated our grades online! Those fools. Here are mine so far:

English - 93.88 rounds UP to... 94 which is a... A
Anatomy and Physiology - 89.45 rounds DOWN to... 89 which is a... B
(a&p, as we call it)
Economics - 93.58 rounds UP to... 94 which is a... A
French II - 92.59 rounds UP to... 93 which is a... A
Art II - 52.00 doesn't round!... 52 which is a... F
Geometry - 93.33 rounds DOWN to... 93 which is a... A

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OMG, I am so stressed and it's already 10:03! [23 Jan 2005|10:02pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

1. I still have to study for that poetry test I have first thing in the morning, AND put headings on my notecards!

2. I wish my mother would just shut up. Really. She's not helping, at all.

3. I don't know what I should do for my next choice project, which is the project that's coming up. Well, I know what I do WANT to do, but I don't know if I should do what I want to do or not. I WANT to paint those hanging wall fixtures I drew up during Christmas, really bad. I actually WANT to do this! But on the other hand, the projects I have turned in the whole year haven't been exactly extravagent. Not anything praiseworthy. I'm thinking of this because of the art exhibit in March. The whole year, I haven't done anything super amazing that would be great in the art show. Really, nothing!! So I was thinking that maybe for the next choice project I could do something that will be amazing. I was thinking something like another grid project or something. Alexis says she's going a grid project. I don't know if it's for the same reason as why I might be doing a grid project, though. You never know with her. What a bitch. But anyway, I'm confused. On one hand, I could do something that I would really be looking forward to doing, like REALLY. While on the other, I need to bring something to the table that'll knock 'em out at the art exhibit. So really it's like my happiness and harmony or fame and praise. I really don't know what to do. And also, we don't know what the project after the choice project is. Maybe it'll be something that I can make that'll be really great. Or maybe not. Or maybe he won't check it in time for the art exhibit, knowing how he always puts off the deadlines and drag them out. *sigh*

3. I have a majorly huge A&P test on Wednesday. I haven't even begun to study for it!!!!!

4. I still have all that English stuff to do. And I have English first period! Damn! Maybe I could do it all in homeroom. I can study tonight, after I finish this and take a shower, and put headings on my notecards! Oo, or I can put the headings on the notecards after I take my test, since people will probably be in line waiting to show their corrected ones to her anyway. Hmmm.

5. Well, I better hurry and go take a shower soon, if I want to study for that blasted poetry test tomorrow morning. *sigh*. Why me!?!?!

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YAY no school tomorrow!!!!! [16 Jan 2005|04:19pm]
[ mood | sick ]

1. Even though there's no school tomorrow, I still have homework. Blast it! I have to write a fairytale in French (of course there's going to be a Princess Madeline in it!), and I have an art project due this week, which I must get at least halfway done at home. I hate my electives, I really do.

2. As I was re-decorating the cover of my sketchbook, I flipped through the pages and noticed there weren't as many portraits as I had hoped. So I think I'm going to start drawing more portraits, so my book can be filled with things to actually look at, instead of just lists and scribbles, and other things.

3. I don't want to finish my mixed-media project. I don't even like the concept of mine! *sigh*. Why me?

4. This weather is crazy. It gets way warm, then way cold, then way warm, and then way cold! Who couldn't get sick from it!? It's nice and cold and sunny right now, though. I wish everyday was like this...

5. I can't wait until the next choice project in art. I know exactly what I'm making. Oh, and you know what my grade in art right now is? A zero!!!!! 0.00. I so did not know what our homework was last week, so I wasn't able to draw anything! Surprisingly, everyone else in my class knew what it was.

6. I've been waiting for this 3-day weekend since the end of Christmas break. It'll be a while until the next one, though. !sigh!

7. Eleven more months until Christmas...

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