I will write this down for you...

You will find me wandering in familiar and unexpected places, staring into the distance or my own head. You will find me with earphone wire twisted into knots underneath my chin. You will find me sprawled before my laptop. You will find me laughing as my cat runs under the bed. You will find me on the phone at 1:30 in the morning. You will find me with a ring with the wrong birthstone on my left hand, a jellyfish on my collarbone or owls dangling from my ears. You will find me wistful, you will find me dreaming with both hands. You will find me narrowing my eyes over a word, the right collision into phrase. You will find me staring at my past-waist-long hair in the mirror, wondering if I should cut it to my ears, knowing I never will. You will find me rueful and smiling at the 5000+ messages in my gmail. You will find me pensive over lyrics, drowning in sound. You will find me looking lonely and trying to feel unlonely. You will find me wearing a dress as a scarf and a tape measure as a necklace. You will find me over a novel, over my sketchbook, over the biggest mess you've ever seen. You will find me covered in charcoal and threads and sweat. You will find me with miles and miles of paper around my fingers. You will find me not only forgetting to live in the present, but living in three years from now. You will find me emptying bags of freeze-dried strawberries. You will find me and fall in love. You will find me, and wish you hadn't. You will find me-

and I will be me.





"I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am." -Sylvia Plath
"To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else." -Emily Dickinson
"You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you." -Ray Bradbury
"Why was I born with such contemporaries?" -Oscar Wilde
"Sometimes your situation sucks, but life doesn't." -Andrew McMahon



Have you ever been alone in a crowded room? Kaye, are you even real? Maybe we could be lovers once in a while. Please don't get me rescued. Some days all I do is watch the sky. Blue, the color of our planet from far far away. Everybody knows the war is over, everybody knows the good guys lost. I need light I need light but I'll fly you a flag, I'll bury this pen into my veins. You sat down next to me like poetry to wine. Let's get drunk and drive to the harbor and drown in the harbor and never stop laughing or whispering or falling or wanting

something

more.



<3the princess Tee