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December 13th, 2007 (02:02 am)
current location: library

i have also become so good at mentally detaching myself from situations that i have done some major damage to myself. i used to regard this as a skill, a specialized tool that I had fashioned and become quite proud of. now i see all of the detriment and missed opportunity it has caused. it has caused some major damage to myself, which is all but lacking in official confirmation (come monday). presence of mind is what i have come to value and learn in the latter parts of 2007, and not a moment too soon.

i don't know about now. my head is really efficient with holding on to information and then just letting it go, dumping it off, as soon as it's not needed anymore. that is not what this education is supposed to do, snot what this $$$ is for. i don't like playing along like i remember all of the time. i'm writing this essay, looking into things i should have read throughout the semester, and it's very interesting. why didn't i engage in this? it's a bad taste in a dry mouth.
there was this old man poet i was talking to the other night, and he was comparing poetry to my major, journalism, and you know it sounded like screeching nails. but in a supple way. he said it was about facts and getting the information right. when have i ever been about that? i've never been one for words.

maybe this break is just what i need, or maybe i need a lot longer.

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October 23rd, 2007 (01:39 am)

I'm busier than i've ever been. every semester is different. the past two months september and october have enjoyed good songlists, as per the usual annual trends(y). there's this halloween story i'm working on for hallows day, and i want it to be like so good. halloween's important to me. The other night the best scary movie that will ever be made ran through my head i think when I got home. Where is that Wealthy And Supportive Person-WASP in my life? I am just kidding. They are here in my life buzzing around my backpack i spilled wine on. That's okay by me but sometimes they step in front of me, haulting me Ricky Ricardo style. Not that I think of myself as Lucy, or anything. Aand who ate my slices of pizzazz?

Costumes: Is this the year of the clown? Alypius has "a potentially 'fatal passion for the circus'" and public shows in general. The Alypius in me, the Alypius in all of us.

I might be in love with a rat. I'm picking at him like a toothpick does a lush sangria, or at least mine anyway.
Granny Smith apples are the new coffee.
Nicole and Sierra happy birthday if you see this I love you and bars.
why did the bar laundromat here have to go?

I exist mostly in the minds of others, the more, the better, yours-

jakob [userpic]

a letter to me

September 12th, 2007 (10:38 am)

current mood: chipper
current song: chromatics

just some mail

jakob [userpic]

august, september, the month of halloween, november

February 10th, 2007 (01:58 pm)
current location: she's gone, i want ANSwers
current song: julie doiron - it's okay to stare

i see that in front of my computer is where the cookie crumbles. oh, and the other day my coat caught on fire and i had to get rid of it.

last night i remember he pushed over a bookshelf after we spoke, but i could only really pay heed to the underweared and unconscious fat guy propped up over the sink in the kitchen with us.

being a full time student has been catalytic to other forgotten hobbies, like readingCollapse )the satisfaction of a good drinkCollapse )vg'sCollapse ), bicycle riding, drawing, and frequenting nytimes.com .

so in the bathroom, across "GOD IS STILL GAY" writ large, lies the handicap shower. it is complete with a luxurious showerhead extension, and it's mine. it matches our handi-room. i haven't found as much enthusiasm for school. my boot is caught in the stirrup of a wild stallion.

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this clam icon is stupid

December 8th, 2006 (03:25 pm)

current mood: lazy
current song: whodini-friends

hey, its friday and i ate cereal. seasons greetings.

can i be brought to study for something on monday, today?
can you see me, http://www.last.fm/music/Ghostland+Observatory?
that was weird, i was just browsing.

i'm glad i decided to go to the mt. eerie show. it was everything i needed, except sleep. but since when has that ever been a priority

oh my god. now im clicking on all these things. http://www.last.fm/music/chris+garneau

okay, and, work is good. the owner prefers that i wear nicer things. i hate girls, they come in with hoodies. its funny. the only waitor thinks its funny. humor is the only thing you can throw at a collective apathy, spelled a-l-i-o-l-i.

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November 26th, 2006 (10:15 pm)

the city trip contained a few devastations, more miscommunications, which was coupled with painful irony you only want to see in quirky, sap movies. i will not be diane keaton. i basically walk away wondering wheres the gravy in the place? this is such a nu age coffeehouse. i hated it a few minutes ago.
time to sit back, have aa drink, alter the subtleties of my online profiles and boldly make a few strategic friend requests.

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October 26th, 2006 (05:18 am)
current song: animal collective-banshee beat

it happened when i was caught in walgreens in the wee hours of the night telling an employee i needed two (2) eyepatches, asked if they had halloween oreos (i didn't see any?) and what about bandanas. i remembered i almost got in a wreck three times today, and that my dad asked me what playlists actually were and if they mattered. i became giddy like screams later over certain feathers and fell in touch with my deeply-seeded desire of i-want-to-be-a-girly-girl-with-particular-feather-arrangements-in-hair.

Burgerpillow needs a bath. I'm staring at him from where I'm at. I can tell he doesn't want one. I underwent a coerced revisitation of highschool (/hell freezes over/frozen hell) and becoming what I later found to be an IOC, before my phyiscal description cackled, krrsshhhked through the hall, ihad already wanted to vaporize. apparently transcripts compel me to act of an IOC sort. a few short conies later, i slipped into a cat power binge at home, out of nowhere. The hoblob closed early on me, and Jacob forfeits an evening of collegial productivity and costume-making.

and halloween stresses and presses.
i want a dog named coney.

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October 22nd, 2006 (06:40 pm)

okay, here i am. applying to schools is a hassle; like running through hooks. i project a phone call to the act center involving frustration, fees, and waiting music. tomorrow, mark my words, i'm sending transcripts. ready or not!

i do not care for much of anything right now.
is anyone alive out there?


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uh, yeah! right!

June 1st, 2005 (03:39 pm)

Friends only,
comment or something.

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