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[28 Mar 2005|01:47am]
[[OOC I'm sorry, I'm not very active and I'm going to have to leave the community. I'm sure you can find a better Sean, but there's a lot going on in my life. My dad just got bypass surgery, and a lot of other things are going on in my life so I just can't be active anymore. I'm sorry. :(]]
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[26 Mar 2005|11:54pm]
Ellie dumped me. I knew it was bound to happen I knew it. She's the only girl I really like right now, and I know she's completely over me. Definately. I hate that I can't do anything about how she feels about me. But If she wanted rain, I'd do my best to make it fucking pour.

I've been working a lot lately. Earning up money to get the hell out of here. I have like no friends and it's just fucking retarded.
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[05 Mar 2005|05:29pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

So, Me and Ellie have been doing fine. She comes by the apartment everynight or so after work and we hang out. Hopefully everythings fine, but as far as I know it is. I love her with everything I have.

But as far as everything else goes. Yeah, it sucks. The kid I deafened came back from Wasaga. And guess where he goes to school? YOU GUESSED IT - FUCKING DEGRASSI. But what are ya gonna do?

I got off work early because I have a surprise for El.
So.. be back later.

[[Okay. March 4th-11th I'm going to Florida :D So please don't cut me! I'll try my hardest to update if my cousin lets me on her computer, so I doubt it. I'll miss you guys! But heh, I changed the dates on my entries so that it actually looks like It's March.]]

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[22 Feb 2005|07:39pm]
I'm glad Ellie's happy living with Spinner and whatnot.
We're still together, which also makes me happy. Because I love her too much. I'm without words right now. Seriously. I feel so emo, as I've stated before. I need to get out more. Soaking up in my misery for the rest of my life isn't gonna do much.

So, the whole Emma/Jay thing. Wow I'm just like appauled hearing that. I mean really, they make the worst couple ever! And Jay had so much going for him with Alex. They were adorable! But, what are ya gonna do?

Yeah. Then Emma sorta told me she was still in love with me, and she always thought the first time she did it would be with me. Wow I was just like wow when she told me. I have no feelings left for her at all, especially after all this Jay shit, and I'm in love with Eleanor Nash. But yeah, It was kind of akward. But who knows?

I got a job at some mechanics place part time. From 230-730 every weekday, then 10-4 On Saturdays

I'm out.
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[19 Feb 2005|03:26pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So I heard Ellie's moving out. Why the fuck am I the last to know? Where is she gonna stay? With whos money is she gonna live off of?
So I guess we're over? I don't know. We have trouble communicating ever since I got back. I want to be with her, but I want her to be happy.

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[16 Feb 2005|09:43pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So. Got in a fight with Spinner because Jay told Ellie who told me that Spinner tried to rape her or some shit and I was/am really fucking pissed.

And thennn to top everything fuckijng off with my girlfriend cheating on me... I proposed. SHE.SAID.NO.
I don't know what else to do. First she cheats, and now she says no? I gave her everything, and now I don't know if she loves me like she says.. And still wants to be with me or what. I mean seriously, what would you do if the love of your life said they didn't want to marry you?
Sorry about the emo-ness of this entry. I don't know what else to think/do lately. So confused. I love her. But I can't wait forever

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[15 Feb 2005|07:13pm]
Got Ellie flowers delivered to the school. It was precious seeing her face.

Valentines day was okay.
I've been thinking a lot about a lot of stuff. I need to talk to Ellie

Sorry such a short update.
Longer one tomorrow or laterr
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[12 Feb 2005|04:08pm]
I love having Ellie in my arms now. All the time. And knowing she's safe. I love her toooo much :]

Valentines day is Monday. I don't know what to get her.. UGH.
Help me out?

Sorry such a small update. But I'm taking Ellie out to dinner just because I can in a few minutes and I have to get in the shower

See ya
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[09 Feb 2005|04:17pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

So I'm back in Degrassi! I got here really early this morning.. Manny was outside and Ellie was still sleeping and I didn't wanna wake her up so Manny and I went for a walk and then watched the Grudge untill Ellie finally woke up. I'm gonna start school up in a week or so, I'll transfer my papers from Wasaga and Degrassi here I come! I was so happy to see Ellie, and she was happy to see me too. I'm so glad I have a beautiful, caring and sweet girl to come home to again :] See ya --Sean

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[08 Feb 2005|08:51pm]
Well. I'm thinking about moving back.. I don't want it to be anything more confusing for her. I don't know if I can always be there for her like she needs.. I feel like a horrible boyfriend and all that. BLAHHH.

I want to come back, and I want to be there for her. But I don't want to ruin our relationship.. because I love her a lot. More then I've ever loved any other girl.

But, I think i'm gonna go

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Hey guys [29 Jan 2005|01:21am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Sean here. I'm in Wasaga, and I was talking to Jay and he mentioned one of these so I thought hey, What not? It's a better way to keep up with everyone at Degrassi.

I feel like a complete jerk for leaving Ellie, I still love her, But I'm sure that she doesn't feel the same way anymore. =/ She was the only girl I ever really loved.. I haven't gotten my mind off of Emma though.. Which REALLY sucks because I heard about the Jay-Emma situation down at the Ravine, and I know that I love Ellie. I'm so confused, I feel so emo. HAHA Me? Emo. Damnit I'm a big loser.

I think I might be coming back, If Jay's willing to come pick me up since I'm still car-less. Well, I'll talk to you later

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