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big changes
yesterday josh mentioned to me that i am invited to come and stay with his dad and him in san diego for the summer if i want to. the only thing i told him that was holding me back, was school. lo and behold, this morning i get an email from my program coordinator telling me that i am to withdraw from my program due to issues with my performance.
go me
go you

looks like i have some thinking to do.


e

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i don't want to keep acting like you're not leaving. i know, you know, everyone knows. and it's really fucking heartbreaking.
i just wish you would see why you really don't have to go!

e

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haircut got dun. looks nice in a the-way-it-was-before kind of manner. i got a new bag too, which you must find SO thrilling... but whatever. basically spent an entire working day at the mall when i wasn't even working. but i got a lot done! for example, i was able to deposit and annihilate my first (early) pension cheque of the season. bye bye 200 bucks!

life these days is mainly concerned with counting down days before everyone vacates newmarket fer gud. i am going to be oh so lonely. trying really hard to not get depressed about it, and reassuring myself that i MIGHT actually make friends at school.

other than that i am mad at my boyfriend for reasons that are not entirely apparent to him let alone myself. i can't really explain it, other than that things are not ideal. quite possible that all of this is a manifestation of the subconscious termoil i have endured for the past year in medium force, and the past few months in full force.

what?

i'm going crazy, maybe.