wow I havent written in forever...Like its been at least a year probably. Anyway, I figured it would be cool to start again especially since I have lots to talk about and I am stressed. Well, I have a Fiance now!! I know, I never even told anyone I had a new boyfriend, gosh...but that was almost 10 months ago! Well, He is at Basic training for the army right now, and it is really hard to deal with especially since I lived with him for 6 months straight, and did everything together...even showered together! I love him a lot, and I am so glad that He is in my life. I am gunna tell you how we met first before I talk on about it....
So, we met on myspace...I wasnt the type of person who meets people online that they don't know....but I talked to him for a while, and we talked all night til like 4 am everyday...it was so fun, and he is great. We realized we had all the same views on life and love, and have always wanted true love. He would say such sweet things like...what if i fall in love with you, and I'm happy that your happy, and I love who you are, pretty much saying I love you just not directly. It was like he cared about me even though he never met me.The best part was that he was my dream man, a true german that I've always wanted....and he loves piercings and tattoos! I even told my parents growing up that I wanted to marry a german, you know my german fetish! hehe. Anyway, we talked and talked and I finally told him I would call him. So the first time I called, We both were scared there would be awkward silence, but there wasnt any at all! It was so great, and he literally had the sexiest phone voice I've ever heard! He said he loved me before he met me, even on the phone...he also said he didnt care what I looked like. I could be a 500 pound black man and hed still love me...But he told me he wanted to meet me, and wanted me to come down to west virginia. My mom said she wanted him to come up here first, so it would be safer. We agreed, and he made the plans without even talking to his mom first he wanted to meet me so badly! So he came about 5 days later, yeah everything moved really fast. The bus ride was 20 hours, 800 miles....I knew I would never meet a guy like him, He is the only guy who would ever travel that far for a person! The moment I saw him at the bus station, there was just something about him that made me feel so good inside. He had the cutest face, and was so helpful! He was really funny too:) The first day we met, we went to the beach because it was July 1st. It was a lot of fun...We sat on rocks, and talked and it was weird because we kept staring into eachother eyes, and I have never talked to somebody and had them stare like so deeply into my eyes and my soul..it was like he was reading right through me, it was beautiful how he looked at me like I was the only thing he could see... then I kissed him out of no where...it was so romantic! There was such big chemistry between us, it couldnt even be prevented! we went on rocks above the water, and he told me he wanted me to jump in with him, but it was freezing cold...I was so scared but Then I trusted him like it was natural instinct too, and i never trust people...but I grabbed his hand and jumped in, while immediatly my body went into shock and I stopped breathing because the water was so cold. He saved me, and pushed me back up and picked me up. It was so sweet of him to do that. Even though, i almost died...It was so worth it! I even say to this day, I would do it again if it meant being in his arms. We spent the next 9 days together in massachusetts...Did cool stuff, even got piercings together. It was a lot of fun. Even the days that we spent in my room, was so much fun. He then took me to his house in west virginia, 800 miles away...It was pretty fun, I met his friends and we did fun stuff! He came back with me to MASS again hehe, and he was here with me until august....I loved being with him. He had told me he wanted to have a serious talk with me, so he did. He told me he wanted to marry me...I was in shock. I couldn't believe this, of course I told him I wanted to marry him too! It was so romantic! We were away from eachother for a month and I had to go to a cruise. It was soo hard going 7 days without talking to him, it sucked...I cried. The second I heard his voice It made me melt....It made me so happy! I finally got home, and he asked me to move in with him. That is such a huge step. Of course I said yes, and That is what I did. He came all the way here to get me, yes on a 20 hour bus ride once again. That is so romantic, that he would travel back and forth like 3000 miles basically in 2 months just to see me, and bring me to his house so I wouldnt have to go alone. I brang all my stuff, and he helped me. Living with him was rough at first because everyone talked shit about me, and it was stupid...but after a while they all finally apologized. I went home and came back...etc. But I moved back after 2 months of being away, it sucked..I wanted him to get me so badly and he did. He always protected me, and fought for me...and tried to show me off to everyone. He always took care of me, and slept with me...Making love to him was unbelievable and I took his virginity...we always shook right after....and it was romantic. But I had gone home because He had to go to Basic training, and I had told my mom I was gunna go home and she already left to get me, But he said he was gunna come in a week but then my dad wouldnt let him, so he went in the army right away. He came to my house again on the bus before he left. It was great... We made love and it was so beautiful...and we hung out for like 4 days, and I cooked for him a lot. I loved it, but our good bye was so short and not good enough! Now he has been at basic training for over a month...He left on march 7.... Ive only gotten 3 calls from him, but at least I get letters a few times a week. That helps me alot, but it sucks not being able to hear his voice...and all the times I did, he was crying cuz he misses me so much. It makes me sad, and I cry all the time because I need him. His graduation is on the 24th...and I have to leave on the 20th of may... I am so excited because we have only a month left until we get to see eachother again. Its just really hard because we went from doing everything together, being together 24/7 to nothing...not even a phone call. Its driving me crazy, but I'm kinda used to it now. The hard part is i feel like i dont have a boyfriend obviously haha....but at the same time i know i have him, its just like a lack of attention, communication...etc! But I am always faithful to him...and I know he is too! His letters are so sweet and romantic. I love him with all of my heart and soul. This is about it for today, I will write tomorrow or later...Bye y'all!!