The Saying - Poem

In an old book I came
across a saying.
It was like a stranger
punching me in the face.

It won't stop
gnawing at me.
When I walk around at night,
looking for a beautiful girl,

when a lie or a description
of life or someones fake
way of being with people
occurs instead of reality,

when I betray myself with
an easy explanation
as if what's dark is clear,
as if life doesn't have thousands

of locked, burning gates,
when I use words without really
having known their strict openness
and put my hands around things

that don't excite me,
when a dream hides my face with soft hands
and the day avoids me, cut off from the world

cut off from who I am deeply,
I freeze where I am
and see hanging in the air in front of me

~Ernst Stadler

lynda tutorials

Due to life's trial and error i have developed a motto which i may have mentioned before; "never say never". This is relevant because once again it has proven true.

You know how a week or so ago i said that the tarot project i'd been working on was a no go. Weeell the universe has decided that it was going to give me lots of new tools to have yet another go at the project.

Soooo, i have been totally distracted learning new skills at Theres a 14 day free trial if your interested in computer skills. They also have a bunch of interviews with various digital arts people - cool !

M xx
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Today - prayer

Great Spirit,
Speak into my words today,
Think into my thoughts today,
Work into my deeds today,
I am yours.

Adapted from "One day my soul just opened up" by Iyanla Vanzant

Education v Austin

Yesterday I found myself truly shocked when i discovered how much university's charge in the US. WOW! $25,000 - 10,000 per year (over four years) This is compared to £3,225 in the UK. No wonder there are so many films that center around a poor but talented person receiving a scholarship and living happily ever after. (Cue soppy music)

There are a few main thoughts drifting round my mind at the moment (as my son does yet another chunk of his maths GCSE today).

1 I wish i hadn't taken my education for granted. I really wish i had known how lucky i was to get a free University education, and that i'd picked something useful rather than just anything to get away from my parents.

2 I wish i could impress on my son how lucky he is to get such a good education. He is totally uninterested in making something of himself. In fact he seems to perfectly represent the average view of UK school children, where being seen to study is very UNcool.

3 So this brings me to musing number three. If Hubby was offered that secondment  in Austin Tx. Would it be beneficial to my son to give him a year out between GCSE and A levels and maybe enrol him in the US school system (grade 11)? Would he mature a bit and become interested in his studies?

At the moment getting my son through his GCSEs is painful, we are having to force every morsel of information into his unwilling and disinterested brain, he is far more concerned about his image, girlfriend and bike. At the moment i am learning more about his subjects than he is, and i really can't go through this process again during his A' levels.

I really don't know what to do for the best. One minute i think that interrupting his education would be bad, and the next minute i'm thinking that it would be the best thing for him.

Anyone have any thoughts?
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May my feet rest firmly on the ground

May my feet rest firmly on the ground

May my head touch the sky

May I see clearly

May I have the capacity to listen

May I be free to touch

May my words be true

May my heart and mind be open

May my hands be empty to fill the need

May my arms be open to others

May my gifts be revealed to me

So that I may return that which has been given

Completing the great circle.

— The Terma Collective
in Life Prayers from Around the World
edited by Elizabeth Roberts and Elias Amidon

Britain's Trillion Pound Horror Story

Amazing program! Very bias and one sided, but it truly got me thinking. Would tax cuts really stimulate growth? How much longer can we go on spending money we don't have. Do we reward politicians for robbing us blind?

"Film maker Martin Durkin explains the full extent of the financial mess we are in: an estimated £4.8 trillion of national debt and counting. It's so big that even if every home in the UK was sold it wouldn't raise enough cash to pay it off.

Durkin argues that to put Britain back on track we need to radically rethink the role of the state, stop politicians spending money in our name and introduce, among other measures, flat taxes to make Britain's economy boom again.

This polemical film presented by Martin Durkin, brings economic theory to life and makes it hit home. It includes interviews with academics, economic experts, entrepreneurs, no less than four ex-Chancellors of the Exchequer and the biggest stack of £50 notes you'll never see."

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Terma Collective - prayer

May our eyes remain open even in the face of tragedy.
May we not become disheartened.
May we find in the dissolution
of our apathy and denial,
the cup of the broken heart.
May we discover the gift of the fire burning
in the inner chamber of our being –
burning great and bright enough
to transform any poison.
May we offer the power of our sorrow to the service
of something greater than ourselves.
May our guilt not rise up to form
yet another defensive wall.
May the suffering purify and not paralyze us.
May we realize the greatness of our sorrow
and not run from its touch or flame.
May clarity be our ally and wisdom our support.
May our wrath be cleansing, cutting through
the confusion of denial and greed.
May we not be afraid to see or speak our truth.
May the bleakness of the wasteland be dispelled.
May the soul’s journey be revealed
and the true hunger fed.
May we be forgiven for what we have forgotten
and blessed with the remembrance
of who we really are.

~ The Terma Collective

My first ever etch - Sun Mandala

My first ever etch
Originally uploaded by Lime 'n Soda
Ok so i disappeared for a while. Again. Lets just put it down to personal stuff and health.

Anyway, the redecoration of my studio is almost done. It took waaay longer than expected.

I thought i would share my first bit of new work that christened the space.

An etched copper sample. I left it in the Ferric Chloride for a bit long and it ate through the resist, but i'm still really happy with it.

I'm hoping it will mark a new beginning. :)