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25 March 2012 @ 11:06 pm
10 year reunion  
This whole 10 year reunion thing is really sticking in my craw for some reason. I don't know what it is about it, I've been talking to my mom about it a little, whether or not I want to go and all of those things.

It's strange, I don't really talk to anyone I went to high school with anymore, occasionally I'll run into them around town, it's always weird and stilted and I never know what to say to any of them. I was a bit of a loner in high school, I had friends but they were the sort of friends you had classes with, you ate lunch with them and then you went home at the end of the day and that was about it. I didn't really do that whole party thing, or spend much time with people out side of school, I've always been closer to my family than other people.

It was easier getting close to people once I went to college. I started figuring myself out and what I wanted and the kinds of people I wanted to be friends with.

I had much closer friendships with the people I went to college with, though even with them I don't really talk to them much anymore, because I am such a significantly different person today than I was in college let alone in the ten years since I was in high school.

The girls I spent most of my time with are all married now, every single one of them, more than half of them have kids now, some as many as 3. And I just I look at their lives and I look at my life and I'm not sure even knowing each other ten years ago would be enough to really get me talking to any of them again. I mean they'll be all, these are my kids, and I'll be all 'Oh I hate kids', and they'll be all hey this is my husband, and I'll be all 'Oh I like chicks sooooooo no husband for me.' And that's the other thing, I mean maybe I grew up in Austin, and sure we like to call ourselves a little sea of blue in an otherwise red ocean, but this is still Texas. And I was kind of painfully repressed christian back in high school. I don't think anyone would actually say anything, but yeah.

Yeahhhhh I'm probably thinking too much about this, but yeah, it's been on my mind since I keep getting notices from facebook about things.
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Chemyluminescence: My_Ringsc8h7n3o2 on March 27th, 2012 03:50 am (UTC)
I am with you.. it's really scary actually! It's my 10 yr high school reunion this year too and honestly.. I don't speak to any of them regularly (read at all). There is one chic that I honestly only wish a happy birthday too. I had like 2 real friends, a few acquaintances, and that's it. Yeah I did the college thing too but I still didn't manage to make a ton of friends. After all that, I have gained one more friend. It is gonna be weird to see them again (that is IF I ever get any info - I don't do FB) because I was always the quiet smart one that people only spoke to in passing (rarely) or when they wanted something. Sigh.... I know those people all have kids and marriages by now, and I have none of that (nor do I want it!). I only ever went to one dance and I hated it, Sr. prom it was. I never dated in school, tho there was one guy who liked me. I just didn't do that. I am not one for labels or anything.. I am just me. *Shrugs*
this is not a thaliathalialunacy on March 28th, 2012 05:32 pm (UTC)
I am so pro-reunion it's not even funny. I mean, for as much as the actual thing might be boring, or you don't want to have to explain your life story eighteen times an hour, you never know. I talked my mother into going to her 40th (!), even though she had all the same reservations you do. and she came back with a new friend that she still has lunch with on a regular basis. You've changed, and the best part is that so have they. I mean, at least some of them. It's better to give it a try than to wonder, imo. :D
kacquiescence_ on March 30th, 2012 02:18 am (UTC)
Yeah I think part of what is getting me all worked up about this reunion is being stuck on what people used to be like and what a hell hole high school was for me, it's possible it might not be as bad as I imagine it to be. I've still got several months before I need to decide, it's just stuck in my craw these days.