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end. [28 Apr 2006|07:41pm]
oh livejournal..

take care.

- amanda marie letteney.
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happy love day [15 Feb 2006|01:27am]
so, regardless of my feelings for the holiday, i had a pretty groovy valentines.

chris gave me a rad purple jar filled with CANDY, and a locket that was hidden within the bomb reeses...it was freakin' awesome.

so we chilled, made tacos, played video games 'n what not.
then we chilled with my baaahdies jim & andrew.

it wasn't too eventful, but good vibes and good friends are never boring.


[13 Feb 2006|03:46pm]
i'm itching for a new tattoo.
i already know what i want & where, but thanks to Michaels, can't afford another one right now.

shit, i can't even afford the 2 weeks i have to wait for the checks.

i went to the bank on saturday before work, to get my account updated, and an atm card so i can start getting direct deposit for work (not to mention the loot ALREADY in the account that would in actuality, pay for the tattoo). but of course, there's 5,000 other things i have to do 1st, and by the time everything gets worked out, i have to wait another month for everything to go through (gotta love being paid bi-weekly).

i need to start looking for a new job, or look for a 2nd job. i'm not getting enough hours. being in school would be so much easier, but that's not where i want to be right now. i want to be working. i will eventually continue my education, but i want to make money, so when i do figure out what i want, there will be nothing holding me back.

fuck money, man.

ho-hum... [06 Feb 2006|05:46pm]
i feel like leaving the state for a day.
aimee had mentioned in an entry about how she wanted to go to new york, and it really made me miss it there.
i'm just in one of those spontanious moods where i just need to go somewhere.
i think i'll start planning tonight.


my bamboo plant is dying. i moved it into a bigger 'habitat', and it's turning yellow. i'm pretty crushed...


tonight is coley's last night @ work, and i can't get in there to say good-bye. that sucks. it really hit me the other night about how miserable it's going to be without her. the feeling is pretty mutual about it throughout the store.


i need to get a job with insurance. medical coverage IS kinda a big deal..these old bones just ain't what they used to be...


got some free acrylics at work, thanks shoplifters. it made me realize that i've been using dated material, and maybe i should invest in all new art supplies. it's definatly needed.


i need to start writing again.
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work & whatnot... [27 Jan 2006|09:48pm]
(+)- chillin' with chris before work
(+)- morning iced tea
(-)- rushing to get ready for work
(+)- coley closed
(-)- coley's leaving soon
(+)- katie leaving "Amanda Rocks!" on my worklist
(-)- little kids who are facinated by what the fire door does
(-)- little kids in the store in general
(+)- paddle ball fights with kristen
(+)- winning ^
(+)- no coupons
(-)- my schedule for next week
(+)- closing 20 minutes early
(-)- the old people bitching about that
(-)- creepy old lady asking me to bring her bags to a car that wasn't there, in the lot that didn't have working lights.
(+)- cigarette breaks with coley and kristen
(+/-)- the power in the store going off
(-)- my bic dying on my break
(+)- finally being home
(+)- the bowl i just packed
(+)- ma'dukes went food shopping
(-)- chris doesn't get out for another hour
(+)- chillin' with aidan when he does get out

so all and all, it was a fun night.

work tomorrow, 4-C. then chris' gig @ helen's cafe right after.
long day tomorrow...

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no one here gets out alive. [19 Jan 2006|01:06pm]
i really need to start planning the trip to vermont. i have to talk to my cousin this week to figure out the best time to come. i also need to figure out dec and chris' schedules so we can go.

i just need a vacation. all i've been doing is working/sleeping/smoking/eating/working/sleeping. it's getting pretty damn old. i just want to get out of braintree for a few days and chill some place else. i rarely see my cousin sarah anymore, and what better way to make up for all that lost time than to go blaze at UVM??

it should be fun though. i just need to get going with the plans.


[12 Jan 2006|01:07am]
i don't want an argument.
i deleted the last entry for a fresh start.
i was just pissed, because maybe i care too much.
but the point is, i still care.
i just want to make peace.

i hope you can do the same. i think it would do some good.


[24 Dec 2005|12:17pm]
since it's almost after christmas, i'm excited.

in a few weeks, i get to leave michaels- and go to work at gloria jeans coffee.

i can't fucking wait.

oh yeah, merry christmas.
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"i said gad damn!" [19 Dec 2005|05:39pm]
i'm mailing the christmas cards...hopefully tonight.
so anyone who asked, you should be expecting one soon!

i haven't even fucking started shopping yet.
i don't get paid until thursday.
if i can pull this off, i can do anything.
lets hope i'm that good.

what have i been doing...lets see...
chris and i chilled with tom and drew over the weekend. i forgot how much i missed them. we chilled, had a few beers, smoked a bit...it was nice seeing their lovely faces again.

got pulled over on saturday with andrew and chris. that fucking sucked. especially when i was pulling up to dec's house. i felt like shit. no one needs cop attention brought to their home, and since i'm such a huge advocate of having the 5-0 not know my friends and i exist- it made me feel even shittier.
but dec is a sweetheart (even though he shouldn't be!) so i didn't get in trouble. i kinda wish i did.

i worked today, and i have tomorrow and wednesday off. i have to go shopping with my grandmother tomorrow morning, then i'm gonna stay @ chris' so i can spend some time with him and sunshine.

christmas fam party after work on thursday. then work again on friday.

christmas eve-saturday. christmas- sunday.

...i guess the reason i posted was to figure out my schedule in writing (or typing..whatever-fuck you)
so pehaps this was pointless.

it's good to be busy.
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it sucks when morose lyrics make sence.. [13 Dec 2005|06:22pm]
[ mood | listless ]

"When we laugh indoors,
the blissful tones bounce off the walls and fall to the ground.
Peel the hardwood back to let them loose from decades trapped and listen so still.
This city is my home,
construction noise all day long and gutter punks are bumming change.
So i breed thicker skin,
and let me lustrous coat fill in and i'll never admit that,
I loved you guenivere.

I've always fallen fast with too much trust in the promise that,
"no one's ever been here, so you can quell those wet fears."
I want purity,
I must have it here right now.
But don't you get me started now.

December's chill comes late,
the days get darker and we wait for this direness to pass.

There are piles on the floor of artifacts from dresser drawers,
i'll help you pack."


christmas cahds [13 Dec 2005|01:12pm]

since a few people requested it, i am going to be sending out christmas cards this year (so sarah, you get one too!) 

if anyone wants one, leave your place of habitat so i can mail one to ya. 

if you don't feel comfortable exposing your where-abouts on the internet, e-mail them to me here.

if i already know your address, don't bother e-mailing it. 

i'll find you. 

just let me know you want one. 



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[08 Dec 2005|03:48pm]
my grandmother came into my work today, drunk off of 4 glasses of wine.

...life is sweet sometimes.

"to the rescue, here i am" [04 Dec 2005|01:17pm]
i honestly picked the WORST possible time to be employed at an arts & crafts store.

so there i was, thinking how i need a fucking job to pay for christmas presents, when i decided to apply to Michael's. sure...seemed like a decent gig for a stoner-art-kid.
old people man...they're so fucking mean!

you'd figure the beauty of christmas time, would be the love and compassion for your fellow man/woman. not the case at all. which is fucking sad to me.

the true meaning of what christmas should be, has been dead for years. it's been turned into an obligation. i mean, i felt obligated to get a job to pay for presents. i think everyone feels obligated...

i celebrate christmas because i like doing good things for the people i love, not because "it's JESUS' BIRTHDAY!" which is the case in most homes. this holiday just turns everyone into raging assholes. i try everyday, to not make someones day a living hell. especially when i purchase things at stores. no one needs that at work. but, unfourtunatly, "respect your elders" wins over "treat others how you would want to be treated." and fuck that.

my second day of working at Michael's was yesterday. i can't even count how many names i was called for shit that was out of my control. i tried not to let it get me down (especially when jamie was bitching the people out for me) but it does...

example #1:
i was at a "cash only" register. note that there are at LEAST 4 signs that say "CASH ONLY" above it. a lady tries to pay for 50 things with a credit card. i say "you can't do that" and the lady goes off on how "we clearly don't want our customers to be pleased," when i'm an 18 year old, getting paid $7 something an hour just to be able to buy shit for people..not the fucking manager.

example #2:
a lady came over to my register with one item. she threw it down, right next to where it scans the bar code. i didn't realize it scanned it. i rang it up. she gave me 20 dollars, i gave her change and the receipt. she flips out about how i fucked up and rang it up twice. the transaction was complete and i can't void anything AFTER a transaction, only a manager can. so i tell her i can't do what she wants and she starts screaming "GIVE ME MY MONEY BACK! ARE YOU BRAIN DEAD?? YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT, DO YOU?!" and to boot, she gets on her cell phone and calls someone and starts bitching on the phone about how i'm "a ridiculously foolish girl who can't do shit". i tried explaining to her how i was sorry, but it was my second day and apparently that wasn't a valid excuse.

...wow man.
the older i get...the more christmas becomes bullshit.

of course, i had to pick this time to work at a place the mainly sells shit for christmas.

i don't mean to go off about how shitty my day yesterday was, but it really depresses me how ridiculously this country is.

everyone is getting cool shit in a few weeks....LIGHTEN UP!!
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turkey dayness [25 Nov 2005|07:35pm]
so yeah, thanksgiving was yesterday.

went to mah grandparent's in the afternoon. got to see my baby cousins who kick way more ass than you do. chilled with my other cousins. planned a trip to vermont to visit sarah @ her place. ate very little dinner, chatted somemore, and left.

came home, got changed, and was picked up by chris, sunshine and declan.
went back to the kelehan's, met their family. little marky andrezyk was there with a cushing. it was good seeing them. so my boys jammed, we listened. amanda came, so i chilled with her. had a few beers. relaxed. once the drunk family members left the garage, i chilled with chris, dk, dk2, sunshine, and amanda squared. it was nice. had good conversations, laughed, and whatnot. it was a sweet ending to a holiday where you're supposed to be with those you love.

it was an awesome day.

stay warm.

[18 Nov 2005|07:08pm]
China is going to kill us all.
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[15 Nov 2005|01:54am]
Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5
people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use
things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.

1. listening to a good friend play an acoustic and belt out your favorite songs.
2. cracking up with friends when you're not high.
3. new undies
4. electric blankets
5. comfortable silences

since i'm basically the last person to fill this out...i don't need to "tag" anyone.

hope all is well.

[13 Nov 2005|05:39pm]
declan: but i realized today that im the only one in control of my future, and if i want it to advance i have to do something about it, not anyone else.

he's never been more right.

thank you hun.

[13 Nov 2005|05:25pm]
why the fuck do i still have this thing?
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might as well.... [04 Nov 2005|07:40pm]
if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want- good or bad. when you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.
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tigah style.. [21 Oct 2005|08:02pm]
last night was a blast.

woke up yesterday. got picked up by sunshine 'n lisa. went back to chris'. deck and dylan came. chilled 'n smoked for a while. they jammed. when they were done we chilled 'n smoked some more. then, mike randomly showed up...ok. i don't need to get into that pleasantness. then he left, and we were the original 5 of us made our way to the Purple Eggplant.

every thursday, there's an "open blues night" where anyone who plays (preferably blues) can sign up and play in the restaurant. the 4 boys have only played there once before. so we went back last night. they don't play blues, but they get away with some Doors and Zep, which people seem to enjoy more anyway (as do we). so they signed up, and we chilled in a booth until they could play. so it was chris, sunshine, deck, dylan, lisa and i. then, right before they went on, deck's girlfriend amanda (haha, silly) came and sat with lisa and i. we were the designated "band's girlfriends table" which was funny. so we ordered some drinks, danced, and screamed sexual themed remarks at our men of the hour. lisa made a little sign that said "GROUPIES" with 3 arrows and held it up. amanda and i stole the rest of the free pizza and got yelled at. they played "Crossroads", "Back Door Man", and "Dazed and Confused". everyone (including us ladies) dug it so much that they played one more- "Roadhouse Blues". it was sweet.

after they played, they came back to the "lovin' corner" of the restaurant. we chilled there and listened to other bands until last call. after that, we all said our goodbyes, and parted ways. chris and i drove back with sunshine and lisa.

it was so much fun. i'm talking to lisa more, which is good. i just met amanda, and she's fun to be out with. i've been with chris, sunshine and deck almost everyday, which i absolutely love, and it's always good to chill with dylan.

last night was a really awesome outing with even better people. hopefully this will be an every thursday thing.

it's great to be sleeping with a rock-star. ;0)

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