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Monday, June 12th, 2006
9:19 pm - ab routine.
200 sit ups
50 reverse sit ups
20 push ups

meet me at seeking_slender <3

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Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
6:37 am
my scale said 136 but i don't believe it. my scale is so fucked up, it's annoying as hell.

i'll weigh myself tomorrow and see if it's better :(

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Thursday, June 30th, 2005
3:38 pm
This song is about mia and ana and other disorders. it's really good, you should download it. i suggest you read the lyrics too.

Me and Mia by Ted Leo And The Pharmacists

Me and Mia by Ted Leo And The Pharmacists lyircs


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Saturday, June 25th, 2005
12:24 pm
how does this diet sound?

i'm trying this new diet. i tried to fast yesterday and that went straight to hell and i binged so i know NOT to do that again.

but from now i'm going to try 68oz of water and mostly fruits.

and i know it won't be easy but i'm going to try my very hardest to try to work out.

god i hate my legs but i NEED this stomachCollapse )

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Friday, June 24th, 2005
11:05 am
thinspiration: Alyson Hannigan

she's so pretty.

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Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
6:28 am
i have so mucn inspiration right now. it took a while to find it but i have it. i need to lose this weight. i've lose some but it's not enough. i'm not how i want to be yet.

i have to do it for the boy i used to like like. except he has been a jerk lately so once he has seen me drop 15 lbs he'll be sorry. call it a type of "revenge"

i have to do it for the people at school. a HUGE secret is already out of mine that is going to change the way people look at me. i got my tongue pierced which nobody excepted. so i might as well shock em again with something else while i'm at it. i mean, hell, why not?

i have to do it for my mom. i'm always complaining about my weight and it would make her so proud if i actually got a flat stomach and thin legs.

thank you to everyone who commented on my last entry. it meant alot. thanks guys.

p.s. if anyone has thinspiration of real girls and not models, could you show them to me? that would be great. those help me so much.


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Sunday, June 19th, 2005
11:09 pm
i'm such a fuck up.

god, i just want to be skinny to show everyone i CAN be pretty...

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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
10:50 am
fuck. well, i'm back to 136 because i've been depressed and eating.

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Saturday, June 4th, 2005
10:14 am

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10:04 am
if you want to lose weight, get your tongue pierced!! cuz that's what i did, tehe! i didn't do it because of that though. i didn't do it for sexual reasons either. i didn't know you couldn't eat bread or meat and a bunch of other stuff of the first like 2 weeks. and you don't even WANT to eat but your tongue hurts and it's hard to eat food.

so yesterday i had two bites of ice cream and half a banana. and a bunch of water. and today i'm eating fruit. cuz that's all you're suposse to eat really.

and i weighted myself this morning and i was 135!! i don't know how acurate that is cuz i barely ate yesterday but yea, oh well! made me happy!!! i'll weight myself tomorrow and see what it says and probably post that was my weight.

hope you all are doing well. <3

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Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
12:32 pm
137!! and i'm going to get to 130 by Sunday.


i'm going to put one of these food plans each day.

B: Orange
L: Carrots & ½ Apple

B: Peach
L: Carrots & Pinapple

B: Watermelon
L: Carrots & Mango

for dinner, i'll try to just eat fruit and avoid my family's fatty dinners. plus i'll be working out and stuff.

i have six days to lose 7lbs. no mistakes. i can keep focused for six days. anyone else ever lose 7lbs in 6 days?

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Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
7:27 pm
b: banana slices
l: nothing
d: chicken nuggests, potatoe salad, and greens

ran for 7 minutes and did a mile on the bike.

it's okay. i think i'll just take what the scale says in the morning. because i could weigh myself after not eating for a while and be like 137.

tell all your friends i'm back and i'm fighting.

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Friday, May 6th, 2005
5:27 am
hello friends.

i'll return to this journal during summer.


until then...

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Saturday, March 26th, 2005
8:52 am
well i'm pretty sure i've gained all that weight back and i'm afaid of that scale.

this spring break, i will do SO WELL!!!

but i'll need some help.....

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Sunday, March 13th, 2005
6:00 pm
i told my mom i lost weight and she said she could tell!!!

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Saturday, March 12th, 2005
1:11 pm
if apples and carrots are negative cals then.... i've only had 180 so far..

the more cals, the more it fills you up?

the scale just said 140 when i was hungry. so maybe i'm really 140 and like 139 when i'm naked!!!

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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
10:40 pm
i can't do this anymore...

for breakfast i only had fruits, cereal, skim milk, and starwberries. and for lunch i had some cracker sandwhich things. but for dinner i had to fuck up and ate this burrito thing from quedoba. it was fucking huge and i ate the whole thing. shit, i was doing work. i could of gone without it but no... i'm a fuck up in every thing i do.

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Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
10:30 pm
b: strawberries, bananas, skim milk
l: carrots, apple, three bits of salad
d: none

wheee and i got my ab video today!!!

but i'm at 142 a-freakin-gain!!

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Sunday, March 6th, 2005
9:02 am
the scales says 145 today but i refuse to believe that. i'm still really full from last night and i'm wearing a hoodie so yea.

but i'm fat.

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Saturday, March 5th, 2005
11:20 am
i lost my motovation.

but i ran yesterday with a friend.

but i ate a whole box of chocolate too.

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