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I'm sick and my head hurts...ouch...Pockets i will definitely have to murder you for this.
The bump on my head is not as swollen anymore.
If you don't know what i'm talking about then i will tell you.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower is an evil book.
Or maybe, Pockets, you are the only one evil. She hit me on the head with her book. It was numb at first, but then it hurt like a mofo.Not to mention the fact that I am sick.
Then I took her book went to the bathroom and she followed. I went into a stall and through the book over the door. The book then landed in the sink. The sink is an automatic one, as in it has a motion sensor. She through it back over. [insert angry words here] The book missed me. She tried to grab it from under the door. I kicked it across the floor. I came out of the stall. I left the bathroom. Pockets stayed. Pockets exited the bathroom. Pockets asked me what I did with the book [insert weird look on my face here]I showed her where the book was. She attempted to dry off the book.I walked quickly. I sat down.Pockets gave me a look like you will burn in hell for this. I moved to the table across from me. It was the popular table. I received many dirty looks. I sat there for the rest of lunch. and that is why my head hurts.
ok bye,
Michelle
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conor

i can use 4 instead of for now that shainas gone. ok not, gone just doesnt have me as her friend.

i really screwed things up this time, d in math ,which made my mother not happy. got locked out of my house dog had 2 pee,which made wiggles not happy.my parentalsthink im a a lier, kleptomaniac, bully, and druggie-none of them r true-,which made me not happy. shaina and ashley finally told me how much they hated me (therefore stopped lying),i'm elated.i have very bad social skills, i believe i am officially a partial loner.(i know, that phrase is redundent)
and i should beat myself 4 complaining like this.no u should
i had a major panic attack yesterday at like 2 a.m.
i dont know why.
im probubly a mental case...that would suck
im a little worried about [insert friends name here]
its kind of stupid, but in health we were talking about suicide signs and [insert friends name here] has all of them.
asked mrs.[insert annoying health teacher's name here] "what if they always do that kind of stuff?"
she said "then they probubly have been contemplating suicide for a long time"
thats so stupid ,some people just are like that, cause if they were suicidal for a long time then they probubly would already have killed themselves, never mind forget it that didnt make much since
then [insert peer name here] asked me "who were you describing?"
i said myself...obviously without much thought...cause im stupid , and it was a bit of a reflex ,i guess. therefore screwing myself.
now she's scared and thinks im suicidal
she watches me very closley during class time
i'm going to see harry potter and the goblet of fire tomorrow on a fieldtrip
i am going to be one of the first to see it except the people who saw it at midnight...and my other class mates
im excited
other than that im pretty much bored out of my mind
im also confused, nervous, and a bit scared
no reason, i just am, i have been all day
bye
im sorry for the earlier grammer mistakes
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conor

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need some good news. nothing in particular, anything really
an email, a letter, a friend.
anything
something that will let me know that someone cares.
ive been in kind of a daze this last week.read 2 books; go ask alice...crank(actually read cran almost 2 months ago...4got to tell about it so said something this time).
they were both pretty depressing, didnt help my situation.
went to my brothers birthday party,lady named...ashley thought i was 16 and asked if i was thinking about applying 4 a job at the bowling alley... i said"im only 13"
she said"really?i thought u were 16"so yah
got a new hair cut...dont like it that much
im in the mood for a life changing experience, but i guess they never come when u need them, instead at random, unexpected times...especially the times when you fear them most.
i want to slit my wrists
i know it wont stop the pain
or make it go away
just white out the darkest hour 4 a while
mask the imperfections for a single second
and i dont want that, i want them gone.
i remember when i was little i used to pray every night.
release my demons
capture the nighttime worries
ive drifted of so far since then though
so far i dont think theyre is any returning
sometimes i wish i could go back to then
but then i remember i was only 6...maybe7
why
am
i
so
hated
???
i
really
don't
know

if anyone happens to know...plez keep me informed.
im confused and scared
i know no one reads this journal
and i must admit i really dont care
when i think about it mostly im just scared of myself
who im becoming
the direction in which im going
whats going to happen to me
why am i thinking so much
ME CONTRADICTING MYSELF
personality #1__vs__personality #2

#1)my life sux


#2) think of starving kids
in scandinavia and people
with aids in
africa...compared to them
your life is, like just lovely


#1)im groping for a
meaning in life


#2) GAH, michelle stop being so deep and philosophical


#1)#@!$ you mind


#2) stop cussing just cause you think it makes u normal (i.e.it doesnt)


#1)sorry


#2) stop being such a pity case


#1)cant help it


#2) there u go again


#1)arg,i hate me


#2) eww, u really need to stop
spewing your feelings,
and such all
over people...no one cares


#1)i know, but
sometimes i wish
they did
_______________________________
bye
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conor

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!!**BOO**!!
Ooh...happy halloween to all
i yousto love halloween , but now i hate it. so heres me, on the internet and everyone else is doing some thing halloweenish with friends, and im here. so yah ... fun huh. i never finished my costume, but whats the point, not like i have somewhere to go. i was going to like, rent movies or something, but i spent all my money on my unfinished costume, YAY.if i was still in michicgan i would be at my neighbors party and having fun with my friends...i mean my REAL friends (the one who actually like me , dont just use me when theyre mad at there other friends , and invite me to parties.
THANK YOU, I BELIEVE MY MESSSAGE IS OUT.
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conor

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You scored as Sybil. Congradulations! You are a mental patient! I hope you are a happy little mental patient. You look cute in that straight jacket. No, really!

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Sybil

67%

Sadie

58%

Lulu

58%

Inferno

53%

Bride of Valentine

53%

Posey

47%

Lottie

44%

Eggzorcist

36%

Deadbra Ann

36%

Lilth

31%

Lizzie Borden

31%

Sin

17%

Sheena

14%

Kitty

11%

Which Living Dead Doll would you be?
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OH MY GOD I SO AM NOT.
conor

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You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

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Unipolar Depression

100%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

83%

Borderline Personality Disorder

67%

Schizophrenia

58%

Eating Disorders

33%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

25%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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!!!FUN!!!
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