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I suck at this.

fuck it.
i give up on Lj

wow...so im amazingly bored at the moment.im working on editing my myspace.and dodging the dishes.pirates of the carabean dead mans chest is uber fantastico.missed all you other people there.me and kayla went and our hair smelled of strawberry sparkle pink temp hairdye from libby lu. we looked like mall gotth wannabe losers because of it but it was still fun. kayla flirted with a twenty year old guy with blonde hair who looked like kenneth gabbert...i laughed at her for it. i still have little halph mood marks in my hand from digging my nails into my hand during the movie.im going to michigan 2 weeks from today and i am very excited.i cannot wait at all.kayla is in trouble with her mom again i don't know why yet..but i think its baddddd. boarding school/first assembly bad. im scurred i would never live without her next year...i am already frightened as it is. i lost my schedule...i don't know what to do, ive looked everywhere. so im screwed. i really need to update on this more often. im so glad imm not in texas anymore...i also need a new icon. im bored of the ductape/conor one...hmmmm...what else do i have to say today...idk.i will post pictures from my texas trip soon. it wasn't that bad i guess...i really need to be more positive. i will also post alot of other random pictures and shit.im actually starting to miss school alot. idk just all the classes i had with all my friends...i miss it. and my friends who moved=,[[[. i wish i could go back...but then if i could go back id probubly want it to be over when i was back. well ill stop now cause i want to watch gilmore girls season 3 dvds. im on the jess episodes right now.i also have to babysit and od the dishes=[[[. no fun but i must

lates

--michElle
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Wow,I really haven't updated in a long time. I need to, but I am very boring, and therefore have nothing to say. It's very hot in our house. We have all the windows open, but its still hot. We got a new computer, it was like...600dollars or something. My dad has been trying to set it up for the past hour and a half. Pssssh, and he claims to be a computer engineer. He's yelling at everyone because he is frustrated.
I hope alot of people don't read this and criticize me on my grammar and such tomorrow *ahem*. I need to do something this weekend. I'm not sure what or who with. Oh s***, I just looked up at that clock thing above the top right corner of this text box and realized I missed Gilmore Girls. I hate asking people if they like someone for a certain friend. I had to ask Jordan Lada.....(I don't know how to spell that at all) and I got pockets to ask Sam (Smithson) for me the other day cause I didn't feel like doing it. BOTH said no. Love Kayla and all, but she needs to do it herself.I was really really happy most of the day. I tryed not to show it 'cause when I do people redundantly say I look like I'm high. I feel bad for hating some of the people that I hate. When I talk to them I realize they're not as bad as I thought. EXCEPT AARON!!!she doesn't count.I seriosly have vowed to be nice to BJ, cause I think he might shoot me when he starts a school shooting, and that would be bad.
I'm bored, and tired now so yah
I'm watching Jackson Rathbone on Beautiful Peole tonight, that makes me happy.
I'm going to the courtyard from now on, it is better there.
♥♥♥,
Michelle
i did spell check, but got bored, f*** it.

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-:-About You-:-
Your full name:	michelle edwards
Age:	---guess----
Birthday:	feb 10
Sign:	aquarius
piercings:	just ears
tattoos:	none
height:	5'5" (just guessing)
eye color:	blue and green (change from time to time)
hair color:	auburn,gold,blond,redish
-:-Favorites-:-
color:	rainbow
movie:	heathers
book:	the perks of being a wallflower
drink:	jones soda (go canada)
food:	mashed potatos (ahhh...comfort food)
place:	my aunts cabin near Lake MI
animal:	penguin
song:	a perfect sonnet
band:	tegan and sara
tv show:	degrassi
cereal:	lucky charms
flower:	rose
scent:	idk...the scent I like is more the scent of someone
-:-Do You-:-
Play any sports?:	no...i am athleticly challenged
Play an instrument?:	naw...no talent
Have a cell phone?:	yesum
Have a job?:	no
Like school?:	no
Like to sing?:	I can't sing
-:-More questions-:-
can you speak any other languages?:	naw
can you roll your tongue?:	yes
can you eat a whole pizza?:	tried once...failed
have you ever cried over a boy/girl?:	no
have you ever snuck out of the house?:	...maybe
have you ever been arrested?:	no
have you been in a fist fight?:	no but i have been in a whipcream fight
have you ever laughed so hard milk came out of your nose?:	no but one time with Dr.Pepper...ouch
have you ever broken a bone?:	yes...4 actually
have you ever had surgery?:	yes...nothing huge though, just when I broke my arm
have you ever bitten someone?:	..........pass
have you ever laughed so hard you cried?:	yes...like everyday
have you ever been to a concert?:	no
-:-Pick One-:-
chinese food/mexican food:	both
rock/rap:	rock...homie fizzle
drpepper/sprite:	drpepper
boy/girl:	boy
snow/rain:	rain
hot/cold:	cold
paint/charcoal:	paint/charcoal
book/magazine:	book
tv/movie:	movie
skateboard/surf:	skateboard
punk rock/hard rock:	punk
old school/new age:	old skool
summer/winter:	winter
chocolate/vanilla:	chocolate
cake/icing:	both
muffins/brownies:	depends...what kind of muffins are they
bagels/english muffins:	bagels (enland is great, but they make nasty muffins)
hugs/kisses:	hugs and kisses
ocean/pool:	pool
camping/beach:	camping
french toast/french fries:	french fries
skiing/snowboarding:	snowboarding
emo/goth:	emo
khaki/jeans:	jeans
long sleeve/short sleeve:	long
hoodie/sweater:	hoodie
sneakers/sandals:	both
sex/masterbating:	uhm...ok, sex i guess
cats/dogs:	dogs
blue/green:	both
spring break/winter break:	winter break (HELLO?... X-MAS)
autumn/sping:	autumn
middle school/ high school:	high school
redsox/yankeez:	redsox
Sunrise or Sunset? :	sunset
Intelligence or Humor? :	humor
Funny & Plain or Exciting & Superficial? :	funny and plain
Going to bed late or Sleeping in late? :	both
Eggs:: Runny or Scrambled? :	I hate eggs
Comfortable or Sexy? :	both
Potato chips or Corn chips? :	.....?
Loving or Being IN love? :	in love
coke/pepsi	pepsi
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I'm bored.....that is why i am updating again.I really am curious to find out why people always end up hating me. If you hate me please tell me why.Am I just mean, Annoying, bitter? Ok I know I said I wasnt going to say any thing about bff thing but my mind has changed. If you dont already know on Wednesday I got a call from his sister. She was crying. She said he tryed to kill himself and was on life support (he is not any more). Here is a list of some of the thoughts that were running through my head
1.oh my god
2.holy sh#%!
3.how did he do it?
4.What if he ends up like my cousin(brain dead)
5.what if he is a vegetable all his life
6.Why did he do it
7.what was he thinking when he did it
8.was he thinking when he did it
9.did he regret it after he did it
10.don't cry don't cry don't cry!
11.what are his parents thinking right now
12.don't cry it will make his sister cry again
13.I hate this song(sterio was on...I actually loved that song)
14.when did he do it
15.what if he dies?
16.could I live without him?
and later
17.why didnt they just pump his stomach
18.thats so unfair that works most of the time
19.is this really happening?
20.ok I can cry now
Come to find out he took someting(unknown)slit his wrist(alot of blood loss)
his parents found him when they went to wake him up for school(which means he probubly did it in the middle of the night)he was unconcious when they found him(I cant even imagine what they felt)they pumped his stomach it helped but it didnt fix the damage that was already done(Some of it had already gotten into his blood stream)the doctors said that they will do all they can(but they had no clue on what the outcome would be)this would be a great time to be religious(maybe if I pray a miricle will happen)Actually it wouldn't cause if I was and he died then the Bible sais he would go to hell(I don't know what to believe anymore)I wish I could have been there even though it probubly wouldn't help anyting(but at least If he died id get to see him one last time...wow I am so selfish)
I really should be thinking about happy things to keep my mind occupied
he is off life support but in a coma
I need to stop now cause Im getting myself all worked up...again

I haven't updated in a long time. Other then the whole comatose bestfriend thing nothing new has really happened. I don't want to write about the bff in a coma right now, I really want to avoid the subject. So I guess I have nothing to write.
bye