What is it like, to live in New York?
I am so unprepared for my classes this week. I am putzing around as usual. I just want to be a happy homemaker, and fucking knit, and take photos.
I've been jobhunting all day, since 7:30 am, and my head is going to EXPLOOOOOODEEEEE. Good news: people like me. Bad news: that doesn't mean they want to hire me!
Okay, that's literally thirteen hours of job searching/picking up apps and writing my resume, which I am still not happy with. Also, craigslist is sucking lately. I just want a decent job. Rrra. I'm done til tomorrow…
Ya, it calls for a new one, babes.
makes-me-happy two-thousand six:
˙nice kitchens with nice appliances and nicely painted walls
˙a nice big sweet potato
˙lush (not even a guilty pleasure anymore well maybe a little)
˙being able to return calls!
˙being sixteen stories in the air looking down at san francisco, because san francisco makes me feel so small all the time, geez
˙vanillaalmondblack tea, calming teas, gingerpeachblack tea
˙the movie Shower
˙friends (I need more, see makes-me-pissed-at-myself #5)
˙the idea of living comfortably and happy, and with someone I love and that loves me
˙feelings of accomplishment (which don't come often these days)
makes me pissed at myself:
˙nervousness over returning calls wtf!
˙is baking really so cool that i want to go to school for it
˙i am terrible at keeping in touch with people
˙how SERIOUSLY easily annoyed I am
˙I should drink less caffeine but I am a slut
˙_______ for no reason
˙not being able to say what I really want to say
˙not doing what I really know is right. I know I should. Fuck.
Makes Me Happy
getting back into bed right after a shower
getting really good negs back
going to band practice (dude i should totally pick up clarinet again!!!)
christmas shopping for you ( i usually walk around making a hmmmmm face )
scharffen berger chocolate lip balm
am I really going to Disneyland?
oh good books and neat mags!
sending out snail mails
edited to add: marin county honey with the comb in the jar (chronic shit, I currently own four kinds of honey)
My Guilty Pleasures & Weaknesses
two things I can't name
christmas shopping for me
tazo's calm tea (yuck tazo but OH GOD with honey it's deadly)
twelve baths a day (not an accurate #, but i'll get back to you with those figures ASAP)
yep that's it
Shit I Hate
arguing/politics/political arguments that go in circles.
really loud people (is it necessary?)
the fact that I make a poor argument even when I believe in something.
figuring out life
what the fuck am i doing with myself feelings
I am incredibly interesting. I may be complex emotionally, but I am a pretty simple fucking person otherwise!
when did i become obsessed with chocolate? I used to hate it.