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I'm feeling uneasy.Should i just take a deep and relax?I cant feel myself without her being with me.im so pathetic
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Fraudulent
Miracles, Make Miracles Seashells
Rice Paper Princess (Guess too poor)
In the mist above perfection
Rain On The Parade
Me that's crowding daylight
And never the two shall meet
Said the tiger to its greatest fan
The amount of love you wish to give is more than i can stand
and now you leave me in defeat
leave me battered, broken man
The amount of love you wish to give is more than i can stand
Now I have you where I want you
I know that you are listening
This is my chance to tell you everything
my chance to tell you I love you
but I've waited too long
Now the record's over
Now the record's over -G
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I went to tiffanys today.I am so confused on what she wants with me.she is sending me mixed signals.There is still the awkward silence we both share,and out of no-where she just started to cry.I cant explain how much i love her.I dont think she will ever see that,i cant blame her after all the shit i've put her through.I just want to marry her,and raise a family with her.I know im young and you may think that foolish,but its what i want..We both shared that dream a long time ago..but i fear i share it to myself now .


Please..I need some guidance

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i feel so dead.I went to pick my sister up from work tonight and i felt like crying.I dont know what to do,this thing with me and tiffany is killing me.I cant understand why i still feel so..attached.I cant let go..i dont want to let go.What a sad sappy sucker i am :[

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Why cant i ever wake up for school on time.My dad woke me up today with a yell"Turn that fucking alarm clock off".So here i am squeaky clean and out of the shower.I have to go to school in a bit,then to work all fucking day..Im so tired i cant stay awake in any of my classes..damn this fucking computer,i wish i would never have the urge to get on it..Oh wel things are getting better.I dont talk to that many people anymore,so its cool.

P.S (Have fun at homecoming tiffany)
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You were.

I've had the worst week ever:
1)I wake up late for school.I get sent to I.S.C but first i had to shave.They gave me a razor that couldnt even cut air,and enough shaving cream to trim my eyebrows with.
2)I get to work,run out of cigarettes and I get my friend to buy me a pack.She gets caught and i get in trouble.My boss makes me give my cigarettes back and i get fucked a pack of smokes and 5$(I was expecting my change)
3)I get introuble for using the phone at work,when i only call one person..Tiffany,She isnt feeling good,so i guess im making it worse.
4)The worst part is tiffany cant make up her mind on what she wants with me..I dont want to be some rebound.I want to know the truth about everything..

Sometimes i think life is overrated.I'd give it all up to be happy..i really would
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If going out to a partie once a year,having fun,coming home and calling the girl of my dreams is bad..then im sorry for the let down.I didnt know ocassionaly drinking turns me into an alcholic deadbead


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