its been a month since Doug passed away. Still... it hasn't hit me. I don't know maybe because there is so much going on I don't have time to sit and think about it, but whenever I hear "I'll follow you into the dark" by deathcab for cutie I still get that ball in my throat and ball my eyes out. I played it for my mom the other day and she started crying which isn't what I wanted..but she loved it.
Sean turned 6 months yesterday. we had a little party. I don't care, hes my son and I wanted to throw him 1/2 a birthday. It was alot of fun. He is growing up too fast. i like it, but I miss him being a little baby. Now hes getting so big, and being so interactive. He is in love with the backyardigans on Nick Jr. Its cute, and probably the only show I will let him watch unless we are watching a show on TV.
Hmm whatelse... school is going ok. Clinicals start in a couple weeks, so I am excited. Hopefully I will get into it more. Our apartment is coming along very nicely. Our living room is all done and so is the bedroom and bathroom, and Seans room. I just need to do the floors to the kitchen, which isn't too hard and I am really all set. Get a few more pictures here and there but little by litte I guess.
I am REALLY in need of a vaction. I know we are gonna be up to NH for a few days. I think we might go camping with some of Freds friends, but Ehhh i don't know, I am not a camper kind of girl. I dont do well with that kind of surroundings. I like A/C and Sex and the City reruns and nice showers. I don't know... haha
I really want to go to Cape Cod, even for like 4 days. Just a long weekend. Someone whisper that to Fred for me. He isn't picking up on all the hints I am dropping.
im really into white wine lately...
so now let me pour myself another glass while waiting for fred to get home...
maybe i'll get lucky.... hahahaha
or not at all...
entourage wasnt good tonight.
what a bust.
"heart shaped glasses"
doug is gone and we are left wondering why.
im going to miss you so much.
stepfather is a term that is used loosely... you were my provider and friend.
im so angry right now.
i don't want to take it out on God and say I don't believe in him...
but shit just shouldn't happen to people like him.
I want to hit someone so bad so they can feel 1/2 the pain I am feeling right now.
i got a 98 on my test tonite.
also, fred got me the sidekick tonite. the new sidekick ID came out tontie and I was going to order that but it has a slower browser and no camera/video, but it is a hundred dollars cheaper...I ordered the regular one. I felt the 100 was worth the faster browser and having a camera... we will see. Hopefully it isnt a bad decision.
what a fucking good outcome.
i don't know about you, but I'm pretty bummed.
i have about 6 of his books, and he is one of my favorite authors.
what a bust.
and theres a blackout on espn2 for the redsox game.