i loooove my ipod.
and i love that it actually makes me want to go to te gym.
we'll see how long that lasts however.
ps. i put pictuers of new years up on myspace. me and corin got drunkish (not totally drunk) off of $7 champagne, and fred and dan did irish car bombs. Actually, I am pretty sure I drank alot of vanilla vodka too. And i might have been the only one ? Ah well.
pps. sidekicks fucking suck. I have had 4 in the past 7 months. Another one is broke. It just won't charge, AFTER they gave me a brand new battery for free @ the mall. So its a bust.
AND AND AND. download the song im listening to, im addicted. so much better than the orignal by New Order. ♥
if you didnt hang out with corin on her birthday... you were a fool.
is it january 3rd yet??
i did it again...
and i keep doing that other thing again.
i hate keeping secrets with myself.
Brian Setzers Christmas show was easily the best thing Ive ever seen in my life...well besides Sean being born and all that. I had an amazing time. Plus my outfit was kind of sexy- even if I did resemble a fat bumblebee! haha.
Also if you arent on my myspace can i pleaseeee have your address I am sending out Christmas cards out soon and would love to send out all the ones i bought. plus i think its a good way to stay in touch with people.
if you dont want to list it here send it to email@example.com
ah back to work i go.
having a 1 year old makes me be excited about christmas in a different way that usual.
i love it. his brithday on the other hand is hectic. and i should of just bought cake. and threw it on the table. but thats not my style.
i really need to just grow the fuck up.
or just find a balance from being responsible and still having fun.
I think Ive done a good job in the past few months taking out all the negative in my life and trying to have only good people and good things around me and my family. I look back at my entries and I am all about "poor me" but I think.. things can be so much worse.
Christmas is soon and I am estatic, just for bringing Sean to see Santa and making cookies, and little things like that. I know I have family like my grandmothers and parents and aunts and uncles- but its weird... now me and fred are starting our own family with our friends who have kids and i feel kind of like a grown up. i like it. haha .
Fred and my brother are dressing up as Pablo and Tyrone for Seans birthday. They are characters from The Backyardigans. I know if my marypie and my other girls from Boston where able to make it down for his bday they would all dress up for him. Because you guys are awesome like that .
Other than that, things aren't really exciting.... work,sean,work.. school start backs up in September- fred wants me to stop working so I can go to school full time. I don't know we will see- thats a huge paycut.. but nursing school takes alot of time. I don't know its a while away.
Oh and for all who care I have offically lost 70lbs. I want to lose likeeeee 50-60 more and I would be happy. Yeah yeah i know thats too much, bite me bitches I want to be a milf :) haha .
I have too many bills
and not enough money.
who would of thought this is how I would be at 22..
in a job, I never expected to be in.
In a town I always hated
with a baby, I adore and love more than life itself.. but still not part of my plans.
Sometimes I wish I was still living in Massachusetts with a carefree life doing photography.
Whatever, my livejournal is pointless.
Back to watching the Backyardigans with my babypuffin <3
funny how things change...
its autumn (despite the 86 degree weather...) pumpkin patches and hayrides with the boy!!
im so excited about doing all this with Sean, its going to be awesome. my son is seriously the best thing that has ever happened to me. He is the only thing that puts me in a good mood, even when he is screaming his head off, to me- it shows how strong his lungs are, that that he is being a fusspot.
im going to be going to school 4x a week now, its going to be really rough... i mean realllllllllllly hard.
work till 5, then school till 10pm. atleast I have Fridays off from school and Saturdays are my days off from everything to be with Sean, so it works out. I wish I was done with all this and in my career. I still regret everything that I did by being impulsive and rushing into things and I have ruined alot of options by being hard headed. ah well, you live and learn..
excuse me while i break up the two fuckfaces simon and capote. i head simon screaming for help, Capote is the quite cat that you gotta watch out for, silly black pussy.
Ive been so busy, I dont even know where to start.
Me and Freddie are doing pretty well with this whole platonic living for now.
It isn't that I moved on to another person, its more of a "I want to be alone and worry about me and Sean for now", I told him that I was talking to someone, but it is more of a friendship... I dont want a relationship right now. I was just in a very long and complex one for three years...
I just hope things stay how they are, and we can still live together without it becoming weird. I know if he was to move away and live back in New Hampshire, I don't know what I would do. I would go nuts without seeing Sean, or him for that matter. But in a way I would see why he would want to (he says he doesnt, but if it were me , I would move back in 2 minutes). His friends and family are up there, and if that is what will make him happy, then I would tell him to go... Things could be worse. I love and respect him so much, but romantically it isn't there anymore. I should be more depressed and hurt. Two months ago I was engaged and planning a wedding, but I don't think its fair to go through with that and not be 100% happy, it wouldn't me fair to me, him and especially Sean. Hey, if people can have two mommies, or two daddies, or live with their grandparents, and other situations that aren't conventional.. then this is fine too I think.
School has been kicking my ass. So is working at the hospital, on top of my other job. I might go to the New Hampshire Tattoo Convention in Manchester next weekend.. .(CARLTON.......... HINT HINT SWEET TITS, come say hi. )
Sean still isn't crawling. He moves and goes nuts and I think he THINKS he is moving and going somewhere, but... no go. His new thing is, if you have a toy or something to get him to crawl and its on a blanket, he pulls the blanket towards him to get whatever is on there.. smartass.