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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
22 December 2017 @ 03:57 pm
This is a copy paste from my tumblr http://empressarcana.tumblr.com

Originally posted on the 19th of December.

Please friends if you need to talk to someone about Jonghyun’s passing I’m here. If you need to talk about anything, I’m here. I needed yesterday to kinda calm down because it really hit me hard. I love SHINee and I love how those boys have been my companions through my own depression. Their music always put a smile on my face, their interviews always made me laugh, and watching how close and wonderful they are to each other, to family, to friends, to fans, always made me so happy.

A part of me is still in denial because I always hoped that one day I would be able to see them live. I still can’t believe that Jonghyun isn’t with us anymore. I remember when my mom was alive I would show her all of SHINee’s music and we would dance together like nerds. She loved Jonghyun the most. It was something I shared with Mom. There have been so many wonderful people that have been lost due to depression.

So please friends and internet fam reach out don’t stay quiet, don’t keep those feelings bottled up inside. You are all loved and you are all beautiful human beings that are deserving of love.

Even if I don’t know you, send me a message. I will not turn you away. I will do my best to listen, even if it’s just to listen, even if I have nothing to say, I will say the same thing as now. Thank you for existing. Thank you for sharing your light with the world. Thank you for being you.

The same goes to you, Jonghyun. Thank you for having shared with us so many beautiful moments and helping so many to smile again. Thank you for doing so much for others. Thank you for shining so bright here on earth. I love you, we all love you, and you have done great. You will be greatly missed here on earth but I am certain that up in the heavens you will shine just as bright and share that light once again. I hope that you can meet my mom up there and you can show her some dance moves. She would love that.

Thank you for being revolutionary.


I truly want to be more involved and help in any way I can. In honor of Jonghyun's life, I want to finish a project I started so long ago and publish it as well.
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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
16 August 2017 @ 02:58 pm

My dad passed away a couple of weeks ago. A lot has been going on in my life. At first, I won't lie, I felt myself falling through a downward spiral. I didn't see myself coming out of it. Little by little though, I'll make my way out. Little by little, I'll find myself again.

I miss you dad.

I miss you mom.

I miss you both.

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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
07 February 2015 @ 04:26 am
I miss you mom, I miss you so much. Ten years. God gave me ten years more with you after you were diagnosed. I watched your health plummet year after year, yet you still kept a smile on your face. It has been almost two months now. I miss you so much. I would write on this blog all the time about you going to the hospital, how you were doing, chronicling everything, even on my tumblr too. It makes me feel sick to my stomach but with time...with time, I'll make it through.

You were my world, mom.
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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
04 October 2014 @ 05:08 pm
My goodness, livejournal has changed so much. I really have catching up to do. For now though, I need to get back to writing. I have gone back to writing my novel and will do my very best to finish it before the end of the year. Please wish me luck, friends!
うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
12 November 2013 @ 01:13 pm
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This is a bit late... but this was me on Halloween. I was originally going to be Fluttershy but I used my light pink wig last year. I decided to be Pinkie Pie because her smiles are infectious. I wanted some more cheer in my life! The kids at work LOVED IT!

More pictures here! http://empressarcana.tumblr.com/post/66194989570/headstrongpredator-happy-halloween-everyone
Current Location: at work
うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
26 April 2013 @ 03:29 pm
So after spending most of this week with mom at her different appointments, she was diagnosed with something else... It is called Jo1 and it has relations to Polymyositis. Because the Prednisone is killing her slowly, the Rheumatologist is trying to lower the dosage by putting her on Methotrexate injections and back to the IVIG. The first time she had the IVIG infusion two days later she was hospitalized. Right now, I'm at a loss because there aren't any other alternatives. I understand, everything has side effects but I just want the best for mom. I don't know what's going to happen next. I'm no doctor but I have my notes and recordings to be prepared if I need to discuss with a medical professional. Her Cardiologist agreed on her continuing the IVIG infusions, seeing as Prednisone has an excessive amount of side effects. She has been drinking a dose of 20 MG a day for the passed 8 years. She has gotten so many other things because of it... I won't be around much for awhile. I have too much on my mind and I feel so alone. I will stay strong though, if only for mom. Take care everyone, those who know my number know how to reach me best. I'll answer when I can.

I'll update the longer detailed version later... but this is the gist of it. I'll be around, just not Facebook so much. There is something about reality that just icks me. I feel as if I never win... Either way, more updates in the future.
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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
12 April 2013 @ 11:49 am
In the passed couple of months I've really gotten into makeup, more so than before. To be more specific, eyeshadows and uniliners. I have known about http://www.limecrimemakeup.com for some time but I had never purchased from there. First of all, now is when I'm getting a somewhat decent paycheck and have a full time schedule... meaning I have a couple of bucks to spare. Let's face it, Lime Crime isn't cheap but their makeup quality is amazing as well as 100% vegan. :)

I'm not vegan but I really feel a bit more comfortable when the makeup I wear isn't tested on animals. It's a plus for me. Either way, I took some pictures and made mini collages on Instagram of some styles I tried. I'll leave them under the cut, if anyone is interested to check it out.

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Okay, I'll stop gushing about makeup and face spamming now. :D If you guys are interested totally check out limecrimemakeup.com :)

Later beauties!
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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
10 April 2013 @ 12:34 pm
If you still read this journal, I really appreciate it. I'm not gone! I know I take forever to update but I always come back to LJ. This journal is my baby, I have a lot of good and even not so good memories here. Regardless, these memories are important to me. Besides, I just paid for another year of LJ paid account services with a buttload of icons.

You see, I would like to get back into graphic designing. At work, I'm kinda like a jack of all trades for them. I'm working on the school's website. There are two (one is for Pre-K and the other is the tutoring facility for five and up). I'm also FINALLY going to update my website with a really nice premade layout I found. It is a very simple layout and very customizable, just how I want it. I promise to update you guys once I get the project started.

I'm also going to try to actually update empressdesigns because graphic designing is relaxing and making icons has always been so much fun! I have forgotten to breathe and relax. I had a car accident a couple of weeks ago(I'm okay!), I got really sick, and then my mom was taken to the hospital. She had a small stroke. They have been trying times but I know I will come out of it all stronger than before. I'm actually on a more positive note now because it has been SUPER difficult. Trying to shake off negativity has never been fun.

More updates soon my beautiful friends, thank you for always being here. Even if you're far away your encouraging words always mean the world to me. Thank you for being AMAZING.

Now back to work... >.>;

If you'd like to get in contact with me here are the places I reside (once my website is up and running I'll have all my social networking places organized)

Twitter: empressarcana Tumblr: empressarcana Pintrest: empressarcana Facebook: empressarcana Skype: empressarcana lol see a pattern? I'm empressarcana everywhere. If any of my friends have whatsapp and would liken to chat through there, lemme now and I'll PM you my phone number. I just want to keep in touch. Love you guys!
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うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
27 December 2012 @ 07:01 am
I miss everyone! I hope all had a wonderful Christmas... I feel so bad how I've neglected my LJ... I've made so many wonderful friends on here. Thank heavens for each and every one of you!


A little belated but Merry Christmas and here is to a wonderful year to come!

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Nothing exciting happened but I did get myself new makeup and a new purse. I needed one for work, even if its pretty pink and matches with nothing but pink! I dun currrr I love pink. :D

Btw, for those into ask blogs~ I created one over on tumblr. I play as Ryouji Mochizuki from Persona 3 and I read Tarot in response to the questions submitted. Please do check it out. :D http://deatharcanafortunes.tumblr.com/

I also have added some covers over at my YouTube channel if you guys are interested! I'll link you to my latest, which is a Christmas song. (A little late for better late than never!)

I record with my phone so its not the best quality and my mixing skills are lower than mediocre. Please do have a listen though. <3 >.>; *sweatdrop*

I guess that's it for now~ Love you guys please take care!
P.S Mom got a new puppy. The kids I take care of at work made me some drawings AND I made cookies for coworkers~ Pictures under cut!!


(first public entry in a long time, oooohhhh)
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Current Music: my mom watching spanish soaps on tv
うさぎ *☾* The Moonlight is the Message of Love
30 November 2010 @ 02:53 pm
I have good and bad news.... the bad news is mostly about home life and the like but... good news is I COMPLETED NANOWRIMO! NaNoWriMo frustrations featuring Kim HeeChul and Kim Kibum :D... and others?.

This was me as I reached my 50k word count;

Then, this was me as I realized that Microsoft tricked me out of 100 words, and I needed to write more to make it to the official 50k.

FINALLY upon reaching 50k for realz;

I then rejoice and invite Super Junior over to my home, so they can do their pelvic thrust dance FOR ALL ETERNITY MUAHAHAHA!


and I go into cardiac arrest...

I have yet to finish my novel though. I'm 8chapters in, and have over 50k words which is not bad. Once I have more time, which from the looks of it I might have tons... because family is going through tough times right now. (more in another post, this will be my happy post)
The first novel in the series is; Vivica Lee the Arcana Chronicles: Fool's Journey. website here; http://www.arcanachronicles.com I will make it a blog site, so everyone interested can be updated.
I'm quite sleep deprived,

and probably make no sense... but those interested follow me @ my official twitter empressarcana. It will be linked to my blog, whenever I set it up.

I'll update again soon! Thanks for all your support!
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Current Music: Suju - Disco Drive