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Is it weird that i want this to be my wedding song? Either way i can't stop listening to it.

The Mountain Goats- No Children


I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a fail-safe plot
to piss of the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late
and I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
and I never come back to this town again
in my life
I hope I lie
and tell everyone you were a good wife
and I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tommorow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
I hope you blink before I do
and I hope I never get sober
and I hope when you think of me years down the line
you can't find one good thing to say
and I hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning
there is no sign of land
your are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
and I hope you die
I hope we both die

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Scared the living crap out of my snake when i got out of bed this morning. He jerked and tumbled headfirst into his water dish, and as hard as it may be to bring up a mental image of a snake tumbling from pretty much ground level, please try because it's hilarious.

Now he's on his log, looking at me with his i'm-plotting-your-death eyes, which will change into his good-god-digestion-is-hard eyes after i feed him later today.

Also, the bags of frozen mice at Petco are labeled "Gourmet Rodent". I'm not sure if Nico is a gourmet kind of snake... can you show me where the fast-food rodents are?

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It's a new year. The first day of it.

Resolutions? I guess:
Quit smoking (really, the timing just worked out that way. I'm not on some fucking path to a new healthier me in the new year, i just pretty much have officially run out of excuses not to).
Become less obsessed with time (it's been interfering lately)
Go to the Appalachian mountains and drink bathtub moonshine with creepy mountain people. Plus if i get to drink it out of a bottle with XXX on the side. Minus if things take a deliverance-esque turn.

And that's that.

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My friend Simone is coming up from Monterey to stay in my living room until she finds a place here in the city. And considering i have a one bedroom apartment, and the living room is a wall and door away from my bedroom, i suppose it's time to learn the art of silent sex. Which i think is a pretty good skill to have under my belt.

But i am very excited to have her, and that she's moving to the city. I think she'll fit nicely into my friend circle. And she has a boyfriend, so i wont have to worry about any (rather all) of my ridiculously horny male friends (who actually make up most of my friend circle) sleeping with her. Oh they'll try, make no mistake about that, but they will be laughed at and will not succeed. So happily i will not have to worry about yet ANOTHER shitstorm rising from so-and-so fucking so-and-so and now so-and-so and so-and-so and can't be in the same room so we all have to make sure we don't invite the wrong person to this party or that party while also making sure so-and-so doesn't find out that we invited so-and-so and not them and gets all pissy at the rest of us. This has happened far too many times in the past year. God, the SF native scene is SO incestual. You can't fuck anyone without essentially fucking two or three of your other friends. Not fun times.

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History final on Wednesday, glad that's over with. Preview night was tonight, and it went quite well. Math final tomorrow at 2pm then opening night at 8pm. Show on Saturday at 8pm, show on Sunday at 2pm. My stage makeup is still on and i am so far beyond happy to be acting again.

(Kip if you don't come to my show i will kill you. I'm not fucking around, either. I left you a message and everything.)

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Again with the feeling pretty. In a highly edited context. Also, with my amazing new mascara. Everyone buy Loreal beauty tubes mascara, you will not be disappointed.