i love getting tiffanys for christmas ;D
i bought the james blunt cd finally, like ive been meaning to do. kindve sucks that he only has 10 songs on the cd, but whatever. i love the cd, nonetheless.
i work pretty much everyday except for today which sucks :/ i hope tomorrow i get out early. people need lives, stay at home & eat every now and then.. itll save you a few years of living.
"You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you."
here is my nerdy little story of how amazingly nerdy i truly am.
i had my eye appointment today, and i was driving there.. i ended up getting a little lost, and needed to turn around to back track. i turn left on a red light, hoping it would stay yellow just a second longer [naturally, it didnt]. well, i pull into this driveway to turn around, but heard a car behind me so i waited until it passed. it didnt. im thinking "shit this person probably lives at this house". they dont! look in my rearview mirror, its my favorite.. a COP! i back out, and he tells me to stop with his hand. im thinking.. shit, shit, shit. my first ticket ever, damnit.. im stupid! i roll down my window, and the cop says "hunny are you lost?". needless to say i get off, and he gives me directions. nicest cop ever! ♥
when i get to my eye appointment, i start taking my eye test.. and i realize "holy shit, i cant see anything out of this right eye, im going blind". the eye doctor starts reading my contacts, and cant figure out what the prescription says. he brings in the other doctor, and she says .. "she has both left eye contacts in". needless to say my prescriptions in both eyes are polar opposite. im a dumbass, and ive been wearing it for well over a month. niiice. :D
the truth is....
im not wearing ANY underwear.
yeah, im pretty awesome. however, now im going to put some on because im going to my doctors, talk about weird :/ lol! ♥
you guys love my gay ass :D
todays marios 23rd birthday! im cooking him dinner & making him a cake tomorrow. ♥
ive basically been sick in bed all week which sucks because im def. in need for some christmas cheer, but right now im being a big time scrooge. my hair is a fro due to the lovely effects of air drying. i just want to sleep forever.. my bestfriends include: hot chocolate, new dvds, books, and my notebook for drawing. i really need some soup, a boyfriend, & some big comfy slippers.
I am very misconstrued as of now. So much has been going on in my life, and I'm fighting for a chance to just live my life for ME. People try so hard to run my life, force their negativity down my throat, and despite everything I try my hardest to stay controlled. I fought my whole life to pretend like I had this "normal" family that I knew didn't exist, I fought to cover-up what I was so embarrassed to see. Guranteed, we all have our set backs. Sometimes you just want a chance to scream at the world, and say something along with .. "these are the lies I can't even write in my journal, I can't even say them outloud as a whisper" yet I tuck it in. You want someone there to count on you, believe in you, never destroy you. Whatever. I'm trying to rack through all my decisions/my oppurtunties, the promises that were made, the promises that were broken. I sit up in bed, it's all just a nightmare.. and yet I can't pull myself away from the fact that I knew those promises were broken as soon they were said.
PS; I'm done TRYING.
tonight i went to go see harry potter, the 4th one because its my secret nerd fetish. it wasnt the same because its always been the "jamie/jenny aka tb/eb thing" and it actually made me think of old times about how you had NO interest in watching harry potter with me, but you did.. and you liked it/loved it. if you read this; i kindve miss talking to you, it would be nice to actually have that friendship weve always tried to establish. let me know how life is, i miss you.
onto better news, im done with my "old" job [finally]. after all the stupid bullshit thats been happening there. it pisses me off that someone can be a manager of a company who sexually harrasses employees/customers, steals money from the register/takes waitresses credit card tips, has his brother clock him in when hes not on the clock (with much needed proof).. upon many other things. i dont know what pisses me off more the fact that i kindve "gave" up in a sense on fighting him, or the fact that everyone agreed with me.. and were just as pissed as me, but didnt try to do anything about it. im sorry to say, but girls are still as weak as they try to claim not to be. if you want to see a women president learn to stand up for your fucking selves. its an embarrassment.
you know what really bothers me right now? people who cant stand up for themselves, and people who are so easily pushed over.. and end up ass kissers because they think its the safe route.
im eating my favorite, rice pudding from nationals. :) yummy!
ive come to realize (with the help of others) im NOT the best person to piss off.