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emily christine.

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[08 Nov 2005|09:07pm]
i have a new livejournal.. sunrizegoodbyes
add me there<3

[26 Oct 2005|10:20pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i have never gone through anything more difficult in my life than this. everyone is being so rude and inconsiderate. im so fucking sick as it is no one can show any compasion or care. my family is being so rude and so are people from school and i havent even been back there and even my teachers. im sorry i have mono. its not like i asked for it. im just trying to keep up with my grades as much as possible. this is so difficult and i feel so alone right now.

1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[25 Oct 2005|01:19pm]
i havent written in such a long time. i've been so busy with cheerleading and school and work and trying to hang out with friends. the last part never happens though.

school was going good. i have above a 94 in all of my classes, which was good enough for me anyway.

cheerleading was going really well. i made competition squad. i was lifting and getting better at basing. i almost had my back hand spring and my running back hand spring.

work, not so much. i hate it there. i never get scheduled and when i do, i call off.

but i recently got sick and found out i have mono and an enlarged spleen. thats it so far. i went for blood tests today to see if its anything more severe. im so sick. my throat is practically closed and gets smaller every day. i havent ate since friday. my nose is yucky. im exhausted.

i feel so lonely right now. my family wont touch me or come like 2ft near me because they're afraid of getting mono. they yell at me to lie down and rest and to get better, but then they make me do chores still. i am physically and mentally not able to do this. i cry myself to sleep everynight. its so much stress with trying to get all of my homework and school work. and because it is the end of the quarter, all of my teachers decided to throw in a last minute project due before nov 1 (the end of the quarter). if i dont complete it, i get an incomplete. i have never gotten an incomplete.

and with cheerleading.. ive worked so hard. ive lifted all summer and im finally getting a lot of respect and people are realizing my hard work. i was also becoming a better base and made competition squad and was in a four-person for competition. but now i cant cheer for a month. which means i cant cheer for the last 2 football games of the year, the two biggest ones, mind you. and i cant compete. thats the most upsetting part because i have worked so hard and was finally getting good things and to be told i cant do what i love. ive let my team and myself down.

all of this is so much to handle at one time. the worst part of it all is that i was finally starting to accept myself and become happier and more confident. now i just feel like shit and i dont want to do anything.

i need a friend< 3
1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[24 Sep 2005|12:19am]
the game today was so awesome.
we won 17-14.
i made competition squad!!
i was so excited.

tomorrow, mall with lauren- possibly?
sunday, work
& kimmys sleeping over!!! :D
monday kimmy is shadowing me!! yey!

[20 Sep 2005|09:07pm]
today was a really good ay.
everything went really well.

in school the classes were good,
cheerleading was amazing.
our stunt groups got changed.
i love mine<3
did some more planning when i got home
and studied for bio.

today was one of the best days
i have had in a loong time<3 =D
1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[20 Sep 2005|06:26am]
its unbelivable how
busy ive been
and then how bored
i was yesterday.
its hilarious
because when i dont
have cheerleading,
i dont know what to
do with myself.
so.. me and kimmy
went to the dallas/bor
volleyball game. we met up
with warren and mike r & jeff.
mike & kimmy like eachother?
whaaat? how much fun.
so kimmy may be shadowing me
next monday. she doesnt have
school and its a perfect opportunity.
i really hope she does. this
would be the first time weve
gone to school together since
weve been friends<3

mike has a sweet car. it was too
hot in the gym so we decided to go
outside to see michael's car. its a
lot of fun =D i got to sit in the
drivers seat, but he wouldnt
let me drive it :(

i have to go to school.
gross gross gross.

[17 Sep 2005|10:56pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i havent written in here in like 6398716 years.

a lot has happened.
sophmore year started.
new boys to like.
new drama to hate.
new classes to dread.

just like old times.

today i went to daniel's surprise birthday party.
it was a lot of fun in the begining.
too bad you ruined my night.
because of you my parents told me i was ungrateful
and grounded me.
because of you my sister told me i was a bitch
and that i should die.
because of you i hate myself even more.
i hope your happy now.

4 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[30 Aug 2005|08:57pm]
first day of school.
gross. gross. gross.
classes suck.
im ready for summmer.
1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[27 Aug 2005|05:13pm]
last night was somuch fun. i got to hang out with mona, beans, dace, ivori, blair & some other neat kiddos.

poor benny hurt his nose<3 hope you feel better. & dave was upset. ghhjffdsfhjd fag. hes way cool for smoking while being punched in the back of the head. seriously my hero.

tonight- probably shopping with krystaaaaaaaaa. somuchfun. im pumped.

[25 Aug 2005|03:05pm]
its so hard to say goodbye
illmissyousomuch< 33

[22 Aug 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | okay ]

i talked to ali dervin for the first time i think all summer.
it was so nice to talk to her. imissyou. < 3

1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[21 Aug 2005|11:56pm]
the only person you want
to talk to is the person
you can't talk to.

i wish it was easier.
or maybe i wish youd
just realize it all.

i cant understand how
or why you do
the things you do.

i try so hard
to make it work
but it feels like im
the only one trying.

i wantneed you so bad.

[21 Aug 2005|11:00pm]
"welcome to the nut house"
we'll miss you walnut.
we got first in homepom =)
and third for xtreme routine,
and a superior for all week,
and the leadership award,
and the top banana on day three.
so many ups and downs
but over all we had somuchfun
im so proud of you ladies<3

she moved out.
in with him.
not to mention,
she stole some new clothes
in the process.
who cares, drugbag.
i refuse to know
you any longer.

guys are so insensitive.
1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

[18 Aug 2005|09:14am]
ahh i havent written in a while.
ive been so busy with cheerleading.

im going to camp today :)
i wont be home until sunday!
call my cell<333

[14 Aug 2005|07:31pm]
vacation was sooo much fun.
cant wait for next year<33

"wanna help me make meatballs?"
"how about a sausage?"
..."uh no. i dont like italian"


chris, john, zack, & bobby. soooo much fun<3

[09 Aug 2005|09:35pm]
the past couple of days have been awesomex20.

saturday was melissas party. :)
im so glad i met you<3

sunday i went to leahs party with zeke.

yesterday zeke&melissa came over.

"in the bush"

i <3 you.

tomorrow is vacation!!
call my cell =)

[06 Aug 2005|10:00am]
since you cant handle it like an adult
i guess were arguing on here.
ive been ungrounded for about a week
& ive been busy with cheerleading
work & my broken foot.
& i had plans made before to hang out
with diferent friends before you said anything
so dont make it seem like i purposely
didnt hang out with you.

this is seriously childish.

[06 Aug 2005|09:55am]
and all those friends you thought you had
are laughing at and not with you
and all those friends you thought you knew
you'd trade it all for a tank full of fuel

[06 Aug 2005|09:16am]
yesterday was sooooo much fun

i went to get a haircut
(which looks like shit)
then i went to get my check at thomas'
& was walking to the car & i saw
i stayed & talked for a little.
i miss those guys.

then we picked up krysta&melissa.
we went back to the house to get ready
then we went to the mall.
i saw remo!!
it was soo funny.
i said hi & he didnt recogniz me at first
then he ran up & gave me a hug.
so we hung out with him for a little.

then joel called &
said he was at the mall :)
so we hung out with him for a while.
i got to push him in the wheelchair.
haha. it was cool.
then he left so we met up with remo
again for a little. then he left
to go to a club. so we were walking around
& we saw nick,jerry,benny,&shane.
we were talking. then decided to go to
spencers but then we saw hettes&jordan.
so melissa&krysta went to get shoes with john
& i went to spencers with the guys.
we were playing with those 8 balls
"is she a lesbian" "it is certain" hahaha.

we should do that again soon.
..benny you better call me<3

work today.
someone visit me.
for lunch.

tonight should be awesome too.
melissas party!!!!!!!!!
& i get to meet zeke :)

[05 Aug 2005|01:33pm]
yesterday was fuuuuun :)
i hung out with adam farrell
& chelsea & sarah :)!
it was so much fun

then i went to a work meeting
that took forevvvvvvvver.
but i got paid for it :)

then to cheerleading again.
it was neat.
we decided to have a haunted house
at the old school building in oct.

1 heaven istitle or description overrated<3

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