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[17 May 2005|10:40am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

[Alice] I enjoyed the other day, please believe me. I don't know if I upset you because you seemed in a hurry to leave, and when you did you weren't in such a happy mood. If what I said upset you, then I'm sorry. [/Alice]


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[20 Apr 2005|12:34am]
[ mood | determined ]

James is right. Girls baffle me utterly and completely too. Insane and bonkers.

[Private to Marauders] Well, apart from Alice. Alice Pearce. She's beautiful and has all the right ways of talking to me. We met down by the lake, and she told me something I've never heard anyone say before so seriously. Can you guess what it is? Whereas others, also known as Jasmine, like nothing more than to play with my mind. She made it sound like she was interested in me, like she always has, when even right now she's probably off being a brazen slut with someone else. Friend? I think not. Not anymore. If there's one thing I cannot stand then it's hypocrites. [/Private to Marauders]

Although Angelina is one I understand, even if certain people keep trying to make her feel terrible.

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[12 Apr 2005|09:37am]
[ mood | impressed ]

Moony Prongs Wormtail report to Padfoot immediately, which means right now because tomorrow we have much to discuss, yes.


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[30 Mar 2005|10:52am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE. It's a... cloudy day. Depressing. But sunny weather should be here soon. I can hardly wait. Jasmine and I have a spectacular end-of-school ploy which involves the lake and a few birthday suits. Won't Remus be so proud.

Quidditch practice today, Gryffindors and Ravenclaws joining up. Don't forget. It's all that keeps my sanity hanging on by its very thin and frayed string, when preparation for N.E.W.T's seems to be taking over the school. Thank Merlin it's not the Slytherins today, I couldn't take another battering. That beater should be tied out in the desert, covered with honey, and left for ants to find.

Just wanted you all to know that I am, in fact, here and have not, in fact, fallen off the face of the earth.

[Private] Bloody Hell. I thought Lorraine and I managed to sneak away to see her sister without being seen. But then in the library Regulus told me some scabby little first years saw me traipsing outside with some girl at night (he makes it sound like it's unusual). I kept quiet of course; I promised Lorri I wouldn't say anything. I stayed quiet for a lot of the time she was with her sister, but I've got no regrets on going. Not at all. I'm glad I was there. [/Private]

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[22 Mar 2005|08:07am]
[ mood | creative ]

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Hello Jasmine, also known as the one with that crazy cat. When's the next best time to continue with our talk about porcupines? Also known as you and me sitting about by the lake doing naughty things we shouldn't really be doing. Like talking about PORCUPINES.

I haven't seen my little brother since Christmas because I don't count looks across the Great Hall and walking past each other in the corridors at dinner-time real communication. Come and find me Regulus, we need to talk, or at least brood together in comfortable silence over a drink.

Hmm. Maybe I should talk about school matters? School's fine, still here, bored with people talking about BOOKS. Am avoiding spending copious amounts of time in the library like the plague. Fearful, very fearful. Help. Marlene pointed out to me that I have loads of time to make my mind up about what to do after school. I'm reassured. some people are a little worried that I'm not taking it seriously, but she made sense. When I was talking to CC and realised that the only big dream I could think of was gaining a beautiful and busty stalker, I figured it was time I should start thinking about what to do next.

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[08 Feb 2005|11:43am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Owl to Jasmine, another oneCollapse )

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[05 Feb 2005|10:53pm]
[ mood | bored ]

There's a reason why needle-sharp porcupine quills aren't used by rambunctious students. It's called safety.

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[30 Dec 2004|09:55am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I like Christmases. Especially the sort spent in my own place.

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[21 Nov 2004|04:40pm]
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[19 Sep 2004|11:05am]
[ mood | cynical ]

Bloody Hell. People shouldn't lie. People shouldn't be stupid enough to believe said lies. People should grow up and stop fighting over stupid and insignificant petty things. I don't normally say anything, but you hear those noises, the real quick ones that sound like irritated footsteps? That's the sound of my patience - running out.

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Deny me bread, air, light, spring, but never your laughter for I would die. [08 Sep 2004|09:18am]
[ mood | crappy ]

It was perfect having you guys and girls over at my house through the summer. Thanks for helping me get sorted with it all, be it decorating or wearing the place in or insulting my choice of bed-covers.

[Private] Regulus was over a lot too, for the last week he stayed all the time in the spare room. I think he meant what he said. It remains to be seen whether he'll really stay away from that path, but I'm putting my faith in him. He deserves that much. And who I am to fool anyone by denying that I'm starting to enjoy his company? I want to take him out to the Quidditch store like James and I do, and just spend that time like we once should have done.

And I can't believe what James told me. I should have seen it coming. In love with Lily Evans, aye. I mustn't have seen it clearly through all the switches they go through, from arguing to helping each other to hating each other. Now this is going to take planning, but one way or another, I'm going to make James stop moping around like a lovesick puppy and make him do something about it. It was heart-wrenching to see her so upset yesterday in the library.. I've never known her to feel so bad about something. I made a gift during the summer that might cheer her up, I was saving it for Christmas but if it would cheer her up, then now would be a better time. [/Private]

[Lily] Let me know how you are, alright? I'm not going to stick my nose in again if you don't want me to, but I have broad enough shoulders for you to lean on, cry on, punch, whatever makes you feel better. [/Lily]

[Jas] let me know what's going on. It was terrible seeing you so upset, but as usual that pretty little smile of yours looked all the better when it was through it. [/Jas]

There's no better day in the world than the first one of school. All the tiny firsties come here, with a kick in their step and arrogance in their swagger, thinking they’re all grown now, not having met Sirius Black. They get the gist of it about a week in from the first day and start looking over their shoulders and timidly around corners, but it's still incredible fun while it lasts.

For the Gryffindor Quidditch team, the schedule is going to be on the notice-board soon. I'm trying to keep Wednesday evenings free again for us like last year. I've looked up the team's timetable for this year and it doesn't clash with anyone's classes. But if that's a problem for anyone for another reason, let me know. I've got a new range of techniques of teaching this year. It'll be worth turning up to every training day for.

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[26 Aug 2004|11:15pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Where are all you people? OY PEOPLE TALK TO SIRIUS NOW. THANKS.

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[16 Aug 2004|02:24pm]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]


Prongs, I need to talk to you about the thing with the thing with the person. The other person. That. You know? House now, cookies, you're staying over here for the foreseeable future. Bring Moony too if you see him around.

(Feeling much better after unsuccessful visit to Grimmauld Place)

I'm set to be busy these next weeks, I have about a thousand and two different people to entertain in about a million different places. Send me an owl or something if you desire my company.


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[02 Aug 2004|11:28pm]
[ mood | restless ]

I shouldn't have returned home. They haven't changed a bit. It was eleven o'clock before I realised that I'd been walking for over an hour in the darkness afterwards, not doing much else but thinking. I know that no one else except for my 'family', the other three guys and Lily will know the reasons why I didn't want to go back. Regulus too, but I made him swear years ago not to tell anyone. I trust that he hasn't said anything about that to anyone. Anyone. I'm proud of what he said, though, last night. He was the reason why I tried to talk to them.

[Private] When I came home, I found the house empty once more. I would have liked my company to have stayed. But that was . . . that was fine. I know what I told James, but if the other day was a one off, then I'll deal with that. The powers that be know that I need a good laugh right now. No more worrying -- It doesn't become me. I won't try and handle any more problems. I don't need anything getting in the way, and what I need at this moment is some hot chocolate around a fire, talking, about matters uncomplicated and carefree. Normality, even. [/Private]

I don't really want to be alone right now, or for the next week. Can I stay around someone's house? Maybe a group of us, like we used to.

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[31 Jul 2004|10:29pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

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It's not right that some things won't get magic'ed away. What's being a wizard worth if you can't solve problems with magic.

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[23 Jul 2004|04:14pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Sorry, I can't get to the party. Some matters have arisen meaning that I would be a week or so late, by which time it will have ended anyway, and I'll be left with nothing but an empty party-firesnap in my hand and sitting lonesome listening to the crickets chirp. I expect you all to keep me informed with what happened though. Details, details.

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And this is what I feel. [18 Jul 2004|07:14pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Even though I don't have to write about any of my days of toil in order to stay established in this project, I will for those who I haven't seen for donkeys', and want to know all the details of my existence. THAT MEANS YOU PRONGS.

While doing my best not to go out and strangulate Malfoy and Snape with my shoelaces for that awful scuffle back in school, I've held my promise to Lily -- I haven't sought either of them out yet, and as long as they behave perhaps I won't need to. I have a very bad feeling stirring in my stomach about things though. On consideration though, maybe that's just my indigestion again. [Private] Maybe this meeting with James has got something to do it. The DE's I mean, not the indigestion. I know Marlene said something about Malfoy. I'll find out soon anyway. [/Private]

But, the week I spent back in Hogwarts was overturned down from two weeks to just the one because of someone - in all likelihood James's dad - having a word with Dumbledore. And I don't know what he said, or how he did it, but guess who's dad is getting a box of sugar cookies sent to him (once I have enough money when my account in Gringotts has stopped replacing the Dead Sea as The Lowest Point On Earth). It was mainly days of wandering around the empty corridors of Hogwarts on my own with nothing but Filch as company, wearing a handkerchief around my head to keep my hair out of my eyes while I cleaned laboriously. The divine light at the end of that long dark tunnel only ever turned out to be the caretaker with a candle bringing me another bucket of water to mop the floor with. The Ministry has passed regulations about less cruel punishments than that, I swear.

My house is glorious. It hasn't got a driveway the size of a muggle motorway, nor more pillars than the acropolis, but it's perfect for me. Jasmine was there when I arrived, painting away, scaring me with impressions of Narcissa. Nightmares, I can tell you. My bedroom, while we're on the subject, is a tad bare. It needs something. Pictures. Posters. A lamp. Maybe a lovely lady or two sat on either bedpost -- Volunteers, anyone?

James and Andie were my very first guests. Glee. Lily dragged me off for some 'needed' shopping. Yes, shopping. And someone back me up when I say that Quidditch bed-sheets are the utmost height of fashion? The bathroom set is great, with the little glass where the snitch flies around the rim of it once you put your toothbrush in there. I've had to lock Jas (aka that ball of fluff aka that cat) out of the room because she starts chasing it, falling into the bathtub and all Hell breaks loose, especially when Lootsy joins in. Don't even ask about Lootsy, because whatever the question is, I really won't know the answer. Despite all that though, I am not a changed man. I still can't cook (unless toast is featured delicacy these days) nor (apparently) have a keen sense of how to furnish a house. I'll learn it, even it means burning the place down before realising that that wasn't quite the right charm to use for that item.

As for the Apparation test? Awful. Rubbish. Shameworthy. Failed. Just. Crashed. Literally, into someone else. Didn't fuse my limbs into theirs, but I'm having a retest soon. They're going to be sending me an owl, which I'm awaiting eagerly, as well as a ridiculous hat and some more visits from my favourite people.

And dost my eyes decieve me, or did I see Gideon Prewett TOTALLY ARSE NAKED IN DIAGON ALLEY?! AHAHAHAHA!

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[24 Jun 2004|11:31am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

The album launch was amazing last Saturday. I managed to find James, Nat, CC (obviously) and Benjy there, though half the time I didn't know where my date was. I managed to pass myself off a movie actor, a musician in a muggle band, a personal friend of John and Ringo, a prince of one of the countries in Sounthern Eritrea, and an Australian Quidditch super-star. Not all in one go, though, clearly. But urgh, I attempted to eat some of the more fancy food with the really weird names. Carmel avocado parfait with royal Iranian osetra caviar was one of them. What the Hell is carmel avocado parfait with royal Iranian osetra caviar?

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As for here, in the non-glittery surroundings of Hogwarts, I think everything has calmed down now. I still haven't see Remus since our disagreement, but I remain hopeful. James and I are fine again; thank Merlin, because I hated feeling unwelcome in the dorm and sleeping in the common room on the couch. I also think Lily has gone quite mad. I'm almost convinced of it. At least she can be happy that my wards and charms are up now.

And I have to spend the first two weeks (possibly more) here under the eyes of Filch, maybe my Hogsmeade visits cancelled next year too. But at least that should give my place time enough to be decorated (thanks to Jasmine) to return to the day when I'm allowed to go. Alicia mentioned something about going on a holiday abroad, which sounded great, so praise be for something to look forward to.

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[21 Jun 2004|10:18am]
[ mood | amused ]

[Private] Snape's face was hilarious. More than usual, I mean. When I told him to poke that knot, he was lapping it up like a cat does milk. James just had to go after him, didn't he. I need to find out what else happened, since I haven't seen James since then, and I can't help but think that that's deliberate. [/Private]

Dumbledore told me to come to his office now, he didn't look happy. Almost murderous. You would think the snow would give him some Christmassy sort of cheer, but apparently not. So James can have all my worldly possessions if I never return, except for my pillows which can be given to Jasmine since THEY SMELL ALL GIRLY AND PERFUME-Y NOW ANYWAY.

More writing when I've stopped laughing.

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[12 Jun 2004|11:44am]
[ mood | chipper ]


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