I was just thinking before about how it's really weird how things work out. It's like, they work out when you don't expect them to. I think I started thinking of it because i'm listening to that Blink 182 song that was popular when I was in 9th grade. I remember it was always on FUSE, the music video with the two girls in weird makeup making out.
So anyway, that song reminds me of the beginning of 2004, when I got my first kiss and ended up regretting who it had been with, and then meeting Nick through that whole thing. When I had been "dating" I don't even know what you would call it, Nick's friend Skye. And then I remembered being at Skye's for superbowl that year, and Nick was there..and I did some stuff I wasn't proud of doing. But when I think back, I definitely made a bigger deal of it than it was. I was distraut about it for a long time, but now I realize that these things happen. I guess because it was the first time I've ever been with a guy and it just hurt because it didn't work. But whatever, even though it was only two years ago, i've matured a lot and think of things much differently.
Anyway, after the whole Skye thing I started to like Nick. He would talk to me online, and was the first guy I really talked on the phone with. I remember him telling me he was sitting in his room and I used to imagine what his house looked like or what he had in his room. It sounds weird but I remember thinking about it. And then we decided to hang out in town one night. I brought Rikki because I was scared to go alone. Nick had a few of his friends. We weren't really talking and I was trying to find ways to impress him or something, but he didn't really get it. I think he was under the impression that nothing was going to happen and that we were only friends. After that night, I found out that he had liked someone else before he met me, and that he thought that the other relationship was going somewhere. I was pretty much shocked that right after the whole thing with his friend now this was happening. I was upset but I got over it. We stopped talking and occasionally I would want to talk to him, but I was afraid to. I remember having a conversation with my mom one day in the car about boys. She asked me what happened to Nick because she remembered me talking to him and hanging out with him. I told her that we just stopped talking, and I added that if he were to start liking me for some reason that I would go out with him. Because I guess sort of in the back of my mind he was still there and I missed the little time that we had spent together.
Then came the summer, where weird things happened and I won't go there because it sickens me to think about it. Then came August 7th. I don't know why I remember the date. But I'm good with dates sometimes. Anyway, I was away from my computer and I come back and I had an IM. It was from Nick. I found it so weird because we hadn't talked in months. He was just like "hey, we haven't talked in a while, how are things?" and stuff like that. I just remember being happy and that I was glad we were talking again. Then out of nowhere about a day later he asked me to hang out. At that point I was just happy he was back, and I did miss hanging out with a guy. So we went to the movies during the day, and I remember seeing an ex boyfriend of mine there while I was waiting. And he asked what I was doing and I told him proudly that I was waiting for my date to show up. I didn't know if it was really a date but I wanted it to be. We had a really fun time, talking and laughing and it was almost as if we had been friends the entire time. We talked on the phone a lot those next few days, and he told me that he thinks he hasn't gotten a girlfriend because he hasn't been asking the right girls. I kind of knew what was coming but I pretended like I didn't. Then he told me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend. I said yes, obviously. And now here we are, almost a year and a half later. Its really weird how I thought I would never talk to him again and now here we are.
That was probably a really annoying entry for most of you, but I haven't updated in a while and that's what was on my mind. It's cool to think back and wonder why or how things turned out the way they did.