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Bad things have been happening for the past week, coming to somewhat of a head today. Thats by-the-by, I'm sure there are people who will tell you the gory details if you ask.
This journal seems to have become a place for negative thoughts and chronicling the many bad things that have happened over the past couple of years. I have a choice now, to continue and hope the future is better, or just to let things go.
There isn't really a point to this any more. So this is the last entry for _purple__
. If you want to find me, then I'll be trying to be positive about the future in johanna_alice
Things are not always quite what they seem, and often its easy to make a mistake.
I was wrong. I owe torsparkles
a full and unreserved apology. Thats all, anything else is for the future.
Current Mood: devestated
I'm not sure should I be horrified at my levels of knowledge about the Sisters, or to bask in the knowledge that this quiz was really quite tricksy and yet I got 20 out of 20 first time...The Ultimate Sisters of Mercy Quiz
Current Mood: accomplished
The Shakespeare jokes were inevitable, but at least they were still funny and in keeping with the ideas we have today of who Skakespeare was... The witches thing was worked very nicely into the idea of MacBeth being written in the near future as well. Apart from the one niggle I really did like it :)
Venusian Spearmint though?!?!?!? How the past is devalued. Jon Pertwee must be spinning in his grave.
I've been having a think about the QE1 bit at the end though. There's only one other story I can think of offhand involving Elizabethans which was Silver Nemesis back with Sylvester McCoy. Wonder if Lady pier-wotsername-forte is getting another outing, regeneration issues aside...
Otherwise is the Doctor going for pissing off the whole collection of English Queens??
Current Mood: amused
Convictions and beliefs|
Convictions (not the criminal kind!) are kind of like rules that are built into us by society and our upbringings. Some we have no direct evidence whether they're true or not: Say for example that the Earth is a spheroid. These we take on faith, possibly due to everyone else on the planet believing it true also. Sometimes we do get evidence to prove these things - when I went to Cuba the jet flew high enough that I could see the curvature of the horizon...
Other convictions are based on personal beliefs and are every bit if not more concrete - Again for example I believe I should have been born female. It takes a lot to shake these convictions and sway someone away from absolute certainty in them, but it is possible. The moral grey areas where this can happen are quite straightforward to find. They're where two convictions clash and contradict one another.
I've been there a few times, where experience and my own mental compass aren't sufficient to tell me what is the right course of action. Each time its involved making very hard choices involving some of the people I care about, and trying to do what I think is best at that particular moment in time. Its never easy, but in a way I'm lucky in that I can face up to my fears, and accept responsibility for my actions, be they good, bad or indifferent.
For the last week I've been facing one of these choices, knowing what each option means, and trying to decide between them. The thing is though, in a way I've created my own dilemma by forcing this issue out into the open. Another conviction you see - secrets hurt people. The other thing about convictions is that they let you make lightning fast snap-decisions in the knowledge that you will not be betraying any of your own core beliefs by doing what it is you decide. This time though I think I've found a way that is for me at least, means not doing some things I was reluctant to do, and lets me relax more or less instantaneously from the hyper-tense tense state I've been in all week.
So far, so good. I'll be able to live with myself.
Now, back to stroking the cat :)
Current Mood: calm
Truth, confidences and reasonable self-interest.|
This could well get fairly long...
So when is it reasonable to talk about things others wish to keep private?"
Not so very long ago I arrived at a conclusion about the value of a particular kind of truth. It was: A truth that serves no purpose but to hurt someone is valueless.
I'm going to talk about an applied sub-case of this, and the morality of decisions in this circumstance:
A confidence is nothing more than someone telling you something that is to one extent or another a secret. It could be something trivial and amusing, or something that could destroy someones life. In any case the person telling the secret (The, for want of a better word, 'blabber') is intrinsically breaking a trust by telling the secret in the first place. Even if they ask something along the lines of, 'Don't tell anyone I told you this, but...', they are automatically assuming that you (the 'blabee') is of stronger moral fibre than themselves because they have told the secret, and presumably you won't. This of course is subjective. If someone told you Johnny had not slipped on an icy puddle, but was in fact wearing a bandage because he couldn't open his flat door, and had hit himself with it because he was as drunk as a skunk, you'd have a bit of a giggle and no harm is done. But if a neighbor told you that they kept hearing children screaming and thumping noises night after night, but keep it to yourself, you'd more likely than not go to the copshop upon the instant.
Degree's of subjectiveness...
Now what about a case where someone tells you something that directly affects you. For example that your partner is having an affair with your best-mate, and in fact they're shagging now. In your bed! But you can't let them know you know because I'd get into trouble for telling you...
This is stupidity. The blabber must know at some level there is no way that you can ignore this, and that you will do something about it. But its alright because they can turn around afterwards and say, 'But I told them to keep it to themselves and they just ignored me!'. If someone doesn't want to be involved in a situation then keeping silent is the only option for them.
From the blabee's point of view this is an incredibly awkward situation, especially if it concerns the alleged or actual behaviour of the blabee. In a situation where the blabee's conduct is called into question, asking them to remain silent, not knowing who else knows this, and where it started is once more is (admittedly in my opinion) really quite stupid and short-sighted. In fact asking the person to keep quiet is in effect making the truth the blabee has just been told one that can only cause pain and hurt. Thus such a truth is once more valueless.
Such a situation arose for me on sunday. As a result my friends list will shortly be getting a fairly abrupt pruning. Sorry if you are someone who it may seem I am determining as guilty by association as it were. I'm not, I'm just horrified and upset that something of this nature has been spread around about me, and that I only find out when I ask someone I haven't seen for a few weeks would they like to meet up for a coffee after work... I'll tell you the details if you ask, but to me it seems very reminiscent of the 'You did', 'Didn't!', conversations that I last encountered in my primary school playground. My position is that what was said is a lie, but theres no purpose whatsoever in arguing about it. To be honest I'm really so sick of fighting things that just walking away, and leaving this issue dead and unressurectable by dint of my not going anywhere near the person concerned is just too attractive a solution for me not to take it. Like I said its not any judgment or notion of guilt by association, but simply that I want to walk away from this completely. Sorry.
I'm going to do stuff monday morning, if you do have something to say, please comment before then...
Current Mood: Upset
Look what Auntie Beeb showed me!!|
Of course I'd have sprayed them purple... But then again purple sheep is wrong, bad and oh my god where is this going **thinks**
Look out they'll be coming for ewe next!
**still terrible think some more, but use brain this time**
No use. Its just so damn weird!!!
Current Mood: mischievous
Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse...
The Sarah-Jane Adventures are on replayTV thingi. I groaned aloud when she used a lipstick to open a door. And groaned in abject despair when she called it a sonic lipstick.
RTD, what have you done??
Current Mood: apalled
I have a theory... Its called 'Derivative'|
After a very brief look at the Doctor Who homepage, and taking at least one previous offence of committing the Runaway Bride into account, I can only surmise that someone bought RTD some books. I can even possibly name them:
D&D Monster Manual / Spelljammer (After the Drider in TRB) and what appears to be a bipedal rhino in a bulky spacesuit with a featureless armoured helmet (Only a small shift from the Giff bipedal Hippo's from Spelljammer) in the montage for the new series. (If this is the case then RTD better keep a look out for Hasbro's (Who own Wizards of the Coast who own D&D) legal dept coming for him. However they'd probably not sue for cash, but enforced labour creating the theme for the next
Magic Tragic the Gathering Spending expansion. Whether this would be good or bad I leave to your own imagination, but it would mean someone else writing Doctor Who...).
In addition I'm sure I've seen a similar bulky monster in an equally bulky spacesuit before, only then it was original and called a SONTARAN...
Oh and it (the new monster) has a deep gravelly voice that utters, 'Sentence: Execution' which may mean RTD got a subscription to 2000AD for christmas, and hes been reading up on Judge Dredd since.
Of course I've not seen the episode yet, but there does seem to be a recurring thing about re-inventing the wheel going on... I'm sticking to my guns that RTD can write killer dialog's but is crap at writing SF.
BTW there will be bonus points for spotting whatever RTD's buzzword to more personal profit will be this season this episode.
Current Mood: cynical
Is there a dead stoat in that envelope, madame?|
Just got back home. Theres a letter here that wasn't here when I left on friday. Thus my incisive insight tells me it must have arrived on saturday, despite being postmarked for the 16th.
None of this would matter. Except its a letter from the morons (Used in its fullest non-perjerative sense.) at the shed, who despite me warning them that I would require some notice to organise a witness. A witness that I might add I stated I was unwilling to let a meeting happen without...
So tomorrow sees yet another stress-laden phone call to the Shed.
Would go Grrrrrrrrr!! But am just too tired tonight. Besides I have to phone them and tell them I'm still alive and taking what the doctor tells me to once a week anyway. Two for the price of one. Sounds retail to me.
Current Mood: pissed off
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