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Thursday, August 10th, 2006
12:04 am - kjtyhgcl
my brother's a fucking cunt who should buy his own friends.
that would certainly beat having him bitching to my friends about me being in a shit mood.
i definitely wouldn't bitch to his mates about him.
i'd rant to my own... or get myself a shrink.
and jesus, who would he think my friends would be loyal to? me or him? hmm...


Sunday, June 25th, 2006
10:27 pm - love

mmm... cream


Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
1:25 am - holiday
it's a two week holiday and i'm getting the sense of repitition. i feel like i'm doing the same stuff over and over again like some machine. i thought school was bad enough. my horoscope was right, it always is. this time i need a change of environment and pace, i couldn't agree more.


Friday, June 16th, 2006
5:29 pm - bedroom

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Sunday, April 30th, 2006
7:07 pm - art
50% recycled material. the other would be love & utter boredome. probably the most uncomfortable cushion in the world which sticks to your hair. but it's nice to throw though.
the image was cut out illustration i found at some uni magazine.

i drew these this quite a while ago... and seeing i've noticed that photos are the only visuals i've shown you guys. so some some illustration for a change. horay!

this one's it's been abandoned ever since i skrewed up the toning on the face. i quite like the shine on her eye.

i'll keep having update posts!


Thursday, April 27th, 2006
5:58 pm - reality
i've been quite absent, disconnected from everything & myself this year.
i wrote a poem:

i am bored of reality.
to be content, i must be elsewhere.
among others so desperately seeking escape?
consciously yet uncontrollably slipping further and further away
from what is fact, to what is truth
the far angles of life perception.
an unreachable new state of mind and soul
a body stuck....
am i merely intriguing?
am i purely insane?
i doubt reality.


Friday, April 21st, 2006
4:23 pm - :(
i am a bad bad person.
don't gossip. it'll bit you back in the ass.


Friday, January 27th, 2006
1:46 am - oh fuck has lj changed
i'm back


Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
7:12 pm - links
mood: tired
music: moonshadow - cat stevens

i'm taking photos as i type! well, not literally but i'll post them in 5 mins -ish! tomorrow instead!

i owe you guys something good, i know. i promised i wouldn't neglect lj when i have a site up and i've failed miserably.

well, this is all i can offer for tonight, here are some boredom links for you... well i think they're pretty spiffy so i'll take back boredom. it'll keep you busy, trust me. plus, it's so much more fun clicking random x's not knowing where you're gonna go. go and literally get lost in these sites, click away!

x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

geek talk: it's far too early to feel the burden of owning a site. yes, i enjoy making layouts and making new little "webdesigner" buddies, but i feel pressured having to constantly update it to please my host, viewers and those passer-by-ers. personally, i believe running a personal website is like a huge competition (gaining hits, making better layouts than your previous ones, enhancing those skills, rah, rah, rah). my site's doing real well so far. i've ben getting quite a number of comments, just comes to show that my work's being appreciated. i don't know. if i neglect lj anymore because of my blog there (so sick of having two blogs) i'll turn it into a portfolio site. something simple. i'm very happy with lj and the community here atm. i just need some space for my art, nothing more. let's just wait and see for now.

EDIT/ she takes the best photos of herself. i'm straight yes, but i love her, lol. awesome artistic shots, she's very talented indeed. check out her photo section. click here./EDIT


Saturday, November 5th, 2005
1:18 am - it's UP mofucka
mood: awake
music: fix you - coldplay

N crashcabVICTIM

... finally (btw, andrea you're linked cause you rock)

i blogged there earlier tonight at my site, so i'll be sorta' repeating myself but rewording it... and i thought owning one blog was a chore URGH. i bullshitted my way throught my whole i.t exam today. did better than i expected too. media's next, but i'll be taking these next exams seriously (studio art, visual communication and design, legal studies, yadda yadda yadda) because i'm a perfectionist with the subjects i actually enjoy. i have my rmit fashion short course tomorrow- this was supposed to be fun. lying fuckers. i am definitely not up for anything early saturday mornings.
on the brighter side of life... *blank*. i have two more long weeks til i'm free from school until next year (then we start all over again) and i've lost my nice rosemin wallet with $140 cash for the formal money - but i'll be getting a new card in 5 days (yes, this is supposed to be good news), second time this year not to mention.
this sucks. i'm more depressed now than how i was before i started blogging. some outlet. i think i should sleep... and maybe start going back to church, lmao.

ps. http://crashcab.org/victim
feed me back. there or here.


Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
1:25 pm - crashcab.org/victim
mood: creative

i think we all want a ride, wait your turn.

i found a host for my new website. go make love to lynn...

it'll be: crashcab.org/victim


Friday, October 28th, 2005
9:02 pm - white ninja
mood: everything
music: youare so last summer - taking back sunday

my nose is blocked but as runny as a tap at the same time. being sick sux.

i'm sort of feeling everything at the moment. i'm honestly quite sad about the fact today was the last day of year 11 as this was the best school year i've had in my life and i'm worried next year won't won't top this one. i'm happy cause it's holidays... but streesed because i'll be returning to school in the next two weeks to sit exams which i am so unprepared for. i'm tired because like all last weeks of school it always seems to drag on the longest, but i'm also feeling quite motivated to study at the same time (maybe because i'm bored and have nothign else to do?) most of all... i can't believe i'm analysing my emotions at this very moment either. i think i should shut up about this.

my formal partner can't come to my formal because he just got a scholarship. i have a month before the formal and he told me the other night. ahh well, i'm not cut. i'm actually really proud of him and i don't want him to feel bad about it either. i mean, it's not everyday you get a scholarship. he'll be going to alice spring so i'll ask my friend's cousin to accompany me instead. whatever. i'm over all the planning and stress.


Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
6:45 pm - diarrhoea..?
mood: content
music: i believe in a thing called love - the darkness

weeeeeeeeeeee.................. we've finally stocked up on canned tuna & crackers! for the past five days i've checked the same cupboards over and over wondering when mum would be grocery-ing again.

i bought two button badges today. one of the lovely kurt cobain looking like he's suffocating with 'nirvana' nicely printed beneath his pretty little face and another one of the darkness. ran out of change to buy more. and yes, this was from restrostar vintage clothing which was that photo of the store i showed you earlier (if you scroll down), lol. before shopping, i attended my first day at uni. well sort of. i joined an rmit uni fashion drawing & design intensive course which would take place every saturday 9-1.30 in the city. i was actually rostered to work today but never had a chance to tell them i couldn't come, because of this course .they actually don't know anything about it- and i work every saturday! i'm just too slack to tell them my new availability- or lack of in this case. unavailability... so i told them i had diarrhoea and they told me to watch what i eat. lmao.

i wanna further update you about this life of mine and i honestly have quite a bit to say (i've updated my friendster profile and realized i'm not that boring as i think i and say i am.. haha. yep, bar the conceited bitch now)....... but i promised myself i would study for exams this afternoon. and seeing i have drawing homework from fashion, guess i'll have to get that out of the way too.


Friday, October 21st, 2005
8:39 pm - the scenester kid
mood: lazy
music what sarah said - death cab for cutie



hahaha... jk. just an intersting read.


Friday, October 14th, 2005
9:02 pm - analyse this
mood: musical
music: nobody outs baby in the corner - fall out boy

what does this mean to you?

and the girl wants to survive
she roams the city lookin for the life she once owned, there ain't no dyin alone.. (no dyin alone!)
where is her lover now? he's pissed on the floor, beneath her feet and she can't feel it (can't feel it)
with those heals she's far from the ground
so high but why is she searching for someone so low?
how can one degrade themselves... with so much shit on their shelves. it's time to move on!
she needs to survive and she's got it all wrong.
she'll be dyin alone... ohh dying alone...


Thursday, October 13th, 2005
9:37 pm - rant, bitch, rant
mood: pissed off
music: when i am queen - jack off jill

i basically argued with my mum on the phone infront of my whole p.e class. we were in the change rooms and i called mum to tell her she could pick me up later than the usual time after school, because alyse and i were going to grab a coffee. she couldn't hear me after i patiently explained to her several times and she was like "hello? hello?", and i repeated myself and was like "mum! hello!? mum! can you hear me? ... can you just LISTEN!?" and URGH. i cracked it after that. i was already making a scene. girls were staring at me then glancing at one another and left together quickly. i didn't care. i don't normally talk to my mum like shit. i was obviously pissed off at the time. when i was finally done and already leaving, the popular (bitchy) girl, who i had no idea was still in there, gave me a relax loser, i didn't know you could get aggresive, especially to your own mother type of smile. i have never wanted to scratch off her face with my nails more than i did then.
fuck it. i'll just be known as the bitchy, spoiled daughter and parent abuser. that's fine. better than being the slutty pig or gossip two-faced whore. imo. i'm overeacting, i know.. nor do i care.


Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
4:55 pm - new shop
mood: creative
music: jagger '67 - the infadels

i discovered a new shop in the city. retrostar- vintage clothing. it's the mama of all button badge stores. some band tees too <3

i was supposed to show you this earlier. i've been experimenting with colour, lighting & contrast the other day...


Sunday, October 9th, 2005
8:40 am - im still here
mood: sad
music: i will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie

i woke up pretty depressed this morning, a friend of mine will be moving to live in germany tonight. i was going to marry him too... sometime anyway (and listening to deathcab isn't helping at all)

anywayyy.. yes. hey guys. wow.. has it been a while since i've last blogged. it's becoming less and less frequent with school exams coming soon, work stress as well as trying to balance that out with friends and family. i'll do my best not be be a snobby lj friend. i'll be working on a new layout (or image if i cbf'd with the coding, cause lj coding annoys me) as soon as i have the self-discipline to do so.
btw, just wanted to show you my vector/vexel, if you haven't seen it yet. this was done over a couple of months (2003-2004) because i'm slow...


yes, when i was still into hip-hop music. all in the past. i have taste now. so hopefully this new vector will reflect that.
anyway, i'll probably add more to this later. i'm going shopping with lyla today. i'll bring the camera too!


Thursday, September 29th, 2005
11:58 pm - mehh..
mood: okay
music: bang bang (audio bullies, audio booty remix) - nancy sinatra

this is our (second) australian idol of last year, casey. i've been reading a thread on her weight gain on the vogue forums (my current online obsession these days), but don't you think the dress and the camera angle also contribute to her size? other than that, yes she is a large 16 year old girl. i feel sorry for her, she made it to front cover of nw magazine this month.

today has been a 'time-wasteful day'. i lay on my bed and did nothing from 2.30 to 3 this afternoon. tomorrow will probably be the same, or i may be able to push myself into beginning my holiday homework.
mum and i went to deliver material to the dress maker yesterday for my formal dress. it's silk satin and i got creped material with print. it cost $300 just for the fabrics needed and my mum paid for it all! and yes, i do feel guilty. we've come to an agreement: she'll pay for the dress and i'll pay for the shoes, jewellry, make-up, hair, after party outfit and everything else. i've been offering to do house chores ever since. i'll post a pic soon!


Monday, September 26th, 2005
9:30 am - back home
mood: unsure of
music: our lawyers made us change the title of this song so we wouldn't be sued - fall out boy

i'm home. back from the gold coast, queensland... aka heaven. we stayed in a 5 star resort (parentals joined some resort club thing), which over looked the beach and we went to a different theme park everyday we were there. i'm so sick of my family though, none of us had any alone time. it's a place to go with friends and having my parents and brother constantly on your back got irritating. the place was full of eye-candy too, surfies everywhere! it was so embarassing having parents by your side if you can imagine T_T

these images weren't edited or anything (yes- the sky is that blue!)
anyway, i gotta get ready for work.. urgh.


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