plug in baby

Ain't it funny when people start to act differently when you're around other people? I sometimes feel invisible. I sometimes feel that I'm constantly picked on like a child in middle school. I thought those days were over. When I speak, no one listens to me. When I cry, no one comforts me. When I'm in a bad mood, people ignore me. I'm really sick and tired of being treated the way that I am treated, for no reason at all. It makes me wonder who my real friends are. It makes me wonder what it is that is wrong with me. I don't understand.

John is working today, all day. I wish I could have him here to talk to him. I just need someone to talk to. That is all I'm asking for. I just want to take all my troubles to the beach and relax and read a book, but the weather outside is dark and gloomy. Maybe I can take a walk somewhere. Clear my head. Rearrange these thoughts.

I finally watched 'Whip It' last night joined by CiCi and her other half. It was good. Kind of predictable, but I suppose most movies are that way. The movie made me want to join a Women's Roller Derby team. It looks like fun, and I can see myself knocking over girls one by one 'cause I'm tough like that.

I'm looking forward to this weekend. I'll be seeing a play "Ghosts of Treasure Island" that John's cousin is in. His cousin is a big theater guy and is always preforming in plays in the city. I hear this show is really good, so I'm looking forward to it. Afterwards, we're going to a French restaurant where they will be handing out free french style hot dogs in celebration of the Fete du Travail (which is like the French version of Labor Day). A long beef hot dog stuffed into a baguette smothered in mustard. Mmm. After that, who knows. Maybe that Synergism party at Kinetic. We shall see...but for now, I must get through these 2 days of work. I can do this!

Today is my only day off this week, but I will be spending it on the south side for most of the day. I have a few errands to run and I'm picking up things from my parents house (mail, furniture, etc.) and John wants to get a haircut before he hands in his application for Trader Joe's. Gotta look all spiffy and clean.

Also, while I'm at it, I'll do my laundry for free instead of paying 1.50 for washing AND drying. Too expensive. I wonder if this is standard now, some times I think laundry mats would be cheaper. Maybe not. Oh, and gas is also cheaper on the south side.

I'm excited for this lovely weather coming our way. To the beach!

Also, I noticed that there is a full moon on my birthday! Will definitely be going to the Foster Beach Full Moon jam.