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where is my mind


And there you have it. 365 days of self-portraits. I must say, it has been quite a journey. It's actually quite surreal. I woke up today and knew that this was it. I scoped out locations to take my last photo for weeks until I decided that I should do something that was fun and interesting. Something that would fit into this collection of work. Or perhaps it was just sheer laziness.

You all have saw the good, the bad, the ugly. You followed a stranger in this world just to see what I do everyday. I can't even begin to thank all of the followers and all of the friends I've made. I am so happy that you could all be a part of my journey and self-discovery. It's been an incredible ride. Not only do I feel like I've grown as an artist, but as a person. A better person.

Now that I feel like I have mastered the art of self-portraiture, and now that I all of this work under my belt; I feel confident that I can venture onto newer and better things. I am very proud of my work, I am very proud of myself for sticking the whole entire way through this all.

It's been a lot of work, and there were so many times when I wanted to give up, but looking back on this year...it gave me an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment. I had my work shown in a gallery and an interview that will be televised. I have inspired other people to partake in a 365 day project of their own.

You are the greatest gift. Thank you so much!
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I've been bumping into my friends all this week, some of whom I rarely see, so it's been interesting to say the least. Considering it is the end of the year, I've been doing a lot of things differently that I could benefit from the new year. Such as, I cleaned my apartment today and got rid of things I no longer needed. I am making the effort to shape myself into a better artist. I've been drawing recently and painting more often. I am researching new places to live and jobs to apply to.

I don't know. It's time for a change. I have work early tomorrow, so I'm limiting myself from fun until tomorrow night's festivities. My last day will actually be on Monday since I started 4 days after the 1st. How exciting. :)
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5 more?! Eeeee. What a year it has been. This is when I start to contemplate, right at the end of the year. Gives me something to look forward to. The end of the year, the end of this project...it's kind of surreal to say the least. Waiting for the new, and I'm ready to embrace it.

Also, new hair for the new year. I think it's fitting. I'm going to create a fun outfit to wear for NYE. Brimming with excitement.
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Funny how my paid DA account and Flickr account both expired around the same time. This probably means I'll have to stop posting at both places once this project is over, or at least wait until I can afford to pay for a subscription. I forgot how wonderful it is to have paid accounts for things. Now all I see are ads, ads, and more ads. Shit is slower than ever before. This sucks.

This month has sucked. I hope the new year will be much better for me. I'm anticipating the days until the countdown. I felt that 2010 was a good year, but it left me wanting something more. My horoscope tells me that I should take the risk that I've been wanting to take and to move to another city, state, or even country. It's ironic how my horoscope knew that I was itching for that big move. I guess it's time to make that change. The stars are all lined up for me...
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I went to the south side today to pick up things. I think the first thing I do when I go back to my parent's house is immediately reach for the food. So much good stuff. All the time.

There's always candy sitting out in bowls, which is just as tempting as well. John's mother was very kind and made us this awesome meatloaf, which we cooked when we got home. And she gave us potatoes and all this other awesome stuff. It's so wonderful and I'm so grateful.

Then I began baking cookies and have been doing so since about 5pm. It's so hot in here, and I'm still going...

So far I've made: pecan crescent cookies, chocolate chip walnut cookies, and sugar cookies that I decorated with sprinkles. I'm thinking my last batch could be ginger cookies or perhaps something else...any ideas?
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Yesterday was probably the most ridiculous, heart breaking day I have experienced in a while. So dramatic and so much yelling. I wasn't going to go to that dance party because of how terrible I felt, but I ended up going anyway and felt so much better about things. It was fun, too. They played some good music and the party was free and the beers were cheap. I don't think it gets better than that. Unfortunately, I didn't win the year long pass to Double Door. Bummer.

I woke up fairly late today, which is something I never do. Got a few good hours of sleep in to take my mind off of things. I'm feeling better, but still hungry hah.

I wanted to go Christmas shopping today, but instead, I sat down and took surveys for some extra cash and enjoyed the view of the lovely sky. Not so bad. Tonight I'm thinking...free drinks at a beer tasting event in boys town and then possibly heading to another dance party for only 5 dollars. I wonder if everything is so cheap since it's the holiday season and all the really expensive stuff will happen on NYE. Hm?

What are your plans for NYE?
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Definitely going to have to get a second job. Looking at today's paycheck is just beyond pathetic.

I had an incredibly long night last night. My friends came over around 11:30 and pretty much got me drunk up until 4:30. Waking up this morning, I was in a haze. I had a dream about zombies ruling the world. I locked myself in a room with a few close friends, just sitting there, talking, waiting. I believe I woke up when things started to get more interesting. I wonder if I would've survived if I had only slept a little bit longer...

I took a bubble bath which sorta kinda eased my headache. I have to start wearing a brace to work on my wrist because the pain is too intense now.

Looking forward to this dance party tonight. Dance my troubles away.
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This is one of those photos where I took it very late in the day, and didn't really care for the outcome. Therefore, it is not in focus and could be done much better. Maybe tomorrow I could come up with something better, and in the daylight too.

Tomorrow I will have to sort some things out with school and classes. I'm still wondering if I even still want to go anymore. I'm just wondering why it took them so long to get back to me. I applied in August and got a call today, and of course, I was at work and could not answer. When I called later, they didn't pick up. I'm thinking it will just be better if I go in and talk to somebody.

I hate talking on the phone.
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I find myself wanting to write less and less here. I think I'm running out of things to say, so I usually end up talking about my day. Then later, I will think, oh I should've written about this, but then I get too lazy to change it all.

Today, I'm making my own loaf of bread. This is the first time I'm ever making my own bread, so I'm just hoping it will come out okay. Although it's quite a shame that I have nothing to even really put on it.