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where is my mind


Yesterday, I visited the school that I will be showing at. The gallery was fairly small, with three walls for me to fill up. It was less intimidating than what I was expecting. It relieved a lot of the fears I was having and this should work out very well.

Afterwards, I headed to my parents house. I was helping them pack and move furniture into two Pod trailers that were sitting in the driveway. They sold their house and will be leaving for good on Monday. It was an incredibly sad day for me. I sat in my old room and went through boxes and boxes of random things I had stuffed away in the closet. I found my old softball gear and yearbooks and things that I hadn't really looked at in so long. That was my childhood house. I grew up there and lived there for 21 years. I will miss the beautiful flowers and plants my mother planted. Doing flips and handsprings down on the long front yard with the green grass under my feet. Playing basketball in the driveway. Playing roller hockey with my friends and neighbors in the street. Having birthday parties and sleepovers in the basement and in the backyard. Everything. All of these memories are flooding.

Try and pack 29 years away into boxes, you will realize it isn't so easy. I have never seen that house so empty before. It was quite a surreal feeling knowing that I will never step foot into that house again. It is actually, very overwhelming.

I guess the one part of the day that hit me hard was when I turned in my house keys to my mother. I didn't even want to give them up. I at least wanted some piece of the house that I could keep forever. Unfortunately, I must move on.

I will miss that house, most definitely. But, I realize this is a good thing. A good thing for my parents. And I'm really happy for them.

Today is a rainy day, quite fitting actually.
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It's been a kind of interesting past few days. I wonder if it's because the fall season has started. The air seems a lot more different. The feel of every new day seems different. Maybe it's because I'm working more so than ever before. I'm practically at work everyday, so I see and hear a lot of interesting things. Now, I feel like I'm beginning to ramble on. Enough about work. Work is work, let it be work.

The inspiration for my gallery is really moving along. I'm beginning to buy the supplies I need and I have dreams about it even. I just like to imagine it the way I would like it to be. I hope the end product is what it looks like in my dreams.
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Tonight, I'm going to a bar with a few friends in Logan Square, which I have to actually leave for very soon. Today was mostly a boring, lazy day. It was actually quite gloomy out up until the last few hours of daylight when the sun came out. A lot of people have been bringing up the September 11th attacks.

They ask me where I was when 9/11 happened. I remember it quite vividly. I was a Sophomore in High School in 2001. I was in my homeroom period when I heard one of the girls in my classroom tell us about what happened. I was really confused and didn't really quite understand what was going on until we turned on the TV. That's when I saw the footage of the planes hitting the Twin Towers. It was the only topic of the day throughout the school day. When I took the bus home, I saw my mother's car in the driveway when I usually arrive home before she does. She told me that they let her go for safety precautions. That whole entire day, we were glued to the TV and watching the news and basically, just trying to figure out what the hell happened.

I still can't believe that was almost a decade ago. It really only seems like it happened only a few years ago. Just goes to show you how incredibly fast time flies. My thoughts go out to those who lost loved ones on this very tragic day 9 years ago. I hope you have found peace.
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What a beautiful day today. Perfect Fall day! After a somewhat long night, I was really tired this morning. I went into work earlier than usual to get working on my grocery load, and I find out that it never showed up! Luckily, I was only able to stay for a few hours, that way I was able to get some things I needed for the exhibition. I met up with a few friends, and we ended up getting some interesting pizza slices from this place Ian's. They have macaroni and cheese pizza and spicy chicken taco pizza and smores pizza, and...the list goes on.

I'm happy to report that Dunkin Donuts is now serving Pumpkin lattes and pumpkin muffins. Mmmm.
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I had a pretty bad day yesterday at work. I'm not going to say what happened because this isn't the place to bring it up. But let's just say that I was very, very upset and I wanted to run home crying, but I knew I had to tough it out. They need to make a movie about working at a grocery store and call it "Customers From Hell," I'm sure it would be an entertaining watch. I should know, all eyes were on me yesterday when this nutcase had diarrhea of the mouth.

Due to this living nightmare, I found myself tossing and turning in my bed. Thinking about that one guy, just that one guy who had to ruin my entire week. I know people always say, "Never bring your work home with you." But it's really hard not to, you know? Some people look for fights. Some people like confrontation. Whereas I try to avoid it at all costs. I find that to be a very sad life. I hope this guy realizes that the things he says and does are harmful and evil, and I really hope he can change his ways. Unfortunately, I don't see that happening. Perhaps his mother should've raised him better.

I realized today that there are so many concert tickets going on sale this weekend. It looks like October will be a very fun month, but I'm worried about being a broke ass. Oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do. I need to make a list of all the shows I will be attending: Bassnectar/STS9, Primus, Massive Attack, OK Go, and The XX. My poor bank account.
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I have to leave for work in a few minutes. This is my routine: Wash my face, fix my hair, brush my teeth, down some water with a multi-vitamin, pack my work clothes in my backpack, and head out the door. Walking to work has been getting more and more difficult with the increasing temperatures and deathly humidity. By the time I walk through the doors, I want to sprawl all out on the cold floor and take a quick nap. Perhaps I should make my way over to the freezer section this time and stick my face in the coolers.

Tonight is the first day of the Uptown Rib Fest, which I'm excited about. It just means there's another cool festival I can hang out at that's close to home.

Eek, I'm gonna be late. Bye bye.
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I tried posting this last night, then my internet went down. Then it went back up! And then down again. Same thing happened when I tried posting it this morning. Maybe I shouldn't have uploaded it. Maybe it was a sign to choose another photo or to take one in a completely different setting. This shot was rushed as I was expecting Meghan to come over.

I did a lot of organizing and cleaning. It's like having a load off of your shoulders when things are neat and not cluttered. I know I've talked about this before, but I really like that feeling. I have these stack of books and movies that I want to give away. But then I started looking inside the books and found all my little notes on the sides of the pages. Kinda makes me want to read them again.
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My eye was twitching at work. Hate when that happens. I looked it up and it apparently stems from lack of sleep and stress. Work has definitely been making me stressed. They scheduled me for way too many days in a row and give me way too much work to do. Ugh.

I will try to have fun tonight though. CiCi is here and we will be leaving soon to go watch the Blackhawks game at a bar. Go Hawks!
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Today I went to the south side to go to my Uncle and Aunt's 50th anniversary. 50 years! Damn, that is such a long time. My dad was only 4 years old when they got married.

It was a good time. I caught up with some of my family members, met new faces, and enjoyed a lot a lot of wine.

I had my chance to go out last night. Meghan, John, Joe, and I attempted to go to some rave party in Indiana, but we ended up staying on the south side for the remainder of the night. We got to go to a bonfire and have a few drinks. It was enjoyable. This weekend was enjoyable.

Right now, my friends are over at our place. I must go. Adieu.