Tags: weight loss

new year's resolutions.

* To Drink More Water
* To Stop Eating So Much Sugar / Drop It Completely
* To Eat More Protein
* To Exercise
* To Stop Putting Weight Loss Deadlines On Myself

* To Keep In Contact With ALL My Friends Not Just New Ones
* To Get Back Into School
* To Get My Portfolio Back Online
* To Get My Personal Website Back Up
* To Take More Pictures

bringing my sweet loving home to you.

It was brought to my attention that I MAY have polycystic ovarian syndrome [ link ]. i started reading and the symptoms are there, I started to cry... because I haven't had my period in about 3 months and I'm currently experiencing very severe acne... this is all too much for me.

It wasn't too long before I started crying, it happened too quickly for me to stop it before it started but when I did realize I noticed I had my hand hovering over my face like they do in the movies. A nice movie cry, it made my smile.

I quit my job because it was so horrible but I received paperwork from COBRA so I can extend my health benefits which is helpful. because I am on coumadin, levothyroxine and adderall.

I know my health problems are very small compared to things like AIDS and etc but I am so frustrated, I feel defeated because I'm trying to lose weight but everything is combating my efforts. Maybe I should reconsider my doctor's option of the weight loss surgery?

I don't know right now... I'm just so upset :(

please, stop the spinning!

sunday - the most boring day of the week, that's why i had no problems with changing my schedule to friday / saturday awf and coming in sunday thru thursday.

i totally forgot football season is coming up, so i need to change that :D

while working today, all of a sudden i'm helping a customer make a payment and everything turns all wonky... no my computer wasnt crashing but everything in my eye vision caved in and caved back out and then after the call everything kept spinning!

i grasped the edge of my desk and told my supervisor to make everything stop spinning, he laughed because he thought i was being comical again. later on he realized i was being serious. i ended up going home.

i believe its the coumadin i'm taking and because since my dosage was too high, i overdosed. i was checked out on friday and my ph for my blood is to be between 2 and 3, it was almost 6! which also explains why my mouth tasted like aluminum foil for about a week! :(

also i think i internalize stress so it's tough on my body. i've decided to do a healthy diet that is beneficial to my hypothyroid and my blood. it'd consists of lots of fish, seaweed and water along with goji juice and acai juice.

i'm trying to take the positive take on this weightloss thing because i cant help but think about how heavy i am and along with all the heartache and scarey things that have happened lately, i cant help but wonder i'm being punished for a previous lifetime!

i srsly dont want to count the calories that celery would attribute to my diet, cant i be semi-normal?

probably not.