Tags: boyfriend

how am i...

how am i to keep faith and keep high hopes or even a sliver of hope when things are going more than not so well....

i had been in the hospital for two blood clots in my lungs and then one in my bottom left leg, i was out of work for 3 weeks. i finally get back into work and things are starting to get better or so it seems...

my boyfriend decides to quit his job because he feels they have been doing him wrong, he decides to work with this guy he had been working for about 2 to 3 years. the guy told him everyone was getting 40 hours plus, well he found out quickly it was a lie and that they were barely getting 20 hours a week. so, he quit thinking he'd be able to get another job with his skills..... i guess he didn't realize the economy we're in...

so, he's been getting work ever so often, not every day like he's been led to believe by numerous folks... they say yes we will be working tomorrow, when he calls or shows up at the job site, its "oh, sorry we meant to tell you, "...

now he did apply for a job where my mom works, where he stocks at night... him and a friend... his friend still has a job and he guess what? he gets a callback on labor day for him to start work this upcoming Monday.... no phone call for my honey :(

and amidst all of this the bills are still rolling in one by one and the all are due on the same day, a day of course i can't accommodate... so of course, i make as many payment arrangements as possible... but payment arrangements cant be made for rent...

i remember the nasty letter we received because my boyfriend had turned in the payment 1 day late because he was at the hospital with me.... i doubt it'll be any different...


also, all my funding for college has been canceled because the school had be listed an out of state student, once i corrected that all my loans become null and void, i have no funding whatsoever. i've had to drop all my classes and i'll have to return all my books.

school was one of the things i looked forward to, since i work at a job that absolutely hate and i swear the stress from it makes me sickly.

right now, i'm pretty scared and worried and i have no idea of what to do.......

please please don't!

me: i'm getting my ears pierced
boyfriend: no you're not
me: what? well i'm not getting the lobes pierced that's already been done, i'm getting both of my tragus' pierced so i can wear some rocks
boyfriend: you need to stay tom boy!
me: please, pleaaase do not call me a tom boy infront of my mom, she would be so upset
boyfriend: LOL
me: i'm serious, she's spent a lot of time trying to make me as girlie as possible and it'd break her heart if you said that, it'd confirm that all her attempts have failed
boyfriend: LOL
me: ha :(