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Monday, November 28th, 2011
3:53 pm
Breathe just breathe, yes self love, you did love that incredibly and the fullest of the full of all of your life. BREATHE THE REAL LOVE, THE REAL TRUST, BREATHE.

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Thursday, November 24th, 2011
8:29 pm
Beauty is what I believe in, I trust in beauty to give peace to my heart, I find it when I am alone, dancing in the temple of my heart.

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Sunday, November 20th, 2011
3:33 pm
Here I am again today, a definite yet small increase in energy, some more clarity, but still I am quite lost and confused, I don't really like to hold this space for myself, but yet I need to express myself correctly at the moment. My room is seeming to be a lost cause, I am unable to really find something that I actually can do. So my duty at this moment is to be online, and to find a source for my unending mind chatter, which I am trying but at the moment failing to put a cap on the endless chatter. I can't find a source for my joy at this time, it's actually, to really admit it, is completely devastating to my soul and spirit. that is all.

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Saturday, November 19th, 2011
12:34 pm - New shores abound
to my daughter of the earth

I've excitedly decided to start journaling here again, to support my web businesses I will become one with the computer world again. Yay, Jai ma!

I first really would love to speak about this fabulous journey of almost 7 years of living on the Hawaiian Islands, and for myself to remember all the lessons I am continually and excitedly learning here on the Island of Maui.

I will begin with today, today started very well, but yet a feeling of disconnection from my indian medicine path, feeling too hyper and almost outside of my body and my emotional space. My room is still floating in the land of no return, and strangely suprises me on a regular basis in how much of my energy of love and light has disintegrated. Sadly I still am depressed about the past, referring to my first 3 years here. It's been an immense crazy intense process of release and understanding on the Isle of Maui. I am really trying to create more of a process for myself, becoming aware of all these subconcious tendencies to look outside of myself for an incredible list of so called "abandonment issues" my inner child is very wounded. In this I've been trying to cultivate an awareness, so I may easily shift into a higher more loving perspective rather than a victim, blame, fear, depressed, sad, or negative viewpoint.

I've once again run into the "fear of the masculine" based upon my feeling that I cannot be enough myself. Which isn't true. So in hindsight, I've realized that this is the point where I connect to my own source of LOVE, which is called meditation, centering, grounding, becoming ONE with all of life. Beyond the mind that grasps and tries to cling to apparent "Gods" outside of myself. Really it's all a reflection, and I am learning that I can connect with my DIVINE MIND, which is fun and loving. I am currently really working with this pattern, of co-dependency on the outside world, not trusting that what I have to do, is actually what I want to do, even though there isn't the riches in front of me, they are absolutely on the way, futhermore, It's all inside me anyways, so no worries really :)

I hope there is still some lovely communities here on Livejournal to connect with fellow earthlings :)

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Saturday, March 28th, 2009
2:27 pm

as we gather
we gather
together in unity, uniting a one people one color one earth
we gather the innermost starry qualities
to speak our truth

singing the freedom song
its for freedom we've been set free
by releasing ourselves, we release others
through inward realization

and conscious actualization

we can integrate our past and our present

and live in the love of the true now moment.
which is here with us now. love and light divine.

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Monday, February 16th, 2009
3:05 pm

so time has indeed changed me
reminded me time and time again of my legacy with the trees
and the pasttimes that encompass and encircle and guide the energies
that flow through my fragile branches, whether it be the underbelly of my extended arms,
or my voice that resembles howls and sometimes my voice flutters and is quiet like a gentle
whisper.on the end of transformation page infinity and the flutter of my voice echoes like the
texture of a butterfly,
on the edge of a new beginning a new start
rhythms that never leave my side, that are now my dance, my step my swirl and twirl and spin
which started with a feeling in the heart, then which quickly turned into a hope, a way, a wey of life.

a way to love, with the earth and with the flight of a golden dove.

isis flowered wings and songs of renewal and honor for self renewal
regeneration and generations of sisters an mothers and daughter
continuing forever and forever more.the gift of the medicine, ayahuasca,
letting go of the old self to create a golden bridge of freedom and celebration in the new self

rage of the letting go of my chaos
to embrace unknown moments of self discovery for
mother earth, who i embody and embrace every single moment

going within to bears tears

jaguar tears and guidance dancing clearly above the night sky
he who follows his heart,
in this dream

right to the root of creation

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Saturday, December 20th, 2008
12:57 pm

Self Love

and Gratitude

Graces us with the presence of our divine selves, and our beautiful ways of relating to one another.

Heart of Water
I bless all the waters in my body
Today, let's begin within and bless all the waters in our body. You see, as our blessed Heart beats true with Love and Gratitude, waters will begin to mirror Divinity within, creating ripples of time, expressing Life sublime while thoughts projecting inner reflectings serve to create Now.


Everyone into a state of Grace through the power of Gratitude.
Life is a series of streaming koan's.

So, once and for all, let's settle this one:

Whether it be half empty or full ...

Let's always give thanks for the CUP.

As for the ebb and flow - the rise and fall -

the come and go that affects us all, consider this:

Without spilling, drinking, tipping or sipping,

there is no room for NOW to fill you UP. C?


Go Gratitude!


Remember ~ the cup is YOU

~ Gratitude is the give and receive,

the drink and the pour,

a space for Love to be less IS more.

Ahhhhh ... refreshing, indeed!


Inside or outside yourself, you never have to change what you see, only the way you see it.
~ Thaddeus Golas

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Monday, November 17th, 2008
3:52 pm

Living in Love

tones and resonance
when i feel
the dance ode to dance
the right moment
is calling
to dance
to the heart
of it all
i am willing
liquid mind

Sunflower Father Essence
Aspiring Sun dew magick dew on
bellies birthing
path of the shaman wolf
self steady
self ready
to receive

Grandmother says you must become your new father and mother


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2:14 pm

I am an angel
we are wings
we are guidance
we, who dance
we are guided
and protected
through, by, love and light
love lives inside of me
with blood in my river of veins
flowing, growing, letting go
to the beginning, beginning again
till the end, which i begin again
a beautiful weaving of innermost
seashell colored threads of muscle
and sinew and communication of ancient
streams of conciousness and
mother earth.

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Saturday, November 1st, 2008
3:15 pm
I can show you the world
Earth sister, let your heart decide
let me open your eyes to the wind
to feeling a whole newness and accepting
I never knew Un believable sights
can i push you
can i tumble and roll around with you
i cant go back to where to i used to be
time to spare
page turned
you stopped loving me
a lone looking at the october moon
like a crescent
i'd imagined us years together, legs braided together
i'd be gone and you'd still want me near in the way
it used to be, we, she and he being there when the
feeling was there, knowing my beauty like your own
i will write songs for you in tones that i remember to be
eyes big and brown, big big and green like the legs of a sunflower garden
i crossed this bridge, I did it. yes yes yes yes. im an earth child woman
spirit dancer
o god to i love to dance the golden thread of blood and sinew and bone and stones
my friends
what more could your love do for me?
i cant help but keep loving you
blackened night and lighter lighter
love and dance happiness
of letting you go
respect for your lesson
as you stopped loving me
ii cry and want to kick your ass
YOUR OLD!!!! 23
brought from the wreckage of your silent reverie
in th e arms of an angel comfort and protection is found
honorable queen and king i honor all as queens and kings

i didnt mean for you to get hurt
it started at a a feeling
which then grew into a hope
which then turned into a quiet thought
which then turned into a quiet word
and then that word grew louder and louder until it was a battle cry
i'll come back when you call me
and a look for you to see
we'll come back when we call me
no need to say goodbye
just because everything is changing
doesnt means its never been this way before
now we are back to the beginning
itrs just a feeling
and no windows yet
and just because they can feel it to doesnt mean you have to forget
let your memories grow stronger and stronger
till there before your eyes
you;ll come back when they call you
no need to say goodbye
they'll come back when they call you
raven hair
moonbow hips
sparks fly from her finger tips
echoe crosses in the night
shes a restless spirit on an endless flight
she got the moon in her eyes
rainbow king and queen
she is golden, that is her.
nothings ever felt this way
your to blame
nothing is ever the same
this ishow you remind you of who i really and what i really am
i was waiting on a different story
this time im mistaken for handing you a heart worth breaken
i've been wrong i've been down
i still love
i knew you
i met anthnony
how much posssiblity lies before you
the power and beauty you hold
id always act for you to you to see you
to be closer
444446 64444
she shines golden
free the energy

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Monday, October 27th, 2008
11:11 am
light the lanterns
of the octurnal mamasita
summers lips and hips
turned to heart and art
ilong to kiss every hair on your head
angel feather
make the connection
sacred fuschia beauty

Kindle My Heart (Song from the Little Princess)

As the moon kindles the night
As the wind kindles the fire
As the rain fills every ocean
And the sun, the earth
With your heart, kindle my heart
(Alternate lyric: Your heart will kindle my heart)

Take my heart
Take my heart
Kindle it with your heart
And my heart
Cannot be
Kindled without you
With your heart
Kindle my heart

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Saturday, October 25th, 2008
5:44 pm
Forget your troubles
Come on get happy
You better chase all you cares away
Sing hallelujah
Come on get happy
Get ready for the judgement day

The sun is shining
Come on get happy
The lord is waiting to take your hand
Shout hallelujah
Come on get happy
We're going to the promised land

We're heading across the river
Wash your sins away in the tide
It's all so peaceful on the other side

Forget your troubles
Come on get happy
You better chase all you cares away
Shout hallelujah
Come on get happy
Get ready for the judgement day

Forget your troubles
Come on get happy
chase your cares away
shout Hallelujah
get happy
For the judgement day

The sun is shining
Come on get happy
The lord is waiting to take your hand
Shout hallelujah
get happy
We're going to be goin to the promised land

We're heading across the river
Wash your sins away in the tide
It's quiet and peaceful on the other side

Forget your troubles
Get happy
Your cares fly away
Shout hallelujah
Get happy
Get ready for your judgement day

Come on get happy
Chase your cares away
Shout hallelujah
Come on get happy
Get ready for the judgement day

The sun is shining
Come on get happy
The lord is waiting to take your hand
shout Hallelujah
Come on get happy
We're going to the promised land

heading across the river
Wash your sins away in the tide
It's all so peaceful on the other side

Shout hallelujah
Come on get happy
You better chase all your cares away
sing hallelujah
Come on get happy
Get ready

Get ready

Get ready

For your judgement day

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Saturday, September 13th, 2008
5:37 pm

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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
11:42 am

the real woman's
one little chance to try again
one little bird girl
its a wonder
to soar
the whole world knows my name
it's written in the stars
i'll see it by and by

“Real love hurts,

real love makes you totally open and vulnerable,

real love will take you far behind yourself,

and therefore

real love will devastate you,

if love does not shatter you,

you will not know love.”


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Monday, August 11th, 2008
12:18 pm
the king
of lions
the queen excited to know
that she is he
he exists.
it takes courage to edure the edge
endure sensousuality
growing up gradually
uniting with the one
and the many sources
of healing
the mother
of me
and my truth
and whole
connecting to source
intention, completely.
cleanse me
illuminate me
shine through me
all ways
i just want you around
you are
a circle
in which i am through you
above and below
all around i am.
heaven and earth
the bluest of blues
the deepest sexy earth
dirt on my feet
oh yeah babee

Silver moon of clarity
of mother of ceremony
bringing it in
for cleansing for clearing
I choose to bring the light
and love of the world
into my heart
of heart
rest now my closest knowing
on my lap of understanding
in the hills, and the mountains
where i wait to greet the morning light
and to see with awareness
the gentlest needed to heal the deep
to fly into the valley of the shadow
of death
and return with light in one's heart
a journey, reminding of the gift of
enternity, of immortality
of the foreverness of the NOW
the depth of the love of the heart
the path of the heart
the guidance of the mother
the love in your heart, is
always growing, always i remember
Goddess that shines the light shining light
the darkness reminds me of the moon
she surprises you with her light and her
special love, of all things as they are
as they chose to be, this that or the other
whatever way they are. the way, the great way
that brings you and leads you forward every
way, on the path of seasons and change.
there is hope, in the holding of hands
and the promise of forever. a loving
eternal love, forever kept in the heart.
given to example, for others to see, for
me to keep close, to give away but always
this cup i drinketh and fill through the love
that has always been. go deeper, deeper the love

the glory of the newness of the now connection to communication
blue flow blue know of now
blues blue eyes,
blue water
stories, dreams, pages turning
sun that purifies like fire.
the reminder that the sun will always shine
the new day
a new way
forever yayay
bearing medicine
be hold
hold tight to yourself, sleep close to mama bear
be hold


so proud to have to know
to have felt such goodness
all goodness of ever more
it's never too late
orange sunsets that rise to the mountains of tomorrow
shades of yellow and pink roses and kissing noses
shanoe she knows she grows
flowers on the altar of our earthly mother
how we forget our soulds are forever
there's a reason for it all
i understand
brighter and higher and higher

the precision of sound that rings
in my ear like thousands of bells tiny bells
to show me the way
i will never let you go,
the love will grow
into a rose bush
of the most
of the sweetest
blossoms of truth
bird man
manu-'ehu kane
kiva rose
but, strong, willful, and vibrantly feminine, she comes back.
lover of the way
of the heart


I offer you silver light,
coiled like sister snake
swirling and swimming a
dark depth

I give it to you as an offering because it is a part of me.
Because some days, it is all of me.
I give it to you as a gift, you who the wise ones says want all of me.
I give it to you as a gift to see what you will make of it.
What will you do then,
with this pain that drains from the trinity of my eyes and the bridge of my nose?
What will you make of this dark offering?

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Monday, August 4th, 2008
6:43 pm

Sunflower Sister
Sunflower Sister
Bringing the buffallo wisdom
she carries, she holds,
the gift of life
I am the wind
I am the wind
I am the breeze
gently oh so gentle
does she sing
so deep within you'll find
a seed that sings
to grow
the flower of
our love
oh together
within the heart of of love
you are always in the loving presence of the mother
the great way of the mother is always made known
when you look inside
there is the
i just want you around
like a circle
earthly sky like the wisdom
of all eye could ever know

the moment we
beyond eternity

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Thursday, February 7th, 2008
8:47 am

so the wheel of trust turns
earth the air the fire the water
i remember to use what i need.
to cleanse with the water
connect with fire of my soul
soleil sol sunny sue
the earth is my groundedness
buffalo brothers. oh so gentle
are my fingers, oh my touch
gently do i do.
chakra alignment and carnelian dragons
bring me a will to live
a cave, with orange walls representing
the will
my solar plexus my connection source.
sunlight and love and light.
sweeet spanish soothing songs for the she is me
i am the she
of dreams, of earth records songs and wisdom.

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Friday, January 25th, 2008
6:59 pm

this is my little abode in maui, with the mother maui of the winds

in the garden

i am FRee

where the faeries dance amongst the leaves

i am wholly free.

my love. mother maui.

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Sunday, January 6th, 2008
1:41 am
Heal the Earth

The girl in "Heal the Earth" has sent healing energy into the crystals that she plants in the earth. This energy is sent through concentration and love. She is surrounded by spirits representing the four elements. A Sylph or fairy of the air hovers in great interest over her right shoulder. A fish-tailed Nymph from a nearby pond brings water as a symbol of healing and love. An earth Gnome rests comfortably near the spade used to gently part the soil. A nearby Salamander supplies energy. Salamanders were considered fire spirits due to the fact that in ancient times they would hide in logs, and appear scampering away when the fire was lit.

"I call upon the Universal Power that flows through everything.
My Earth, my Mother is in need, I bring to her this healing deed.
By warming sun and cooling breeze,
To ancient mountains, towering trees,
To mysterious oceans pulled by the moon,
To fertile soil from which life blooms.
I send to her loving energy, healing power, so mote it be!"

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1:28 am - Moon Ritual Post
Perform this at night, in the view of the Moon if possible. It is appropriate for crescents, white flowers, silver and other lunar symbols to be present on the altar for this ritual. The quartz crystal sphere can be placed on the altar as well.
Or, if you prefer, use the cauldron (or a small white or silver bowl) filled with water. Place a piece of silver into the water.

Arrange the altar, light the candles and censer, and cast the Circle of Stones.

Stand beforethe altar andinvoke the Goddess and God, with the Blessing Chant and/or any other invocations.

Now gaze at the Moon, if possible. Feel its energies sinking into your body. Feel its cool Goddess energy wash you with power and love.
Now say these or similar words:

Wondrous Lady of the Moon
You who greets the dark with silvered kisses
Mistress of the night and all magicks,
who rides the clouds in blackened skies
and spills light upon cold Earth.
Oh Lunar Goddess
Crescent one
Shadow maker and shadow breaker,
Revealer of mysteries past and present,
Puller of seas and ruler of women
All-wise Lunar Mother
I greet your celestial jewel
at the waxing of its powers
with a rite in Your honor
I prey by the moon
I prey by the moon
I prey by the moon

Continue chanting "I pray bythe Moon" for as long as you will.
Visualize the Goddess if you so desire, perhaps as a tall, robust woman wearing silver jewelry and white, rippling, draped clothing. A crescent Moon may rest upon Her brow, or She may toss a glowing silvery white orb in Her hands. She treads the starfield of eternal night in an eternal round with Her lover, the Sun God, spreading moonrays wherever She goes. Her eyes laugh, Her skin is white and translucent. She glows.

Now is the time for magick of all types, forthe full ofthe Moon marks the height of its powers, and all positive spells cast then are powerful.

FullMoons are also excellent times for meditation, mirror magick and psychic workings, for such are often more successful within the circle. Crystal-scrying is particularly recommended; flood the crystal with moonlight prior to the ritual. If you have no crystal sphere, use the cauldron filled with water and the piece of silver.
Gaze at the water (or at the Moon glinting on the silver) to awaken your psychic awareness.

Thank the Goddess and God and release the circle.

Exerpted from the book Wicca: A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner
by Scott Cunningham.

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