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1. hd_holidays reveals are up! :D a lot of my favourite fics from the fest were written by people i've never heard of, which i LOVE. some of my favourite authors also wrote fics that i didn't get around to reading, which means i've got enough reading material to keep me occupied for the next few days \o/

2. omg someone wrote a 95k fic for camelotsolstice o_o i tried to read it, but the paragraphs are really dense, and i couldn't focus. if anyone finishes it, let me know how it is.

3. i filled a kinkme_merlin prompt yesterday. i got all excited about finally finishing something, then i realised what i wrote was god awful two seconds after i finished posting it to the comm and had a little guilt attack where i felt bad for the person who posted the prompt. so, yeah. thank god for anonymity.

4. in happier news, the golden globes are tonight! they've got a history of favouring audience-friendly films, which means avatar might have a chance at nabbing best drama. IF IT DOESN'T, I WILL CRY.


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i'm leaving for a four-month stay in london on wednesday night, and i'm having difficulty deciding what coat to bring. i'm definitely wearing my peacoat, but people keep telling me different things about raincoats and overcoats and trench coats, and i feel like maybe i should invest in something knee-length. do any of the londoners on my flist have advice for choosing a coat that won't make me look like a ridiculous american tourist? should i bring a down jacket, or is it not worth wasting space in my suitcase? why am i even freaking out over something so trivial?

angsty post is angsty

i always feel sad as the year draws to a close. that's when i look back on the year fandom had and realise how drastically we've changed as we've aged. i was moving some of my fic bookmarks over to delicious today, and one of the ones i transferred was beautiful world. that was the fic that introduced me to slash. i still remember how i felt when i read it three years ago: torn apart by the story and amazed that a piece of fiction could do that to me. irresistible poison, eclipse, sex magic, bond, love under will, underwater light -- remember those? they were my training wheels when i first discovered H/D fandom. some of them i adored, others i couldn't get into, but H/D fandom wouldn't be the same without them.

back then, writing H/D was an entirely different craft. almost all H/D fics were set in hogwarts. stories were chaptered and posted on schnoogle or FF.net. the angst was more situational than emotional -- it came from war, fighting for survival, forced allegiances, family obligations, and house rivalries. we had an open canon: no one knew what would happen next, and some of the best stories would be become AU the moment we got a new book.

our harry and draco aren't fumbling teenage boys sneaking around behind their housemates' backs anymore. they have nothing to fear from death eaters and voldemort. forget N.E.W.T.s and quidditch; they're adults, and they have children, marriage, and work to deal with. yeah, we still have murder mysteries and 8th year fics, but there's a certain maturity to the H/D fandom closing the decade that its younger counterpart didn't have.

the worst part is waiting for fandom's inevitable demise. we only have two movies left to go. i don't think HP fandom will ever completely disappear, but it sure as hell is dwindling. some of our best writers have left already. people (myself included) are losing interest, and it's kind of painful to see it happening. i know things change, but it sucks that it has to happen to something that was the only stable thing i had during my horrible teenage years.

btw, here's the picture that prompted this impromptu sobfest:

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Colin Morgan as Clementine?

I had this crazy (and kickass, at the time) idea during my plane ride home that I should spend my three weeks of winter break writing an epic Merlin/Arthur modern AU fic based on Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. I wrote two pages of it, then realised that I'd run out of ideas that were anywhere near as brilliant as the ones in the movie and promptly stopped. LOL @ MY LIFE.

But seriously. I really want to write that fic. Or at least read it. *trots over to kinkme_merlin*
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*squeeee* I woke up this morning to find six months of paid time in my inbox. THANK YOU SO MUCH, PAID ACCOUNT FAIRY! ♥

The rest of my ontdai_wishes wish list is over here. Whoever came up with this idea is awesome. I don't do Christmas gift exchanges with my friends or family, so I love being able to give people whatever I can.

Here, have a Merlin rec to make up for the boring post: Something Fragile (When You Hold Your Breath) by ras_elased. It's a WIP (;___;) with only one chapter, but the first chapter is a masterpiece. Strip club? Check. Lap dance? Yup. Struggling-artist!Merlin who spends his night giving lap dances in said strip club? YOU BETCHA.

Fic stuff

I've been catching up on a lot of Merlin fanfic lately, and it made me realise how much I miss fandom. AI fandom isn't the same, because tbh, as much as I love reading Kradam fic it doesn't really touches me, plus most AI fic is god awful. Then I decided to go back to H/D fic for a bit. I just reread A Thousand Yesterdays and bawled through the entire thing.

I'm trying to write SKOM for what feels like the millionth time. It's hard -- I was a different person when I wrote that fic, and I can't reconnect with the mindset I was in back then. I don't know if this attempt will be successful, but we'll see. If it is, I should have a chapter up by tonight.

Meanwhile, check out this amazing Merlin fic: Until the Pieces Fit
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Celebrity post

1. LOVE Adam Lambert. He handled the hint at his sexuality so well. I kinda wish he'd been out with a guy, though -- that would've made every headline on the internetz.

2. Danny Gokey is adorable. I know that's an unpopular opinion, but there it is. I wish I'd been at the Grove when he was there :(

3. Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson gross me out. They both come off as hardcore white trash, idk. The constant smoking/perpetual air of wastedness/looking like they just fucked in back of a club stuff totally rubs me in the wrong way. I hate that it's ~cool~ among teenage girls to aspire to be like them.

I've been having issues figuring out housing for next year, but other than that, things have been going well for me today. Went to a luncheon for Annenberg's Communication Leadership Scholars today and found out I'll get the opportunity to work with Maria Shriver on an upcoming project about the modern woman's place in society next year. Exciting stuff :D Also nabbed an interview for an internship at Metromix! The guy who called me to let me know asked whether I watch AI, which of course led to an awesome discussion about Adam Lambert.

Hope you guys are doing well ♥ I've been getting a lot of emails and messages about SKoM lately -- I promise I'll work on it as soon as I get settled down into my summer routine.
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1. Turned down ICS and a guaranteed spot in London Fall 2009 in hopes of getting into London Spring 2010 :x If I don't get in, I will be most upset. I'm kind of nervous, but I really can't afford to go right now, so I guess this is the best I can do.

2. I have two internship interviews this week! One's for a field marketing position at Universal Pictures (basically... everything) and the other's for a creative development position at Valhalla Motion Pictures (Armageddon, The Incredible Hulk). I really, really want the field marketing internship at Universal. I met Erik Gonzalez, one of the heads of the department, at an Annenberg event. Hopefully he remembers me :x

3. This season of AI = amazing. A top 5 of Adam, Matt, Kris, Allison, and Danny would make my LIFE.

4. I think I have strep throat :(

5. Follow me on Twitter!
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I miss fandom :( I want to get back into writing. I meant to this spring break, but I didn't have any time. A recent surge of new friends (which I'll assume is SKOM-related -- whoever recced me, thank you ♥) made me look back at my fics, and now I miss H/D. I really want to finish SKOM, but I don't even know where to start. Oh, and I miss Merlin. A lot. I might even write a Merlin ficlet tonight, if I can get this application finished in time.

Update on my summer study abroad plans: I was one of 16 people accepted to the ICS program (the one that goes to London, Paris, Prague, and Rome in a month), but my parents balked and went back on their promise to pay when they saw how much the plane tickets alone are going to cost ($2,000 -- the whole program will cost about $6,000, and that's with my scholarship paying for tuition). I don't know if I'll be able to go now :( I considered paying for it myself, but as of now I don't know my financial aid results for next year, so I don't know if I'll be able to get a job to pay back whatever loan I take out. If I can't find a way to pay, I guess I'll have to cross my fingers and hope the film development internship I interviewed for last week still wants me :S

Meanwhile, I've got American Idol slash to keep me entertained...

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