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  • 31st Mar, 2008 at 11:22 PM
DONE AND SENT!!! *wipes brow* That was a challenge. Under any other circumstances, I definitely would NOT have been able to push out my hd_worldcup fic in two weeks. I kind of wish I'd gone for something shorter, but I'm not that great at planning emotion-packed stories under pressure. I think I did the best I could given the time I had and the fact that this was my first fest, though.



The more I think about it, the happier I am that I got the chance to participate in this fest. Like I said, I wish I could have had the entire two months to plan and write a better fic, but I tried my hardest with the one I had and I don't regret anything.

One of the best parts was getting to interact with some of the best authors and artists in fandom. It was so much fun watching them go through the steps they take to get to their finished products. Before it was like, okay, *idolises furiosity and mahaliem for their perfect writing*, but now it's like, OMGWTF THEY MAKE TYPOS? THEY'RE NORMAL PEOPLE TOO?!?!

As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, I learned a lot about writing and where I stand in fandom right now, both from observing the other authors work and from talking to some of them. tbh, I pretty much thought I was invincible when I made the move from D/Hr on MNFF to H/D on LJ. I mean, yeah, I knew that my previous fics sort of (LOL, sort of?!) sucked, but I thought I could get away with that. Honestly, can you blame me? When you're the third most favourited author on one of the biggest HP fanfiction archives on the internet at the age of 15, you start getting ahead of yourself before you even know what you're up against. Not to criticise MNFF, because I'll always love that archive for getting me started on writing (I would have otherwise quit for lack of reviews on FF.net, haha), but that isn't exactly the best place to get a good scope of the kinds and levels of fanfiction on the internet. The fact that I was third based on abominations such as "Meant To Be" and "The Sweetest Sin" just proves it :P

So when I started writing H/D, I was under the impression that all I had to do to reach instant fame was whip up a fic or two. LOL WRONG. A year hasn't really got me anywhere, mostly because I've only recently realised that my writing is NOT as brilliant as I thought it was. To be fair, I think a small part of this has to do with the vast differences in style between ship fandoms. I won't go into that, thought, because I'll probably end up rambling and making a lot of generalisations (there are always exceptions!). The main point is that I've still a long, LONG way to go. I used to think good grammar and spelling and an interesting plot were all a fic needed to be spectacular. Once again, YEAH RIGHT. Those are just the tip of the iceburg.

I've also acquired a really important quality that I was most unfortunately missing before hd_worldcup: the ability to take criticism. I've always found flames pretty amusing, but when it came to coherent criticism, constructive or not, I used to be hurt really easily because it meant that there was something truly wrong with my fic. I guess I just didn't want to consider the possibility that I COULD improve, because then it'd be like, girl you've been writing for four years and you're still not perfect? I feel better now, though. I'd rather get an honest opinion from someone who doesn't idolise me (and I say this with as much humility as possible, because there really are a few people who do... to which I respond by telling them to go read the H/D fics on LJ) than be told... well, nothing useful. Really, go ahead and rip apart my writing (in a non-flamey way) as much as you want, because each time you do, you humble me a bit more (SOMETHING I OBV. NEED VERY MUCH, and sorry for all the parentheses, I have a tendency to overuse them) :P

SO, in conclusion, I'm glad my bubble's been popped, because now I can start working harder to improve. If my hd_worldcup fic isn't received too well, I'll be upset (mostly for my team), but it won't be the end of the world. There are still tons of fests for me to participate in and learn from. Yay for new beginnings! :D



Dude, I can't believe I just wrote all of that. Procrastination is in full force tonight. *eyes mountain of homework*

Okay, now that this is all over, I can go back to writing SKOM. It's going to take a while to get back into it, since I'm stuck in adult!H/D mode now, but I definitely want to finish the story, even if it takes the rest of my college career for me to do so :P

And finally... c_potter, I love you! You WILL get into USC, or the admissions office will be hearing from me. Because I already do too much shit for them, and the least they could in return is not be stupid about who they admit. ♥
excited

Comments

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mahaliem
mahaliem wrote:
1st Apr, 2008 15:03 (UTC)
I think it's wonderful and amazing that you wrote a story in two weeks. I think it's even more wonderful that you're striving to improve your abilities.

Criticism can be hard to take at times, depending on how it's presented. Personally, when I'm still at the writing stage, almost anything can be said to me by my betas about what I'm working on. (The most memorable comment I ever got from a beta was "WTF?" which made me howl in laughter and that story was trashed because she was so very right.)

Criticism after a story is finished, polished, etc. feels a bit different to me, especially as it is usually unsolicited.

Also, I'm terribly flattered that you like my writing, but typos are the least of my problems. Since I think I make a typo every other sentence, that's saying something.
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
1st Apr, 2008 22:53 (UTC)
Hee, thank you :D

I definitely agree about criticism. I'd much rather someone tell me if my fic is a hot mess before I actually put a lot of time and effort into finishing it and sprucing it up. I think WTF comments like the one your beta gave you are usually the best kind, because then there's no way of mistaking their first impression XD

And okay, at the risk of scaring you off, I really do think you're brilliant and I freaking love/rec your fics like they're the last ones I'll ever read. *will stop fangirling now, lol*
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
1st Apr, 2008 22:53 (UTC)
Hee, thank you :D

I definitely agree about criticism. I'd much rather someone tell me if my fic is a hot mess before I actually put a lot of time and effort into finishing it and sprucing it up. I think WTF comments like the one your beta gave you are usually the best kind, because then there's no way of mistaking their first impression XD

And okay, at the risk of scaring you off, I really do think you're brilliant and I freaking love/rec your fics like they're the last ones I'll ever read. *will stop fangirling now, lol*
c_potter wrote:
2nd Apr, 2008 02:04 (UTC)
I am so very sorry that I can't come to school with you anymore. No matter what, though, I hope to be your *wifey* and of course, your fan. Reading your epiphany made me realize what sort of writer you really are. I knew you took ff very seriously, but I had no idea of how deeply it has affected your life. You inspire me. I have always thought your writing was the best... BAR NONE. I don't know how exactly to go about praising your writing; you know how much I love it and support it. It's been a privilege to be able to read your ff, and as your writing grows more and more mature and even more wonderful, I'll still be here :)

Simply put, you are an amazing writer, and most of all, and amazing friend. I LOVE YOUUUUU!

On another note, I wish I got into USC. So very badly. I don't even want to bother appealing. 19 out of 626 appeals accepted? UGH.
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
2nd Apr, 2008 03:30 (UTC)
Okay, Chungsol, can I just say right now how much I love you? Because I do. I can't believe we met because of my D/Hr fanfiction, LOL. I have to say, that's one of the only reasons why I don't regret writing The Sweetest Sin. If I could only inspire one person in life, it would definitely be you, though I have to say there's nothing very inspiring about my attempt to not fail completely in the fanfiction world :P

Moving onto the more important point here. DON'T YOU DARE APOLOGISE FOR USC'S IDIOCY. I really wish you would appeal the decision (you got into an IVY, dear... I think that counts for something ♥), but I won't pressure you into doing anything. And hey, if for some reason you don't like the school you end up going to, there's always the option of transferring! I have a friend in my year who's transferring over here from another school next year, and it's not a difficult process at all.

I'm pretty depressed that we won't be able to squee over Mark Sanchez, football, and Harry Potter together next year, but it's not the end of the world! You still have three decisions left, and I'm positive you'll get into at LEAST one of them. LOL imagine if you got into UMich and WashU... that would just go to show how fucked up college admissions are, since I got waitlisted by both :] Actually, tbh, the fact that you got into an ivy with a scholarship and not into USC is already pretty solid proof that ADMISSIONS SUCK BALLS.

♥ ♥ ♥

(Oh my gosh, sorry for rambling so much, I probably went over the comment limit.)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
2nd Apr, 2008 03:30 (UTC)
Okay, Chungsol, can I just say right now how much I love you? Because I do. I can't believe we met because of my D/Hr fanfiction, LOL. I have to say, that's one of the only reasons why I don't regret writing The Sweetest Sin. If I could only inspire one person in life, it would definitely be you, though I have to say there's nothing very inspiring about my attempt to not fail completely in the fanfiction world :P

Moving onto the more important point here. DON'T YOU DARE APOLOGISE FOR USC'S IDIOCY. I really wish you would appeal the decision (you got into an IVY, dear... I think that counts for something ♥), but I won't pressure you into doing anything. And hey, if for some reason you don't like the school you end up going to, there's always the option of transferring! I have a friend in my year who's transferring over here from another school next year, and it's not a difficult process at all.

I'm pretty depressed that we won't be able to squee over Mark Sanchez, football, and Harry Potter together next year, but it's not the end of the world! You still have three decisions left, and I'm positive you'll get into at LEAST one of them. LOL imagine if you got into UMich and WashU... that would just go to show how fucked up college admissions are, since I got waitlisted by both :] Actually, tbh, the fact that you got into an ivy with a scholarship and not into USC is already pretty solid proof that ADMISSIONS SUCK BALLS.

♥ ♥ ♥

(Oh my gosh, sorry for rambling so much, I probably went over the comment limit.)
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