The more I think about it, the happier I am that I got the chance to participate in this fest. Like I said, I wish I could have had the entire two months to plan and write a better fic, but I tried my hardest with the one I had and I don't regret anything.
One of the best parts was getting to interact with some of the best authors and artists in fandom. It was so much fun watching them go through the steps they take to get to their finished products. Before it was like, okay, *idolises furiosity and mahaliem for their perfect writing*, but now it's like, OMGWTF THEY MAKE TYPOS? THEY'RE NORMAL PEOPLE TOO?!?!
As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, I learned a lot about writing and where I stand in fandom right now, both from observing the other authors work and from talking to some of them. tbh, I pretty much thought I was invincible when I made the move from D/Hr on MNFF to H/D on LJ. I mean, yeah, I knew that my previous fics sort of (LOL, sort of?!) sucked, but I thought I could get away with that. Honestly, can you blame me? When you're the third most favourited author on one of the biggest HP fanfiction archives on the internet at the age of 15, you start getting ahead of yourself before you even know what you're up against. Not to criticise MNFF, because I'll always love that archive for getting me started on writing (I would have otherwise quit for lack of reviews on FF.net, haha), but that isn't exactly the best place to get a good scope of the kinds and levels of fanfiction on the internet. The fact that I was third based on abominations such as "Meant To Be" and "The Sweetest Sin" just proves it :P
So when I started writing H/D, I was under the impression that all I had to do to reach instant fame was whip up a fic or two. LOL WRONG. A year hasn't really got me anywhere, mostly because I've only recently realised that my writing is NOT as brilliant as I thought it was. To be fair, I think a small part of this has to do with the vast differences in style between ship fandoms. I won't go into that, thought, because I'll probably end up rambling and making a lot of generalisations (there are always exceptions!). The main point is that I've still a long, LONG way to go. I used to think good grammar and spelling and an interesting plot were all a fic needed to be spectacular. Once again, YEAH RIGHT. Those are just the tip of the iceburg.
I've also acquired a really important quality that I was most unfortunately missing before hd_worldcup: the ability to take criticism. I've always found flames pretty amusing, but when it came to coherent criticism, constructive or not, I used to be hurt really easily because it meant that there was something truly wrong with my fic. I guess I just didn't want to consider the possibility that I COULD improve, because then it'd be like, girl you've been writing for four years and you're still not perfect? I feel better now, though. I'd rather get an honest opinion from someone who doesn't idolise me (and I say this with as much humility as possible, because there really are a few people who do... to which I respond by telling them to go read the H/D fics on LJ) than be told... well, nothing useful. Really, go ahead and rip apart my writing (in a non-flamey way) as much as you want, because each time you do, you humble me a bit more (SOMETHING I OBV. NEED VERY MUCH, and sorry for all the parentheses, I have a tendency to overuse them) :P
SO, in conclusion, I'm glad my bubble's been popped, because now I can start working harder to improve. If my hd_worldcup fic isn't received too well, I'll be upset (mostly for my team), but it won't be the end of the world. There are still tons of fests for me to participate in and learn from. Yay for new beginnings! :D
Dude, I can't believe I just wrote all of that. Procrastination is in full force tonight. *eyes mountain of homework*
Okay, now that this is all over, I can go back to writing SKOM. It's going to take a while to get back into it, since I'm stuck in adult!H/D mode now, but I definitely want to finish the story, even if it takes the rest of my college career for me to do so :P
And finally... c_potter, I love you! You WILL get into USC, or the admissions office will be hearing from me. Because I already do too much shit for them, and the least they could in return is not be stupid about who they admit. ♥