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A Thousand Words (ch 7)

  • 27th Dec, 2005 at 1:02 PM
Blah this chapter's a bit short. What's also short is my patience with MNFF...honestly, they've neglected the site for way too long. *grumbles*

Title: A Thousand Words (ch 7)
Summary: Of talk of weddings, apologies, and lunatic demands.



Chapter 7: My Power over You Grows Stronger Yet


‘How sad!’

Hermione couldn’t help but agree with Ginny’s words. She, too, couldn’t help but feel anything other than sympathy for Shadow. He seemed so…lost.

‘“How do you melt a heart of ice”…that’s so romantic, Hermione! I think someone –’

Hermione quickly clamped a hand over Ginny’s mouth before she could finish her sentence. ‘Shh!’

Ginny pried Hermione’s hand away from her mouth and said quizzically, ‘Why?’

‘Ron might hear you,’ said Hermione uneasily. She looked towards the closed door as if expecting her boyfriend to be standing there. ‘You know how he was with just the mention of Shadow…’

‘Oh, and you’re starting to call him Shadow too,’ said Ginny teasingly, ignoring Hermione’s warning. ‘Not just “my pen pal” anymore, is it?’

Hermione rolled her eyes even though she could feel her cheeks beginning to heat up. ‘Ginny, I told you, he’s a friend. Besides, it’s not as if I would ever leave Ron for a man I know only by what he writes to me in his letters – romances, after all, don’t develop on parchment.’

Ginny’s expression suddenly became more serious as she said quietly, ‘But Hermione…you and Ron are having problems, aren’t you?’

Hermione turned away, unable to bring herself to answer Ginny’s question. Instead, she murmured, ‘Don’t tell him about this letter, okay?’

‘Don’t worry, I won’t,’ said Ginny reassuringly. ‘I want you to survive to attend my wedding.’

Hermione laughed. ‘Speaking of the wedding,’ she said pointedly, drawing out the last word, ‘when’s it going to be?’

‘We’re not even engaged yet,’ said Ginny, laughing, ‘so let’s not get ahead of ourselves with talk of weddings. Mum doesn’t want her little girl to marry at only 21, anyway.’

‘Surely Fred and George’s marriages – ?’

‘Oh, but they’re already “well established financially” according to Mum,’ said Ginny, pulling a sour face. ‘She apparently doesn’t think Harry having the second highest position in the Auror department is enough to support the two of us.’

‘I thought she wanted you to live with her,’ said Hermione, surprised.

‘She did,’ said Ginny, ‘but even living with her won’t due us much good…I mean, with Dad gone…’ Her voice trailed off and she seemed unsure of what to say next.

Hermione nodded quietly, knowing that the Weasleys had had a rough time getting back on their feet after the Second War and the murder of Mr Weasley. His death was rarely brought up in the house, for Mrs Weasley broke down into hysterical sobs everytime someone mentioned his name, but nevertheless, it was impossible to hide the fact that the family had lost one of their only sources of income when Mr Weasley died.

Thankfully, the twins had managed to pull their business back together in the nick of time. They, along with their older brothers Charlie and Bill, were able to support their family financially until Mrs Weasley picked up a job as a cook at The Three Broomsticks and Harry and Hermione went to live at the Burrow to help out around the house.

By now, Ginny had pulled herself back together and was explaining to Hermione how well her chase after a rising dark wizard by the name of Nocabsichten was going. Hermione listened to Ginny’s excited exclamations of how they had nearly caught him the other day, smiling and nodding at appropriate moments to give off the impression that she was paying close attention.

When Ginny at last paused to take breath, Hermione quickly interjected, ‘So how is the interdepartmental unity challenge going for you?’

‘My pen pal is a witch,’ Ginny explained. Her eyes twinkled as she added, ‘She’s not nearly as interesting as your Shadow.’

Hermione wrinkled her nose and protested, ‘He’s not my Shadow!’ Determined to move the topic of conversation off of her pen pal, she asked, ‘How many times has she written to you?’

‘We’ve both written to each other once.’

‘Only once?’

‘Well, we’re both busy!’

‘Ginny, don’t you think this is slightly more important than work?’

Ginny gaped at Hermione. ‘More important than work? I thought nothing was more important than work!’

‘Of course there are things more important than work,’ said Hermione with a glare. ‘And don’t laugh, Ginny; I’m being serious! The Ministry is right; we ought to make an attempt to get along with everyone. I can’t stand all of distrust between the workers.’

Before Hermione could reply, there came a knocking at the door.

‘Come in.’

The doorknob turned and Harry entered. He was grinning and holding a folded map in one hand.

‘Ginny, they’ve found him!’

Ginny’s hand flew to her mouth and she jumped off the bed to run over to Harry. ‘Where?’ she asked breathlessly once she was standing before him.

‘By the North Sea. Come on, we have to go round up the Hit Wizards,’ said Harry eagerly. His green eyes shone brightly behind his glasses as he grabbed Ginny’s hand and led her to the doorway. ‘Hermione, Ron wants to talk to you,’ he added with a smile in Hermione’s direction.

‘Okay, I’ll be down soon,’ said Hermione. She returned the smile. ‘Good luck, you two. You’ll have no problem catching him.’

‘Thanks!’ chorused Harry and Ginny in unison before leaving Hermione’s room and closing the door behind them.

Alone now, Hermione sighed and read over Shadow’s letter once more. Her heart ached painfully; she could nearly feel his forlorness through his words. She couldn’t help but wonder, fleetingly, why it was that his handwriting was so messy and crooked, for his earlier letters had been filled with straight, neat lines of long-practice cursive.

Though her fingers were itching to take hold of a quill and write a reply, Hermione forced herself off her bed. Harry had mentioned that Ron was looking for her, and Hermione did not want to push their already precarious relationship by not going to find him.

It did not take long for Hermione to locate Ron. He was downstairs, sitting at the kitchen table, and talking seriously with Fred. When Hermione approached them, Fred immediately stood up, uttered an unconvincing excuse about him needing to go feed his and Alicia’s baby (Hermione noted here that the said baby was, at the moment, nonexistant), and hurried out of the room.

Ron coughed abashedly and gestured at Fred’s vacant seat. Determined to force an apology out of Ron first this time, Hermione said nothing as she obediently sat down.

‘Er…’

Hermione watched Ron in stony silence, her arms folded and a scowl fixated firmly on her face.

‘Listen, I’m sorry, Hermione.’ The words seemed to tumble out of Ron’s mouth of their own accord.

Hermione fought away the smile that threatened to emerge by saying coldly, ‘It would be nice if you could explain what caused this sudden change of attitude.’

The redness at the tips of Ron’s ears seemed to spread to his cheeks as he said hotly, ‘Isn’t it enough that I apologised?’

‘No,’ responded Hermione bluntly. ‘From the looks of it, Fred put you up to it, so unless you can explain to me why you chose the say the words to me, you just wasted an apology.’

Ron spluttered angrily; then, after a few minutes, he seemed to decide that protestations wouldn’t be worth it in the long run, and said sullenly, ‘I was jealous that you were writing to this stranger when we hardly spend time together anymore. I didn’t think before I spoke.’

‘And?’ prompted Hermione.

‘And I’ll let you write to your pen pal without objection from now on,’ Ron finished, scowling noticeably.

Hermione felt her resolution to maintain a cold pretence crack when she saw how hard it was for Ron, whose dignity prevented him from uttering apologies on a regular basis, to attempt to make amends on his own. Thus, she smiled tentatively at him and said softly, ‘It’s okay, Ron. Don’t worry about it.’

An expression of immense relief crossed Ron’s freckled face. He grinned at Hermione and said happily, ‘D’you want to join me for lunch, then?’

Hermione opened her mouth to accept the invitation, but then she remembered Shadow’s advice. Perhaps a little space might do the two of you some good… Hermione promptly closed her mouth and bit her lips in contemplation.

Was Shadow right? Should she and Ron try to spend a few days apart? He himself had warned Hermione that his advice might not be good, and yet it was the only advice she had…

‘Hermione?’

Hermione looked up at Ron. Softly, she whispered, ‘I’m sorry Ron, but I have to work on…work on a few things today.’ She cringed, loathing herself for letting the lie slip out so easily.

Ron looked crestfallen. Instead of arguing, though, he simply said quietly, ‘Okay. I’ll see you at dinner, Hermione.’

And with that, he stood up and stalked out of the room.

Hermione gazed after Ron’s retreating back, wishing she could run over to him and hug him and tell him that there was nothing in the world she wanted more than to spend an afternoon with him. Despite this, she held back, remembering Shadow’s advice.

Shadow.

Hermione wasn’t sure how she felt about him anymore. On one hand, he acted as if he was making his best attempts to change and become a better person than he had been in the past. On the other hand, the bits of his past he did mention all but frightened Hermione. What if he had not entirely turned over a new leaf? Was the shadow (Hermione smiled wryly at the pun) of his old self still lurking behind him?

Sighing, Hermione ran a hand through her hair, wondering why she was troubling herself so much over someone she hardly knew. Just by existing, Shadow was making a mess of Hermione’s life: first her job (which did not receive as much attention as it used to, for Hermione now spent many hours just staring into space and wondering when her next letter would arrive), then Ron, and now herself.

Yet despite all the trouble he was causing, Hermione felt an inexplicable pull towards this seemingly miserable, conflicted man. She wanted to help him put the scars of his past behind, and at the moment, the only way she could do this was by writing back to him.

And so she did.




Dear Shadow,

Just this morning, I received your letter, and now I can’t help but write back to you. To be honest, it may not be very smart of me to be devoting all this time to the challenge, but – and I don’t know about you – I’m enjoying it.

It seems that all I do lately is sleep, eat, work, and write to you. I feel like I can never spend enough time at the Ministry. I’ve been working tirelessly on finding out all I can about a collaboration of ex-Death Eaters that, as I’ve been told, and planning to found a new dark era. No matter how hard and long I try, though, it’s like trying to keep water in your bare hands: as soon as I scoop up more facts, some others disappear or are proven false. I can’t even put into words how frustrated this makes me; not only does it get me no where, between it and standing guard over certain rooms in the Ministry, I have absolutely no time on my hands. Luckily, my family and friends are both wonderfully supportive and sensible enough to force me to get rest or go out when I need to.

About my problem: I took your advice. He apologised to me this morning, though, and I felt dreadfully guilty brushing him off. Nonetheless, I thought I would try what you said – that is, maintain a little space between us for a while. I can only hope that it will work out, because the last thing I want is for our relationship to fall apart.

I’m terribly sorry; I shouldn’t have rambled on about myself like that. Shadow…I’ve been thinking. Perhaps it’s too much to ask too soon, but might it be possible for us to meet? I could take the Invisibility Cloak I usually use on missions so you won’t see me, and you can think of some other way to hide your identity. It probably sounds far-fetched, but I would like to talk to you in person. If this is possible, please owl me back a location and time.

Hoping to hear from you,
Starlight


Hermione shut her eyes tightly the moment she let the quill fall out of her hand. Had she really written it? It was true; she had secretly been pondering the possibility of someday meeting Shadow in person. But…she hadn’t intended to suggest it so soon.

What better time than right now? her mind encouraged. He sounds very upset; I’m sure he’ll welcome the chance to talk to you face to face…

Praying that her request had not been too out of line, Hermione swallowed hard and folded the letter. She would seal it when she returned to her bedroom and send it immediately afterwards.

Now, though, Hermione had an entirely different task on her mind: to find her boyfriend and apologise.



♥ Annie
jealous

Comments

( 18 — Speak )
mazrah
mazrah wrote:
27th Dec, 2005 20:17 (UTC)
That was great! Hope to see a new chapter soon! =)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 01:37 (UTC)
Thanks :)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 01:37 (UTC)
Thanks :)
(Anonymous) wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 01:00 (UTC)
I think it's MY turn to say thank you! Thanks for another great chapter.

This line in particular-- ‘“How do you melt a heart of ice”…that’s so romantic, Hermione! I think someone –’ it made me laugh out loud. Ginny is such a wonderful and light character in this fic. I love her. :)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 01:38 (UTC)
Haha I'm guessing you're Chungsol :P I'm glad you like Ginny...I haven't written her in character, but I wanted to base her off of Meg's character in the PotO movie so I made her all gigglyish :P When I wrote that line, I was imagining her saying to Christine, 'He's so handsome, Christine!'
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 01:38 (UTC)
Haha I'm guessing you're Chungsol :P I'm glad you like Ginny...I haven't written her in character, but I wanted to base her off of Meg's character in the PotO movie so I made her all gigglyish :P When I wrote that line, I was imagining her saying to Christine, 'He's so handsome, Christine!'
lyssieviolet wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 02:12 (UTC)
:o
cliffhanger much? lol. i hope draco says ok. and i love you a lot, too. you're right, fan fiction is one thing which we've been through together (through all the frustration and tiresome debates <3.) i just want to let you know, everything we've been through, i'll NEVER change it for anything in the world. it means too much to me.

and my fic... well. i actually posted all 8 cahpters on FA because i've had that account since you suggested i make one and never used it. and i was sick and tired of getting reviews like "im srry but i onli liek jameslily fics" on ff.net (how effing DENSE does one get? if you only like 'jameslily' fics then don't read my fricken fic.) but yeah, on FA i'm getting some positive reviews. i've written about half of chapter nine and there's this huge cliffhanger but i dunno... i don't want to give up on that fic because i really love it and it's really original but then again i'm writing a book and that's a wholke new experience. i absolutely love writing my own story. i don't have to worry if i'm writing someone too out of chracter or if i'm making a simple mistake that the reviewers are bound to pick up. this way it's simple and, literally, clean. anyway, like hermione i'm rambling so let me just comment on the fic.

i absolutely love hermione's reaction. she's already falling for shadow. i love it. she's worried about him and such. wish draco would feel the same way. but yeah, you're amazing at writing hermione in this fic, i have to admit. for one, you're making hermione contradict everything hermione stands for. that is, a respect for her work and a respect for what she believes in. i mean, she's literally going against her better judgement and taking shadow's advice. i love how the whole trust thing is portrayed there. it's really subtle (i like that word) but yet it's somewhat frank. fkdajakdlfjdf bah. i'm typing too much, aren't i? i'm horrible at this. but still; how you write hermione is excellent. personally, i love when writers put other chracters out of chracter. simply because it shows how good of a writer he/she is. because once people love your story even when a chracter is out of chracter that just shows you're one tough cookie. lots of love and update soon.

from jamaica (oh dear...),
alyssa.
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 03:22 (UTC)
Re: :o
Lyssa you're the best, I hope you know that. I'm glad you don't mind that Hermione's OOC, lol, because I've been getting a lot of crap from people who keep complaining about how the fic would be good if I could just make Hermione more 'Hermioneish'. Though, if I were to make her what they believe is 'Hermioneish', she'd pretty much just be a one-dimensional character who works every minute of her day. Okay, nvm, I'm going to stop here...I keep ranting about this whole OOC thing without meaning to, haha.

Anyway, you have to give me the link to your story on FA. I want to read it! And I'm sooo proud of you for beginning your own book. I don't have the courage to start one because I know I'd probably get sick of it eventually. If you ever do get it published, you had best tell me its title so I can buy it and read it. If I may ask, is it fiction or nonfiction?
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 03:22 (UTC)
Re: :o
Lyssa you're the best, I hope you know that. I'm glad you don't mind that Hermione's OOC, lol, because I've been getting a lot of crap from people who keep complaining about how the fic would be good if I could just make Hermione more 'Hermioneish'. Though, if I were to make her what they believe is 'Hermioneish', she'd pretty much just be a one-dimensional character who works every minute of her day. Okay, nvm, I'm going to stop here...I keep ranting about this whole OOC thing without meaning to, haha.

Anyway, you have to give me the link to your story on FA. I want to read it! And I'm sooo proud of you for beginning your own book. I don't have the courage to start one because I know I'd probably get sick of it eventually. If you ever do get it published, you had best tell me its title so I can buy it and read it. If I may ask, is it fiction or nonfiction?
lyssieviolet wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 16:05 (UTC)
ah, ok. when i get home i'll get the link for you. and of course i'll tell you if i publish it. you're gonna get a signed copy XD. meh, i dunno when we're going home. i'm stealing internet time on shane's dad's laptop, lol. and when will people realise, if they don't like a story why do they keep reasing it and ranting about things like chracters being out of character and not liking the ships.

but you know, i feel so weird when you read my fic. i mean, you're like a great writer and i feel all inferior to you and stuff. lol. bah, if that makes you feel guilty, don't. it's just true. when i was reading this chapter at one part of it i actually thought i was reading JKR's work. i swear to god, it's like just one line but it sounded just like JKR.

you have talent. and lots of it. so just keep writing. and don't worry, some day you'll get tired of fanfiction and you'll want to do your own work :). once you're passionate about it it'll be passionate to you.

love,
lyssa.
lyssieviolet wrote:
28th Dec, 2005 16:14 (UTC)
ah, sorry i had forgotten your question. it's fiction but it's about finding who you really are and love and whatnot. and i feel all happy that you're proud of me ^.^. i'm really proud of you, too because i mean, after all the shit you've gotten from people about your fics you continue to write them without changing a thing to suit what people say. you just write from your heart and i think that's how it's meant to be. like i always told you, you're a really strong person. you may ot think you are, but to me you're really strong. probably not physically and emotionally but mentally you're extremely strong. <3
(Anonymous) wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 05:49 (UTC)
Oh yeah, I forgot to ask you! Are you entering the current contest at MuggleNet? I really hope you do! :)

-Chungsol
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 07:02 (UTC)
Oh, I completely forgot about that! I was planning to enter it a while ago, but other things came up and I sorta forgot to write an entry. I'll try to see if I can whip one up tomorrow...thanks for reminding me :D
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 07:02 (UTC)
Oh, I completely forgot about that! I was planning to enter it a while ago, but other things came up and I sorta forgot to write an entry. I'll try to see if I can whip one up tomorrow...thanks for reminding me :D
(Anonymous) wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 12:54 (UTC)
Oh dear!... I love this FF! ^_^
keep writing, keep updating, keep writing, keep updating... thank u!
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:43 (UTC)
Thank you very much!
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:43 (UTC)
Thank you very much!
(Anonymous) wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 12:56 (UTC)
NICE!
I LOVE YOUR STORY. hope to see the new chapter up soon! (: keep up the great work!
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:42 (UTC)
Re: NICE!
Thanks! The next chapter will be up sometime tomorrow or the day after? I'm not sure, I haven't written in a while so I'm thinking I should post chapters at larger intervals.
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:42 (UTC)
Re: NICE!
Thanks! The next chapter will be up sometime tomorrow or the day after? I'm not sure, I haven't written in a while so I'm thinking I should post chapters at larger intervals.
Amethyst
amethyst_snape wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 16:52 (UTC)
Great Job on the fic so far =D

Can't wait for the next chapter!
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:42 (UTC)
Thank you :)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:42 (UTC)
Thank you :)
(Anonymous) wrote:
29th Dec, 2005 23:25 (UTC)
Nice chapter. But the story shouldn't be too predictable and overly dramatic. I mean, if in the next chapter Draco hesitates, panics and says no and Ron finds the letter (just by coincidence left spread on the desk or bed) and makes a scene, then I guess you should stop watching soap operas :)
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:41 (UTC)
I'm afraid I'm neither an advocate of the "Burn Every Cliche and Overly Dramatic" campaign nor a frequent watcher of soaps, so regardless of whether I have the story planned out the way you hoped it wouldn't be or not, I'm still going to leave it the way it is. Thank you, though.
Annie
_pinkchocolate wrote:
30th Dec, 2005 01:41 (UTC)
I'm afraid I'm neither an advocate of the "Burn Every Cliche and Overly Dramatic" campaign nor a frequent watcher of soaps, so regardless of whether I have the story planned out the way you hoped it wouldn't be or not, I'm still going to leave it the way it is. Thank you, though.
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