November 3rd, 2008

mark sanchez :(

The night before, life goes on

I'm so ridiculously overwhelmed right now. Midterm after midterm, essays, term papers, newspaper articles, internship applications, job interviews (or rather, job interview, singular... *crosses finger for Wednesday*)... I've pretty much been living at my desk these past few days.

It doesn't help that I'm back where I started with my hd_hols fic, i.e. wanting to scrap it and rewrite the whole thing because it refuses to cooperate. I've never really felt limited by my writing ability until now. Well, no, that's not true, I have, but I've never felt this limited. I don't know if you guys are aware, but not being able to write something even though you know exactly what you want to write is the most frustrating thing in the world. (I'm not sure if that even makes sense; just trust me on it.) I'm hoping an extension will give me time to get over this, but idk :( I just have way too much to do. I can't afford to sit in front of my laptop for hours on end, waiting for inspiration to strike. I seriously don't know how some people manage to consistently churn out amazing fest fics in the last week or so before a deadline. I need to learn how to do that, seriously.

I'm terribly stressed about the election tomorrow, too. No matter what the polls and experts say, I don't think Obama has clinched this win yet, not even close. I'm even more concerned about prop 8 than the presidential election. My campus is fairly liberal, so no on prop 8 is the general agreement around here, but I know it's the same everywhere in California. One of my roommate's friends has been spewing a bunch of crap about protecting religion, and he keeps shoving it in my face and then getting offended by my "hateful immaturity" when I basically tell him I don't give a damn about what his religion preaches. *takes deep breaths* I can't wait for this election to be over. I guess we'll know what happens in a day...