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Ugh. [21 Apr 2010|06:11pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I knew there must have been a reason that my mind was telling me that today was supposed to be Thursday and completely skip Wednesday. It's like my mind knew today was going to be a bad day.

I'm just not in a good place right now, and the worst part it, I don't know how to get to a good place.

I can only sew so much. It doesn't clear my head like it used to.


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I don't care. [23 Mar 2010|12:22am]
[ mood | okay ]

I just can't bring myself to care about other people's problems. Nope. I enjoy wallowing in my own stuff too much to bring other people's problems into my own. And generally other people's problems are dumb and not worth my time.

I do hate that most of my life is consumed with business that in reality is pointless. It doesn't benefit me. I don't get paid, it brings me undue stress, and forces me to deal with people that I don't want to deal with. But I won't stop because it's practically the only way I talk to people outside of work and my parents. So there's that.

In other news I got a Blackberry. I feel really cool with it.

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I'm having one of those days. [04 Mar 2010|03:49pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Don't tell me you have my back, job wise, when I'm still here at home almost A YEAR after graduating and all I have to show for it is working at BBW. No, I don't want to be your secretary or your "assistant". I've done that for 3 years now and have nothing to show for it. Forgive me for not believing. I just hate people.

I wish I could just sew for the rest of my life and be sustained. Because it's SOLITARY.

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Addendum. [17 Feb 2010|01:41pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

Things I wish I could have said in my interview:

"Yes, I realized I am overqualified for this position. The positions I AM qualified for do not exist. Is that a look of shock? Why do you think you've gotten like 80 responses to your part time receptionist position? There are no jobs out there."

"I have a lot of stuff on my resume because I'VE DONE A LOT OF STUFF. I am not flaky. I am the opposite of flaky. I managed to do everything on there well and graduate on time cum laude. If I pared down my resume, you would think I haven't done anything."

"No, I can't just move to DC because that's where I want to eventually end up. Why do you think I'm here?! I don't have tons of money lying around and I'm not just here for shits and giggles. I have student loans. I can't afford rent, utilities, food, and everything else that comes with moving. Moving is about the worst advice you could give to a college grad who can't get a decent job at home, because what makes you think I could magically get a decent job if I just moved?"

"No, don't bother, I'll find something else."

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Illness. [30 Dec 2009|12:39am]
[ mood | sick ]

I apparently haven't updated in 3 weeks. oops. My apologies.

I've been working. Saw a bunch of Dallas people recently due to Christmas. Thanks holidays.

Thankfully I had off from work today because I was so sick. Massive head cold. It wasn't too bad, until I got a shower. Then it got miserable. Hopefully tomorrow will be the last of it because I have work for 4 days straight after tomorrow.


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Productivity. [08 Dec 2009|11:09pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

I was very productive today. Got some bills paid (well, OK, just one bill), sewed a chicken, dealt with my health insurance, wrote out from Christmas cards (if you want one, give me your address!). And I am well rested because I didn't have work today and could sleep in. It was awesome.

Got my schedule for next week and I work 5 days. And I have stuff to do on the 2 days I have off. I'm just going nonstop until at least the middle of January. That's good though. I'm just going to be so worn out.

I had the PA Quilter's Holiday Dinner last night, which I was in charge of. It pretty much meant getting favors and making sure the room looked OK. It was a lot of fun though. The food was delicious, the little auction did well. All the old ladies loved it. Well obviously because old ladies love me.

I thought I was going to have more to write, but I don't. I don't know, my life's going OK.

I think it's supposed to snow. And I have work tomorrow. My parents are so insane, they concocted this plan where my dad would drive me to work and then my mom would pick me up. I may be done at work at 2. She's not done until 4ish. AWESOME. If they give me one of their credit cards, everything would be fine, haha. Or, they could just let me drive in the snow. But like I said, they're crazy.

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California. [16 Nov 2009|12:47am]
[ mood | okay ]

I bought a cassette adapter for the car so I could listen to my mp4 player while I drove. I really wanted to listen to some Spice Girls today because it was warm and I had the window down. But the cassette player kept rejecting it, even though it had been working just yesterday. If it doesn't work tomorrow I'm going to be very angry.

After my bitching about not working enough, I feel like all I've done recently is worked, haha. I got called in early for my one shift, had to go to all my on call shifts, and we had a store meeting tonight. Free Sweet Pea lotion (which is good because I'm running out of mine)! Work again tomorrow. At least now my next 2 pay checks will be somewhat substantial, haha.

I actually really like working though. I like the people I work with, I don't mind the customers. Some people are crazy, but no one has been too bad. As long as no one returns anything, I'm generally fine. That's about the one thing I have no idea how to do, and I've been shown a lot. It just doesn't sink in for some reason.

If the one manager wasn't lying, I get to OPEN on Black Friday! 5am! This should be so much fun! I'm actually kind of excited about it. I'm sure that will change 5 minutes into the shift, haha. But the manager who told me and another girl I worked with today are also opening, and I really like them a lot, so it'll be interesting for sure.

I should start pretending to go to bed. I have work in the morning! OK, 1130, but still!

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Work. [08 Nov 2009|02:55pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm drowning.

I NEED to work more hours. Desperately. I have unlimited availability. Really! I have nothing else to do with my life!

But I manage to only get scheduled for 3 hours a week. And never needed when I'm on call.

I can't do this. I just got a student loan bill worth more than what was in my bank account. I had to go to my reserves. I never want to use that money. That's my "just in case" money. I shouldn't need to use it WHEN I HAVE A JOB.

But there's nothing else. Absolutely nothing else.

Drowning. What a perfect word.

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November. [04 Nov 2009|11:53pm]
[ mood | okay ]

It's November? WTF yo? This year is going by so fast.

I should go to bed, have to wake up and shower and find out if I have to go into work tomorrow. I still don't know if I want them to tell me to come in or not. I do need the money though.

Oh, and baseball finally ended. I really hate baseball.

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Cabin fever. [23 Oct 2009|09:42pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I need to get out of this house. Well, I really just need to spend time with people my age. I think that's why I won't mind going to work. I get to interact with people who are closer to my age. You go a little crazy when the only people you talk to are your parents. And by a little crazy, I mean REALLY crazy.

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