|| ahh it's freezing in here!
heavy stuff has been going down lately.
stressful times with the roommate and his girlfriend, much tension.
my mom's boss died on monday, so that day kinda sucked, i was having a real bad case of the mondays. went to the funeral yesterday. tried to keep it together so my mom wouldn't cry more. dead bodies freak me out. i'm afraid they'll jump up or something, even though i know they're dead.
thennnnn, this really awesome lady, who i've known my whole life. her name is clara and she's one of the funniest, caring, people i've ever known, is dying. she probably would have died yesterday if my mom didn't go to her house. we went and saw her in the hospital and i started crying a little bit. they were taking her blood pressure and she was in pain and i just couldn't watch it. i tried to get her to eat, which she did a little. part of me thinks she was only doing it to make me happy. i think she's just ready to die. she's 91 years old. that's such a long time. and there's a bunch of shit going on with her neighbors and how they're messing up her estate and want to take everything and screw her over. i can't handle her dying right now. i told my mom to let me know what happens, because i know my grandma won't tell me till a week later because she wants me to concentrate on school, which is understandable. it's still stressful.
coming down here i got the pain in my stomach i used to get last year. i'm just too anxious and stressed out. i guess this midterm isn't helping out either. it's due tomorrow and i barely started. and another paper, i'm sure if i tell my teacher what's been happening she'll let me do it on wednesday.
tomorrow i have to go and get everything figured out. register for summer, get my holds off, apply for the interdiscipinary studies program, who knows what else. at least there is no work, which is good.
i'm excited for next term. last term of the year, and i get to teach crafts to the first and second graders. awesome stuff and...15 bucks an hour!!!
and in other good news, i thought motion city soundtrack was march 26th, but it's february 26th, meaning sunday! so kurtis and i are going to go to it! yess!