ow my arm hurts like a bitch. I think I may have fractured it. except, I don't remember how. I can't move it, barely.
I hate getting that drunk. the night started out fine. I just drank too quickly, I guess. I was dancing for a while, though, that was fun. then it gets blurry, and I'm pulling robbie over to me and saying "dance with me", and so we dance for a while, then it gets blurry again, and I think I was sitting on the back of a truck with him, and then... ina may comes and gets me? and I fall over? I think? so so so blurry... then I remember cops showing up, and passing out in the bushes... somewhere... and then kelsey and gaia showing up in a golf cart and taking me up to kelsey's house... and using gaia's cell phone, calling ina may. ina says she's at alana's... I tell her to come get me. then it's blurry again... and then kelsey's dad is helping me into his truck, says he's gonna drive me home. I'm sitting in the front seat for awhile, and they're outside of the car talking about me. I'm really fucking drunk, I can barely move. I throw up on myself. kelsey's dad says something like "good, she's throwing up." then it's blurry again... I think I used his cell phone in the car to call ina may again. then I wake up and I'm lying... somewhere... and ina may is helping me up. and then we lie down again, in the grass, right by my house. I'm really cold, I'm shivering and throwing up. ina may tells me that my mom is still up and probably won't go to bed until we come home. I tell ina may i wanna go to my mom's car and lie down in there, so we go to the car, I pass out in there. then I'm suddenly in my house, out in the living room grabbing clothes from the dryer, my mom is asleep. I put on the clothes, go back to my room, knock over some shit, and fall asleep.
that was my version. this is ina may's... what she told me. not sure if it's in the right order or whatever...
she says she lost me, and found me with robbie, and tried to get me to come with her, but I kept falling over and couldn't get up. that I was trying to go pee in front of everyone, she had to stop me. some guys help her carry/drag me over to somewhere to sit. I fall off the chair. we're hanging out with yeshua and all his little friends, and I keep telling yesh to "pack a bowl, fucker, pack a bowl..." and then there's this fight, or these two guys are gonna fight, or something... and I lose one of my shoes, so I have to go get it, and wander off. ina may can't find me. she goes to alanas, gets a ride with matt. I call her, tell her to come get me. then hang up. call her again, tell her I'm at home. she gets a ride up to my house and finds me passed out in my driveway (gravel, mind you. ow, I have lots of scrapes). she drags me over to some grassy area, we lie there for a while. I'm cold, so we go to the car. then we sleep in the car for awhile, she wakes up, gets me out of the car and we start walking up the stairs to my house. she says I looked REALLY fucked up, I was all dirty and looked really drunk. (I don't remember this part at all) then we come in the house, my mom is on the computer. she smiles at us, ina may talks to her, and I mumble "i'm tired" and we walk to my room. we're in my room for awhile, and then I go out and come back in and pass out.
that night sucked. she said I kept going over to robbie. greeeat. whatever.
my mom had no idea, though. thank fucking god. I really hope kelsey's parents don't tell her. whatever.
I'm so sick of this. getting drunk is so lame. parties are lame. I hate how stupid I am sometimes. why can't I just... not be an idiot? jeesus.