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23 July 2013 @ 04:36 pm
[Inuyasha] it might all be ok - Inuyasha/Kagome  
Title: it might all be ok
Author: Kagome
Series: Inuyasha
Word Count: 1005
Rating: G
Characters, Pairings: Inuyasha/Kagome
Summary: He wishes he could just let her sleep.
Warnings: none, aside from a bit of sap
Notes: Title is from Matt Kearney's “All I Need”, as are the lyrics at the end. I was given this song as a prompt and Inuyasha/Kagome as a pairing by kanarazu. I think I failed magnificently, but I'll leave her to be the judge of that. If you guys would like for me to write something for you, please see this post.



She's taken to leaving her bedroom window open, he's noticed. It makes it easier for him and he appreciates it, though he may not voice as much. It also makes it more dangerous for her—there are different kinds of monsters where she lives, and so he will have no problem berating her for it later.

(Some things are easier to say than others.)

He's as quiet as a mouse when he enters, toes wiggling in the softness of her carpet. If it were grass, it would rustle slightly, but he's certain that she wouldn't notice anyway. Her ears are purely human—not nearly as sensitive as his own.

More importantly, she's fast asleep, just as he'd expected she would be. It is the middle of the night, after all, and he knows she's tired. There's an urgency that surrounds them these days, a need to get everything finished nownownow because maybe there's not much time left (no, there's definitely not much time left) and maybe Naraku will kill them all in the end anyway.

He doesn't like that his thoughts take these dark turns from time to time. Looking at her helps, because she always has a smile for him and reassuring words and gestures at the ready. She can touch his hand, and for a moment, everything's okay.

However, he's seen the concern in her eyes. She carries her own burdens and he sees them weigh her down when she thinks no-one is looking.

(He always sees the worry, the fear, and he wishes that he could wipe it all away and return her to the carefree state that he knew she must have been in prior to their meeting—once upon a time, she only had to deal with 'tests' and regular home life and now she has to deal with demons and creatures out for her soul.

And yet... he's selfish enough to want to keep her for himself, to never let her go. He doesn't know if that makes him childish, but he's trying to be the man that he knows she needs him to be.)

Even now, her brow is creased—what haunts her during her waking hours follows her in her dreams, and he hates that. He wants her to be able to relax, to live worry-free, but the only life either of them knows now is this one: rest while you can and then it's time to move. Move, move, move. They're closing in on Naraku, they all know it, and there honestly isn't much time to rest even though sleep is necessary.

He gently touches her brow and for a moment, those worry-lines cease to exist. Then she stirs and opens her eyes, gazing at him sleepily.

“Hi,” she murmurs as she reaches for his hand, brushing her fingers along his skin.

“Hey,” he returns, softly and without a hint of the anxiety he currently feels. There is ice in his veins and he is proud that his hand doesn't tremble when he moves it slightly so he can touch her face. He is excited and he is terrified and though he is certain that he's doing a good job of hiding it, she knows all the same.

She doesn't comment on it, though. Instead, she just asks, “Is it time to go?”

He wants to tell her no. He wants to tell her to go back to sleep—he'd love to say, “I'll take care of everything and I'll be back soon.”

But they need her. He needs her, and not just because of her ability to sense the jewel shards. It hasn't been about that for a long time.

So he nods. “Yeah, we gotta go. Miroku thinks he's on to something, but I'll explain more when we get there.”

Without further questions asked, she gets out of bed. He turns his back to her out of politeness while she changes clothes, and then she scribbles a quick note for her family (he likes them more than he's willing to admit) before grabbing her bag and slinging it over her shoulders.

She reaches for his hand again, linking their fingers together as they leave her house and head for the well.

“You'll protect me,” she says knowingly, unafraid. “So I'm not worried.”

“I will,” he vows, and they both know he will—he would never lie about something like this. There's that cold ball of terror in the pit of his stomach, that 'what if?' that he doesn't want to acknowledge. He refuses to lose her.

Her fingers squeeze his, and he squeezes back just as tightly.

You're all I need, he thinks. I have all I need with me right now.

He'll ask her, after all of this is over. He'll ask her if she would like to build a life with him, because he can't imagine his life without her anymore. He doesn't want to.

He won't need to, he tells himself. He looks at her and he smiles and he dares to let himself believe it.

Because life isn't worth living if you don't take a few chances along the way.

I'm holding on to you, holding on to me
Maybe it's all we got but it's all I need
You're all I need.




~END~

I'm so damn rusty it's not even funny.
 
 
 
[ we're the only two people left alive ] ☥: kimi ni todoke lovekanarazu on July 24th, 2013 12:25 am (UTC)
Oh my goodness. Where is the rust? I do not see it!

I love how you described Inuyasha's feelings. He does put up a brave front all the time and he's such a proud soul, but I love that Kagome understands and doesn't feel the need to expose that part of him. She knows, she's aware, but she'll never rub it in because she understands the need to be strong in the face of fear.

But they need her. He needs her, and not just because of her ability to sense the jewel shards. It hasn't been about that for a long time.

How beautiful was this? I love this. It's so simple and straight to the point. I think that this kind of raw honesty of his feelings is more poetic than the most flowery verses of other Inuyasha fics I've read. I think that this serves as a better reflection of his character, actually. There were fics I would read where I'd be like "Jesus...is he gonna sprout a rosebush any time soon?"

I love it, honey! And it went perfectly with the song! :D
Kagome: Last of Us - Save Youkagome_angel on July 24th, 2013 02:11 am (UTC)
Are you sure you don't see it? Because I'm certain it's there! <3

Oh, thank you! I always see Inuyasha as this proud and sometimes silly guy who doesn't always voice what he means, but he does find ways to show it. And Kagome knows him--knows him better than anybody. She pushes him when she knows she needs to, but she accepts who he is and she loves him for it.

*blushflail* Thank you again. I can't imagine Inuyasha as using flowery language, even in just his thought processes. He's more straightforward than that. There's nothing at all wrong with flowery language when it is appropriate for the character. In this case, I didn't feel like it was.

I was also really worried that I wouldn't fulfill the prompt like you wanted me to--like it wouldn't match up well with the song. But hey, you said you love it and it works and that is all that matters! I'm so glad you enjoyed! <33333
[ we're the only two people left alive ] ☥: 5 cm per secondkanarazu on July 24th, 2013 05:37 am (UTC)
Should I spam you with gifs? Because I totally will just to express how much I thought this did not suck. :P

[SPAM IN PROGRESS]











Kagome: Last of Us - Save Youkagome_angel on July 26th, 2013 05:14 pm (UTC)
HAHAHA I LOVE THIS.
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Kagome: Last of Us - Save Youkagome_angel on July 26th, 2013 05:20 pm (UTC)
OH MAN I WAS JUST THINKING THERE HAS TO BE RUST EVERYWHERE. LIKE. Yeah. I don't remember the last time I wrote anything Inuyasha-centric though I do love the series. I think I've never properly written fanfiction and posted it here for this fandom. Well, here's the first one I guess. XD

But thank you so much, dear. I'm so glad you enjoyed! :)