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21 November 2011 @ 02:12 pm
[The Vampire Diaries] and love is not the easy thing - Damon/Elena, mentions Stefan/Elena  
Title: and love is not the easy thing
Author: Kagome
Series: The Vampire Diaries (television series verse)
Word Count: 621
Rating: PG
Characters, Pairings: Damon/Elena, Stefan/Elena mentioned.
Summary: He’s not sure either of them knows how to let him go.
Warnings: Spoilers if you haven’t seen up to 3x09, mild language, angst, comfort-fic.
Notes: This was a prompt requested by linsell_farm at the TVD comment ficathon here. Prompt was: Damon/Elena: Then we’ll let him go.

This is the second time she’s come to his bed to offer him the comfort that he won’t admit he needs. He knows she’s standing there—he doesn’t even have to open his eyes for a visual confirmation (he can smell her, hear her soft breaths), but he does anyway.

She is beautiful, her hair down and messy, her face makeup-free, her eyes full of concern (for him) and pain (that she won’t speak of, because she thinks he needs her now more than she needs him). He wants to reach for her and he almost does, but he stops himself at the last moment, changes his mind and waits, because it’s the right thing to do (and he may not always be great at doing ‘the right thing’ but when it’s worth it, he sure as hell tries).

“Scoot over,” she says, voice rough with the emotion that he knows she can’t dispel. She’s been crying, but probably for him more than for herself, because that’s just how she is.

He tries to tease, because he’s good at it and because it’s what he does: “Why, Miss Gilbert, are you trying to seduce me?” His attempt is a failure for the most part, for no amusement colors his tone even though it does tug a smile from her lips, and he supposes that is better than nothing.

“Yes,” she answers, and the response is neither serious nor playful, it just is. “This is how I always look when I’m trying to be sexy.” The sarcasm is there, but just barely. Her nose is a little red and the skin beneath her eyes is somewhat puffy. If circumstances were different and she came to him like this, offering herself, he wouldn’t hesitate.

But he knows that that isn’t what this is about, and so he makes room for her, and settles into her embrace when she slides into bed beside him, wrapping her arms around him. It makes him feel a little calmer, a little less broken.

“I don’t know,” he says a few moments later just to break the silence, “some guys get turned on when the girl cries.” Another pitiful attempt at humor that mostly falls flat.

“Shut up,” she replies, voice muffled.

He does, and for what feels like ages, he just listens to her breathing and he focuses on the way her body relaxes within the circle of his arms. Yes, they will survive this, but it’s not going to be easy. Why is it that the things that begin with the letter ‘L’ are always the hardest to do?

“We’ll let him go,” she repeats—perhaps to reassure. Perhaps to validate. Perhaps to emphasize. He doesn’t know if he should be angry or relieved or hurt over the fact that she’s willing to give up on what she’s been fighting for ever since he himself came back from the brink of death.

For the most part, he realizes, he just feels a strong sense of empathy, because he’s in this with her—she isn’t alone. Nor is he.

He nods an affirmative, nuzzling lightly at the top of her head, breathing her in. After all of these years (over a century) of chasing after his brother, of watching over him in his own way… after all they’ve been through together and after all these years that he’s held on… he’s not sure that he even knows how to let go.

He isn’t sure that she knows how, either.

They’ll fall, one way or the other. They’ll learn, or they won’t.

The only thing he’s sure of (as her arms tighten around him) is that they’ll figure it out together, and for now, he’s okay with that.


Yes, I am an unrepentant sap. :)
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happyevraftr: vd delena happyevraftr on November 21st, 2011 07:24 pm (UTC)
I'm happy you're an unrepentant sap, because I am too and that was simply wonderful!! Loved all the emotions you brought out :)
Kagome: TVD - playing doctorkagome_angel on November 25th, 2011 03:15 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! Glad you liked. ^_^
Heather-Annlinsell_farm on November 21st, 2011 07:50 pm (UTC)
This is really, really wonderful! Thank you so very much for filling my prompt. Comfort and sappiness are just what I need ATM and your story is filled with both.
I love all the layers of emotions that you showed between these two. Particularly good was Elena crying more for him than herself and silencing her own feelings because he needs her more in this situation (which I totally agree with).
As hard as it will be for her to let Stefan go, it doesn't really compare to the history and intensity that Damon & Stefan share, making it much harder for Damon to let him go. Although, both of them (Damon & Elena) are equally bad in their ability to do so.
I just adored how they were simply there drawing comfort from one another. They both have the intrinsic ability and desire to be whatever the other needs. *sigh* How beautifully romantic is that???
Another particularly good thing was Damon teasing her. I love the way you acknowledged the attraction between them without making the whole story about that. It was just right, IMO.
So, thank you, again, for sharing your talent with us readers. I'm so glad that I posted that prompt. :D
Kagomekagome_angel on November 25th, 2011 03:18 am (UTC)
Oh, thank you! I'm so glad that you enjoyed this since it was your prompt! :) And I completely agree with you--Elena may love Stefan, but Damon is his brother, and has been by his side (in a sense) far longer than Elena has. So, of course it's going to be horribly difficult for him to let go. Even in moments where you figured he'd done just that, he hadn't.

The teasing is so very Damon, and he's trying hard here to not fall apart entirely.

You're welcome! Again, thank you. I'm relieved that you liked it as much as you did and the review is absolutely lovely.
Lady J.: Delenacrimsonandebony on November 22nd, 2011 12:14 pm (UTC)
This was awesome. I loved everything about this and it was so in character. Loved it.
Kagome: TVD - While you're sleepingkagome_angel on November 25th, 2011 03:19 am (UTC)
I'm glad you like it. Thank you for reading!
Bakanitessa99999 on November 24th, 2011 02:21 am (UTC)
I'll be honest; I wasn't expecting great quality of writing with such a short little one shot. I was very pleasantly surprised. I really like how you handled this. I think it's realistic to how the characters were feeling at the end of 3x09 and is very in character after that particular hardship. The attempts at being light hearted and funny were well done. It shows that Damon is trying to be himself, and he is trying to cheer her up a little bit even if it falls short of doing so. Again, it was just really well written and thought out. Thank you. Very well done.
Kagome: TVD - things you feltkagome_angel on November 25th, 2011 03:22 am (UTC)
Oh, wow, thank you! Yes, Damon is trying to be himself here, and trying to cheer her up too, even though it doesn't quite work as planned. I'm really glad you liked it. Thank you for commenting!
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Kagome: TVD - sexykagome_angel on November 28th, 2011 03:26 am (UTC)
I think something like this should have happened too! These two are so vulnerable right now!

Thank you!