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30 September 2008 @ 01:28 pm
[Drabble] Standstill - Shin/Aoi  
Title: Standstill
Author: Kagome
Theme: Lyrics # 1. Lyrics are located at the beginning of the drabble.
Warnings: Fluff, oddness.
Rating: PG
Pairing: Shin (Kagrra,)/Aoi (the GazettE)
Word Count: 491
Comments: Written for 10_encounters. The lyrics, which are at the beginning of the fic, are from Jinkaku Radio’s Nejimakidori. Today is _yoki_'s birthday, and I wrote this for her in honor of it. ^_______^ <333

Sometimes the world is kind when it stops spinning
"Don't be sad, next time I'll wind you up"

Shin has never been fond of simply ‘sitting around’. He isn’t the type to take frequent breaks, as he’d much rather be working than doing nothing. Aoi often argues that sometimes, doing nothing is good, and in a way, Shin can see his lover’s point. That doesn’t stop him from working long hours into the night on a particularly difficult piece, though. He likes to keep his hands busy. He likes to keep his mind busy.

Because, when everything has come to a standstill and everything is quiet—when there is no movement and no sound and when there are no thoughts about work to keep his mind occupied, he starts thinking about other, less pleasant things, and his train of thought begins to go round and round in a seemingly never-ending circle. But that’s what a circle is, right? It has no beginning and no end, and, depending on what the circle is made of, it can be difficult (or impossible) to break away from it and get back on the correct track.

He wonders sometimes how Aoi manages to put up with him. When Shin isn’t busy with work of some sort, he can often be found staring off into the distance, thinking about too many things and about nothing at all. Aoi worries about him, and Shin doesn’t mean to cause him worry. He just gets lost sometimes, when the world stops spinning.

He’s eternally grateful, though, that Aoi does somehow put up with him, because he knows that the days and the nights would be so much less bearable without him around. Shin doesn’t have to explain what he needs from Aoi when he gets like this (when there’s too much silence and too much noise and too many thoughts and yet no thoughts at all)—Aoi just always seems to know. Sometimes, Shin needs Aoi to be serious and to listen to all of the jumbled not-quite-thoughts in his mind. Sometimes, Shin needs Aoi to make him laugh. Sometimes, Shin needs nothing more than Aoi’s hand in his own.

But always, Shin needs Aoi to make things move again.

Shin isn’t sure what he needs now as he sits, staring at blank pieces of paper that have been blank for hours.

“Hey,” Aoi says quietly from behind him, leaning down to nuzzle at his neck.

“Hey,” Shin returns absent-mindedly, letting his head fall back to rest against Aoi’s shoulder.

“Come back to bed?” Aoi asks. He doesn’t mention the blank paper. He doesn’t try to pry; he simply tries to distract, and perhaps that’s what Shin needs right now to help pull him out of this—Aoi’s gentle distraction.

“… Yeah,” Shin eventually replies, turning in the swivel chair to look at the other guitarist.

Aoi smiles softly, leaning in again, closing the distance between their lips.

And the vicious cycle of too many thoughts and non-thoughts is broken—banished for now.

And the earth moves.

Okay, so, I couldn’t manage porn. XD Writing Shin is still entirely too new for that right now, but I am going to work my way up to it! ^^ Here’s fluff for now, mixed with Shin’s odd thoughts. For some reason, this was easy for me to write—the words just sort of flowed and they seem very Shin.

Of course, I could be terribly wrong, but I hope not.

Happy Birthday, darling. I hope you enjoyed this (and your other presents ^_~).
Current Mood: sillysilly
sike_o_path: Miroticsike_o_path on September 30th, 2008 06:10 pm (UTC)
*heart attack*
Ka-kagome... is this you? How have you been?

*gasp* I haven't read any jrock fics from you in months! *cuddles drabble*
How I've missed your writings!

Does this mean we will be seeing more of you around these parts?
Kagome_newworld on September 30th, 2008 08:17 pm (UTC)
*takes you to the hospital* XD I've gotten lost in the world that is Loveless (manga/anime), Death Note (manga/anime), and Kingdom Hearts (video game series). ^^ That's what I've been writing lately. Also have gotten lost in the world that is job hunting because nurse needs a job yes.

*snuggles* I will be posting Aoi/Manabu in a few days, I hope. <3333 Hope you are doing well, honey!
sike_o_pathsike_o_path on September 30th, 2008 08:27 pm (UTC)
*recovers* XD I've noticed. I still drop by your writing journal every once in a while to see what you've been up to...wow, those are all things I like too! Lol You're job hunting as well? Join the club, we have t-shirts and monogrammed cookies XP Senior year will cost me a small fortune so I must find work!

Whoa, I nearly forgot about that! So your Uruha/Manabu muse is still going strong?
I miss your three's a company series sooo very much. Will you be updating it sometime?

Bah, i'm doing as well as circumstance will allow at present. This whole college application process is stressful business.
lusiphinalusiphina on September 30th, 2008 06:37 pm (UTC)
I adore Shin/Aoi....but there's not really much of it.
(Can't wait for the porn)
But I don't think you've posted for a while have you? I've read lots of your stuff before, happy you have returned! <3

c(u u)
Kagome_newworld on September 30th, 2008 08:18 pm (UTC)
^_______^ I will definitely try for porning these two at some point! *LOL*

I've been posting plenty, just not any JRock for a while. Been writing lots for Loveless, Death Note, and Kingdom Hearts though.

Yay, bunny! And it's good to be back. ^_____^ Thank you. <333
予期_yoki_ on September 30th, 2008 11:43 pm (UTC)

Holy crap!! This was... very insightful, I think. It might serve as a good intro into Shin's basic character for those who are unfamiliar with him. Which is interesting, because you claim to be unfamiliar with him. XD You pulled it off perfectly. ^_^ I can totally see Shin thinking this way, and just being this way. It's beautiful. <3 Perfect. <333

And not to mention adorable. I loved it. ^_^ Thank you so much!!!!!!

Kagome: Uruha - Looking Sexy_newworld on October 1st, 2008 03:28 am (UTC)
*sighs in relief* YAAAAAYYYYY! I'm overjoyed that you liked this (as it is one of your presents, after all XD) and that you believe I wrote Shin well. *snuggle* I don't know... it wasn't difficult for me to write because it seemed like this is how Shin would be. Lost when he isn't working and/or distracted, and then a little distressed because he knows he makes Aoi worry.

You're very welcome, love. <3333333333333333333333333333333333 *CLING!*
A Kaonashi: Karyushii_tan on October 2nd, 2008 07:44 pm (UTC)
And the earth moves. ~
“Hey,” Aoi says quietly from behind him, leaning down to nuzzle at his neck.

“Hey,” Shin returns absent-mindedly, letting his head fall back to rest against Aoi’s shoulder.

I absolutely LOVE it when you write things like these! The atmosphere is so warm and comfotable that I spend the rest of the day with a dreamy grin on my face lol.

“… Yeah,” Shin eventually replies, turning in the swivel chair to look at the other guitarist.

This is my favorite sentence of the whole drabble. I know I keep repeating myself but you manage to put so much in such simple words, without any of them sounding too 'sha-la-la'. I am so jealous of these two and what they have... Yes, that's how realistic your writing is to me - should I be worried? lol

I loved Shin in this. The first time I saw him, It was 'omg what's with the GLARE OF DEATH D:' but he had become my favorite Kagrra member after Nao, that is. It's like no one writes good Kagrra smut anyway. So yeah. I can't wait for your good quality stuff.

Thank you for writing this :D
Kagome: Reita - Gloves_newworld on October 2nd, 2008 08:55 pm (UTC)
Re: And the earth moves. ~
I love writing things where the atmosphere is warm, and you can tell that there's love there, even though neither of them says it. I adore writing scenes like that. <3 I'm glad it affects you the way I intended. XD

One of the many things I really adore about your comments is that you always notice the little things. No matter if I put a lot of effort into getting a sentence exactly how I want it, or if it simply flows easily, you always notice and I really appreciate that. <33333 I don't think you should be worried. *hugs*

Bwaha! I adore Shin, too. ^_^ I hope to be working my way up to smut soon. :D

No problem at all, hon. Thank you for reading and commenting. *more hugs*